lilac sky;

everything is determined, the beginning as well as the end, by forces over which we have no control. It is determined for the insect, as well as for the star. human beings, vegetables, or cosmic dust, we all dance to a mysterious tune, intoned in the distance by an invisible piper.

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sorry but i think i just need to take the rest of the week to get my bearings together with all the chaos and then i’ll get to replies :(

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sorry for the ugly formatting but uhhh i shall get to replies tomorrow!! today has been super super stressful bc my country just announced a country wide four week lockdown so we are all stressed :(

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“You’re only say that because you need that much time to come up with something better.” Charlie teased before rolling her eyes at how cocky her wife could be at time. It was always something that turned her on, the confidence that radiated off her. But right now, Charlie figured that Alessa could do absolutely anything and she would still be turned on. If someone told her that she would have seen her wife today, Charlie would have most likely prepared a little bit more. “You’re worried about not being in sexy underwear?” Charlie gave her a look, shaking her head. “You at least knew you were going to see me today. I haven’t shaved in over a month.” Charlie’s eyes went wide before wiggling out of Alessandra’s grip. “Nope, you’re not allowed to touch me. I need to go shower.” Charlie stood over their bed, just out of reach. “Change, relax, eat. We can resume this in an hour.” 

“A years worth of planning will make for the best present though, beautiful.” Alessandra hummed, a smirk at her lips. She’d always been pretty confident in herself, it was just the way she’d always been. But she was able to recognise that and was mostly playful in the way that she showed it... especially because she knew how much her wife loved it. “Yes, we’re still newlyweds technically babe. I want to look sexy.” She teased. She shook her head, a laugh sounded as she leaned in so she could kiss the blonde, though she pouted when Charlie pulled away. “Ugh, fineeee. Whatever you say, my love.” With that she actually did get changed into something a lot comfier. She pottered around the house for a bit before ultimately ending up on the sofa as she waited for her wife to finish showering.

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This was foreign territory for Finley. She hadn’t brought a girl home to meet the team ever since moving into this house. She had a few one night stands, but no one that actually meant anything to her. She didn’t know how everyone was going to react. Or even if they would like Mera. Finley wanted to be able to say that it didn’t matter, but her team was the family that she made for herself. “I know you’ll be fine, I just don’t want you judgin me for them.” Finley smiled softly before leaning in to steal one more kiss before they entered the chaos. She grabbed Mera’s bags from the backseat before headed into the row home. “You make me sound like some horny boyo.” Finley gave her a look, knowing that there were so many reasons she wanted to whisk Mera away into her bedroom. She just wanted all the time she had for themselves. The moment the two entered the row home, it was quiet within the house. It could only mean one thing. No one was actually home. “I think we’re safe.” Finley looked over her shoulder with a wide smile. “Welcome to my world, Mera.” 

Mera doesn’t think her friends truly believed that she was actually dating a girl who lived so far away until she told them she was flying out to see her. It was then that they actually started to get properly excited for her — and she couldn’t wait to introduce Finley to them when it was her turn to fly to see her. Though she might be a little selfish in saying that part of her hoped that Finley’s friends were all busy... just for tonight — so she could just enjoy her girlfriend’s company. “I mean you said it not me.” Mera quipped innocently,  heading up towards the door. “Mhm, so it’s just me and you?” She asked, a smile toying at her lips before she leaned up to press a quick kiss to Finley’s lips. “I’m so excited to get to see your world.”

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Just thinking about the months that Finley was going to be able to spend with Mera this summer. It excited her and freaked her out at the same time. She was only scared because she figured that her girlfriend would get sick of her after only a few days. Hell, maybe a few hours. It was nerve wracking to think that they were going from such a long distance relationship to being stuck with each other. “I like the sound of that.” Finley was more than happy to have that viewing pleasure. She was beyond happy to not be viewing through a screen any longer. Looking over at Mera, Finley shook her head. “You haven’t seen anything. Think of a frat house.” She smirked, before getting out of her car and running over to open Mera’s. “They are going to be all over you since they all think you’re my snufalufagus.” Everyone in that house thought that Finley was making up her relationship with Mera. Even after the FaceTime calls and phone calls, they all still thought she was making it up. “Just keep the small talk to a minimum because all I want to do is make out with you right now.”

