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I'm Bee and this is where I put stuff

[wellwaterhysteria]

nothing i write has a title oh no :(

[pukeymon]

“the poltergeist is a synonym for whatever welcomes it home” by Oliver Walton

[automaticsonggardener]

god I'm so glad that killing myself never worked my cat is so cool I love him so much

[lake-lady]

I come from a long line of people who should not have had children but did anyway

[automaticsonggardener]

Pillow over my face, sheets weighing heavy on my skin. Breath struggling to enter, to escape.

Weeks earlier I left notes on the stairs, raw expression of emotion. I am eight years old. I am suicidal.

Beatings instead of therapy.

All I have ever wanted was to be truly loved by you. I see how you love my younger sisters, how you shouldve loved me.

Inside me there is a broken little girl, crying in sadness, in rage, in confusion. Was she really that bad? Really bad enough?

Sometimes I wish it had killed me, that I'd choked on the bedsheets you held over my face. That I'd never woke up at all.

[automaticsonggardener]

We sleep in her bed, tell eachother all our secrets. I'd hold her face in my hands, draw out all that hurt in her eyes, all that stress she keeps in her jaw.

We are orbiting eachother, both star and planet. The center of both universes.

She takes me to the art gallery, and I spend the whole time taking pictures of her. She is the focal point of my life, the prettiest thing in this ancient hall of wonders. Standing by statues of aphrodite built in her image.

Not two sides of the same coin, or two halves of a whole. We are not one split into two. We are whole, together.

[illshowuheaven-deactivated20231]

Hardest drug is the weight of God’s indifference

[automaticsonggardener]

am I ready for unconditional emotional labour

[automaticsonggardener]

I think about you all the time and now you're back and I'm not sure. I dont know what to do. I asked for this but now I have it I still feel confused. I'm older now, I'm grown now. I need myself.

[automaticsonggardener]

he ruined my life he ruined my life he ruined my fucking life and I just have to sit here completely fucking traumatised forever n he just gets to fucking walk around and have MY friends and they all fucking know and no one fucking cared no one cared and they all believed me I fucking hate him I hope he dies

[automaticsonggardener]

enough of that sad shit I pierced my like upper ear lobes by myself and then made a grinch cookie

[zhan-xiaos]

the person reblogging this from you is rooting for you to have a happy, healthy, and successfull 2022

[automaticsonggardener]

the universe shows her signs in funny ways, gives you your karma in little ways. Gets you back with something small, but something big all at once.

Seeing my rapist outside my house on christmas eve.

A casual little reminder, you are not safe, you will never be safe. They lie in wait, teach you something you didn't need to learn, chokehold from a mile away.

Merry Christmas.

[automaticsonggardener]

I am at one with the Earth Mother, the Goddess. I am accepting this transition with open arms. I am in love with the universe. I am the universe, she is me, we are one.

[pukeymon]

“my room makes me feel weird so i sit in the car” by Oliver Walton

[automaticsonggardener]

my coworker said "you're messing with my OCD" because someone kept moving his pen. ok colin I had to get out of bed and back in 5 times this morning or there were going to be snakes in my living room

[theprideful-deactivated20251201]

people who say "i'm a little ocd 🤪" because they straighten their pens are the same ones who demonize people who have violent or sexual intrusive thoughts and think its weird or stupid if you have to flip a switch 7 times before you sit down