Now that they’ve finally met in person and she’s been able to kiss Finley and feel what it’s like to be in her arms — it’s something she’d never stop thinking about. This week’s memories are what will tide her over until she gets to see her love again for their summer together. “I figured you would.” She smirked, leaning over to steal a kiss from the girl. “A frat house, huh? I’ve got three older brothers babe, I’ll be fine.” Of course she was nervous to meet Finley’s team — but she’d brave through it for her. Grinning, Mera nodded, squeezing her girlfriend’s hand. “I’ll keep my small talk to no longer than five minutes so you can whisk me away to your bedroom.”

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“Sure you do.” Charlie looked over at Alessandra with a wide smirk. She knew that her wife had more tricks. She knew that she would pull out all the stops for the two of them. Charlie had always felt so loved being with her wife. From the moment they met to now. Even with all of the distance between them, Charlie knew how much she meant to her. She could feel all of the love that she could ever need. “Says the jacked solider.” Charlie rolled her eyes at the other as she moved through the door and into their house. She dropped her wife’s bags in their bedroom before grabbing Alessandra by her greens and pulling her on top of her as the two of them crashed on to their bed. “I need you to get out of these greens and something more revealing.” 

“I do, baby. I’ll show you... you just gotta’ wait a year.” She teased, smirking at the blonde. It’s true. If it meant making Charlie happy, she’d do anything in the world to make her smile that big smile she has. “Oh you think I’m jacked, huh?” Alessandra asked, lifting her arm to flex a bicep before winking at her wife. She wasn’t at all surprised by being pulled onto the bed by the other woman, she’d figured they would end up here. “Mhm, is that so?” Alessa raised an eyebrow before dropping a kiss to her wife’s neck. Pulling back, she removed her jacket, and then the t-shirt she had under it. “If I had’ve come home first I would’ve changed into my sexy underwear, I promise.” She teased.

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Just being able to touch Alessandra felt better than anything in this world. It took so long for them to get where they are. It was everything. She wouldn’t have changed anything that happened between them. Not for anything. Charlie wanted it all with the girl who’s arms were wrapped tightly around her. A long and and healthy marriage. Children running around that looked like the two of them. Eventual grandchildren. Everything she could ever imagine. “I hope you realize how high you set the bar this year. It’s going to be almost impossible for you to keep it up year after year.” Charlie smirked, placing another kiss against her lips before actually going to get her solider’s bags. She heaved the two duffle bags over her shoulders. “Seriously how much bloody crap do you have?”

Alessandra had a feeling she wouldn’t be able to keep her hands off her wife tonight. It was always like this whenever she got home. She’d always just hold Charlie for hours while they have the TV playing something random — usually the don’t pay attention, but rather spend their night talking about whatever it is they’ve missed. “I’ll find a way, babe. I’ve got some tricks up my sleeve.” She teased, grinning against her lips. Scoffing, Alessa shook her head. “Please, it’s barely heavy.” She quipped, moving to open the door for her wife so they could make their way inside. Luckily their bedroom was right on the left so her bags could just be dumped, meaning they can immediately get to their afternoon of just being with each other, no distractions.

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Finley could just picture it now, an entire summer with the love of her life. She was beyond happy to get out of California for the first time since moving to the states. It was weird for Finley to be making plans so far into the future. She was one to just plan for the day and roll with the punches. But Mera made her want to plan things. To have an idea of where she was actually going. She was such an adventure for her. “But there’s no beaches. How am I supposed to get you in a bikini.” The moment that Mera got her luggage, they were off to get into bed together. “Oh thank good ness we’re on the same page.” Finley almost sighed in relief. It only took them twenty minutes for Finley to drive them to the rugby house. The entire time, Finley tried her hardest keeping her eyes on the road while playing with her girlfriend’s hands. She parked her passat in front of the row home, not moving to get out of the car just yet. “I need to warn you about my team. They’re a bit much.” 

Spending an entire summer with her girlfriend sounded like the best thing she could ask for. Sure, getting to spend the week with her now was going to be incredible... but to spend months with her? She couldn’t wait. She was already planning everything she wanted to show and do with Finley. “We’ve got ages, baby. We’ll roadtrip to somewhere with a beach for your viewing pleasure.” Mera quipped with a wink. The drive back to her girl’s place wasn’t long and she was so excited just to get into something comfortable and lay in bed with her. Chuckling, Mera shook her head. “Oh, they can’t be that bad.”

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The moment that Finley finally met Mera, she thought that her nerves would subside. But they didn’t. She felt as though she was even more nervous than before. She had a full week with her girlfriend. The two were going from never touching to having to share a bed in her small room in the house she shared with her rugby team mates. There was also the fact that she was going to have to keep the two of them entertained for over a hundred and sixty hours. The pressure was on and she could feel it already. Lacing their fingers together, Finley grabbed Mera’s carry on and headed towards the baggage claim. She couldn’t help the smile plastered across her face, despite the nerves she was feeling. This was her life now. Completely in love with someone. “There’s no place I’d rather you be. I promise come the summer I will by flying to you.” It wasn’t like she had anywhere else to go or anywhere else she’d rather be. “There’s so much I want to do with you this week, but today I just want to cuddle with you and kiss you.” 

Mera felt like a school girl with a crush. Finley did that to her — she gave her butterflies that never stopped doing flips in her stomach. She couldn’t have ever imagined loving someone this much, let alone someone who lived so far away.... but her girlfriend was more than worth the distance. “Such a gentlewoman.” The brunette teased as the other picked up her carry on. “I can’t wait to spend an entire summer with you, my love. You’ll love New York.” She hummed, lifting their hands to press a kiss to the back of Finley’s. They made it to baggage claim, Mera grabbing the handle of her suitcase with her free hand. “Mhm, yes please. Today I just want you and me to do nothing but just exist together.”

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Ever since her first wife passed away on their wedding day, Charlie never thought that she would end up getting married again. Even when she first started dating Alessandra, she was unsure if she would allow herself to go that far. She knew that she would never be able to handle the pain of losing the one that she loved again. It took everything in her being to even allow herself to love someone else completely again. And here she was, completely head over heels for a woman that could be taken away from her at any moment in life. But, she was a trauma surgeon, she knew how life wasn’t always guaranteed to the healthiest of individuals. “I would, don’t test me.” Charlie smirked, helping the other up from the ground. The moment that her wife was on two feet, Charlie pulled her into a tight embrace. “I am so happy you’re home.” She said softly, before nodding. “We can order from the place down the street that you love.” She pulled away slightly before bringing their lips together in a tender kiss. Charlie finally got her wife back for six months. They were able to actually be the newly weds that they still were. “Best anniversary present ever.” 

Their story is a long one. They have both experienced trauma that they needed to push through, but Charlie had been her rock for as long as they’ve been together. She couldn’t imagine spending her life with anyone else. She wanted to start a family and grow old with the blonde — she couldn’t wait for them to get to experience that together. “Sure you would.” She retorted with a playful wink. She wrapped her arms tightly around Charlie, revelling in the way it felt to hold her properly. “Sounds perfect.” Kissing her deeply, she squeezed her hips gently before resting her forehead against her wife’s. “I figured I had to go above and beyond for the first year of you being my wife.”

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Just knowing that her wife had put in all of this effort to surprise her made Charlie’s heart swell. She still hated the fact that everyone was in on this and the fact that she couldn’t prepare herself. It had been ages since the two of them had been in the flesh together. “I would hurt you if I wasn’t so happy right now.” Charlie continue to pout, trying to keep her smile from coming through. She was definitely going to have a talk with Bailey once she got back to work next week. Charlie hugged Alessandra even tighter, still trying to get over the fact that she was here. This was absolutely everything to her. Just knowing that it was going to last for months rather than just a few days like the last time. They got to be a real married couple again. Spending all of their time together. Charlie was more than excited to live a normal life for just a while. “Well, if I knew you were coming home I wouldn’t have been able to either.” Charlie smirked, leaning in once more to kiss her. For the next six months, Charlie wasn’t going to be able to stop kissing her. She wasn’t going to stop touching her. If she did, she might think she was dreaming again. “Come on, let me help you with your bags and then get you out of this uniform.” She kissed her once more before slowly getting up from the grass and extending her hand. 

Alessandra would move heaven and earth if it meant making Charlie happy. She had never believed in love at first sight until she met the blonde. It may have taken her longer than that to actually tell the woman she loved her — but from the minute she laid eyes on her wife, she was hooked. Five years later and they were still stronger than ever. Still, they had their moments — usually in regards to her job — but they never ever went to bed angry. They loved each other too much for that. “You’d hurt a Soldier, huh? Scandalous.” The brunette teased, pressing a kiss to her love’s temple. Humming, she nodded. “Sounds good — maybe we can order in tonight? All I want to do is spend the rest of the day holding you.” She spoke, accepting Charlie’s hand, letting her pull her up.

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It all started with a DM that Finley never thought would get answered. Seeing the beautiful brunette on Instagram that she would never have a chance with. It was a risk that she took because she knew it wouldn’t turn into anything. But that simple, corny DM that said “I would be the luckiest leprechaun if I found you at the end of the rainbow,” led to so much more. It led to text messages from the moment they woke up to the minute they fell asleep. Facetime calls every chance they had. Small little care packages almost monthly. It led to Finley falling for someone she never met. To her writing love letter after love letter for a girl that was literally across the world. Just being able to have Mera in her arms, everything felt right in the world. But it was when their lips connected, Finley knew that she was done for. She had the woman of her dreams right there. Finally in front of her and not on a five inch screen. Pulling away, Finley let out a small smile. “I got these for you.” She held the bouquet of flowers between them. “I’m so happy that you’re here.” 

When Finley had first DMed her. that pickup line, she had no idea where they would end up... she certainly didn’t expect to currently in the girl’s arms. But she wouldn’t have it any other way. All she had been able to think about for the past eight months is the girl who’s arms were wrapped around her. Her nose crinkled as she grinned at the flowers. “Sunflowers. My favorite.” She hummed, taking the flowers, her other hand going to hold Finley’s. “I’m so happy to be here, baby. Nowhere else that I would rather be.” She meant that, she did. Finley was the best thing in her life right now. When Mera was at her lowest, whether she was freaking out about her classes or just having a bad day — her girlfriend was always there. She felt like the luckiest girl in the world.

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ever melted into the other’s arms, her head leaning against kaycie. “hmm that would sound amazing if i didn’t feel like death,” she joked, looking up at the other. “mm don’t leave me, i’m not even hungry yet. just stay here with me,” she begged, holding onto the other’s arms. with both their jobs being so demanding, it was rare that they had these moments of bliss. 

smirking, kaycie nodded. somehow she knew this would be the outcome — but she couldn’t bring herself to be annoyed. a day in bed with her love was more than enough for her. “okay, my love. bed it is.” she hummed, pressing a kiss to her lips before pulling back and grinning, using her free hand to brush a strand of her girlfriend’s hair behind her ear.

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The fact that Finley was standing in an airport waiting for her girlfriend to walk through the gates was mind blowing to her. It was crazy for her to think that she had been dating someone she had met on the internet for eight months and she had never been able to physically touch them. It was such a surreal moment for Finley. With everything that had happened in her life, she didn’t think she’d ever get to this. To fall for someone she never met. To actually have someone care enough about her to fly across the world to see her. That was a first for her. Mera was the first good thing to happen to her ever since she left her abusive parents in Ireland. One would think that receiving a for a full ride playing Rugby at Stanford was something they’d finally be proud of. But, three years later, still nothing. At least she was able to get out of that situation. 

Looking at the arrival monitor, Finley found Mera’s flight. It had finally landed and soon the brunette was finally going to be in her arms. It was only a few more minutes until Finley finally locked eyes with the other. She was standing there with a sign that read “My darling, for 247 days I held you in my heart. Today I will finally hold you in my arms” and a bouquet of flowers. Her smile grew so incredibly large before literally taking off towards the woman who had stolen her heart from across the world. It took only seconds for Finley to wrap her girlfriend tightly up in her arms . “Hi,” was all she could say as she stood there holding her in the middle of the airport.

If someone had told Mera a year ago that she was going to fall in love with someone she’d never even met, she would’ve laughed and called them crazy. She’d been getting over a heartbreak that she thought she’d never recover from. She figured there was no harm in flirting with a pretty girl she’d probably never get to see in her life. Little did she know that said flirting would turn into staying on Facetime until she fell asleep every night, texting Finley everyday. Buying little things that reminded her of the girl and packing it all up into a box and sending it to her whenever she could. She had fallen absolutely head over heels for a girl who lived a plane ride away... but she didn’t regret one bit of it, especially now that she finally was laying eyes on her for the first time in person. God, Finley was even more beautiful in person. Her eyes fell to the sign and a grin tugged at her lips. Running towards her girlfriend, she let herself be enveloped by her embrace. She melted into the girl’s arms, inhaling deeply. “Hi.” She quipped before pulling back, unable to stop herself from finally kissing the girl who meant the world to her.

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Her wife was home. She was home and in her arms and Charlie still couldn’t believe it. She figured that she was dreaming. That she was going to wake up from this and be back in the pesty garden. But, she never actually woke up. She could feel her wife’s arms around her waist. She could feel her body underneath her in their front yard. Charlie could feel those soft lips on her own. It was then that the surgeon knew why everyone was acting so strange around her the past few days. “I hate surprises.” Charlie almost pouted. “Is this why Bailey made me take a week off?” She asked, her british accent finally coming out. When Alessandra told her that it was going to be six months until she had to leave again, Charlie kissed her hard and passionately. Six months was more than she thought that she was going to have. She just couldn’t believe it. “I bloody love you.” 

Alessa couldn’t help but chuckle at her wife’s almost pout. It was too cute. She leaned in to press a long kiss to her lips. She was definitely going to take advantage of being able to kiss her again. Smirking, she nodded. “Yeah, so I might have had a little to do with that.” The first person Alessandra had called was Bailey. The doctor was more than happy to give Charlie a well needed break. That accent. God, she had missed it so very much. Sure, she got to hear it over their video calls but it sounded so much more magical in person. This was everything. She hated leaving the blonde, but the moments where they were reunited were always the memories she cherished. “I bloody love you too, beautiful.” She quipped, running her hand through blonde hair. “I haven’t been able to keep still since I knew I’d get to come home to you.”

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Being home in the empty house alone was one of the worst parts of being married to a solider. There were some other parts that weren’t terribly great, like the constant worrying and not talking on a daily basis, but it was up there. It was why Charlie liked to fill up as much of her time at the hospital as she could. Scrubbing in to surgery after surgery, teaching the interns and residents, picking up extra hours in the ER or skills lab. The surgeon would do anything and everything in order to not be home, just waiting for Alessandra to come home. Anything was better than having her mind fill with all of the worries and anxieties while her wife was overseas. It wasn’t like she minded all of the work, though. Charlie loved her job and the ability it gave her to help as many individuals as possible. 

So, Charlie was beyond annoyed that her boss required her to take a week off. She told her that she had picked up way too many shifts over the past month that she needed time to get away and reenergize. She knew that Dr. Bailey meant well. She had been someone she looked up to since her residency. But, she hated it. Sitting at home was killing her and it had only been half a day. Charlie had already cleaned the house from top to bottom, did all the yard work in the back, and now she was working on the garden in the front of the house. If her brother could see her right now, he’d be dying in the grass behind her calling her a perfect little house wife or something. But, what else was she going to do? All of her friends were at work and her brother was off in Montreal playing a game. Finishing up the last flower, Charlie stood up to see a figure that she couldn’t believe. Alessandra was standing right there with that smile she fell in love with. It took Charlie was few moments to process what was going on before rushing towards her woman in green and practically tackling her to the ground. Charlie placed a million kisses all over Alessanda’s face and neck before ending up on her lips. “How?” She breathed out, still not believing this. 

The smile on Alessandra’s face right now was positively beaming. It almost hurt her cheeks how big it was. This is why she’d chosen to surprise her wife — the look on Charlie’s face made the months and months they’ve been apart worth it. Her back hit the grass and honestly, she didn’t even care how hard because she had the blonde in her arms and that’s all that mattered to her. A few tears of joy managed to escape her eyes as she felt the kisses all over her face. She was so overjoyed to finally be home. “Our mission ended earlier than we’d expected — so I jumped on the first flight home. I figured a surprise would do you some good, baby.” She hummed, a hand going to the back of her wife’s neck to draw her in for a kiss. “I’m home.” She murmured, stealing another short kiss. “I’m home for at least six months — you’re going to get sick of seeing this face around.” She teased, her free arm wrapping around the blonde’s waist.

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ever groaned as she was woken up, though a smile quickly appeared on her lips. “why?” she whined, opening her eyes to see the other. with a sigh, the blonde sat up, stretching her arms. ever had an event the night before and she could still feel it’s toll on her. “what’d you have in mind that is better than cuddling with me in bed all day? seems hard to beat.”

chuckling, kaycie pulled ever back into her, wrapping her arms around her waist from behind. “i was thinking i could take you out for breakfast. but maybe i can go down and get some pastries from that bakery you like?” the firefighter started, dropping a kiss to her girlfriend’s shoulder. “we could have breakfast in bed?”