another breath;

❝ You leave because you're c e r t a i n of who you want to be ❞ [Independent Sam Wilson of Marvel's Cinematic Universe, mildly semi-selective.]

[aviatixn]

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Hope you feel better soon hon. <3

[[ thank you bb /hugs ]]

[aviatixn]

[[ alive? 

just popped on to say oops. it's been a little while- sorry about that. I'm just kind of- /makes vague gesture- at the moment. idek, anxiety and some chronic medical conditions are making it hard to concentrate on anything. 

I'm not leaving but I'm probably going to take the rest of this week off. tiny l'il hiatus, just until my head is on a little better. ]]

[chiliconsharls]

Follow my June BOTM second runner-up, Holly ★~(◕‿◕✿)

[wondys-gone-deactivated20160112]

[silvertons]

Captain America is asking for my help. There’s no better reason to get back in.

[hellstar-rogers]

[text] I’ve thought about it.

[text] Ever since you told me to run another lap.

[text] I

[text] I’m sorry.

[text] I’m terrible at this.

[aviatixn]

[text:] oh

[text:] wow

[text:] no it's- it's fine. you're not terrible at this.

[text:] I think I am. It's

[text:] it's been a long time since I've done anything like this

[text:] like before-I-was-deployed long time

[star-spangled-sap-deactivated20]

[text:] I set your toaster on fire, I’m pretty sure that constitutes fixing the situation.

[text:] possibly as much as a vine of Falcon flying into a hay bale. 

[text:] which I swear Nat didn’t show me

[text:]  0:)

[aviatixn]

[text:] true but toasters are like, forty bucks at bed bath and beyond. not exactly life or death- plus you'd be surprised at how few people actually care about fixing situations

[text:] god

[text:] damn it

[text:] okay in my defense wHO PUTS A HAY BALE THERE?? WE WERE NOWHERE NEAR A FARM

[text:] I'm going to kill her

[text:] no I'm not she's terrifying

[text:] but the sentiment stands

[star-spangled-sap-deactivated20]

[text:] Look, I paid for the repairs, didn’t I? 

[text:] I don’t like microwaves that don’t have a silent option for their reminder beep.

[text:] we can watch entire movies on tiny communication devices that fit in our pockets, you’d think people would remember to get their damn food by now.

[text:]  …. wait did you send that video to anyone?

[aviatixn]

[text:] not the point, though thank you- you didn't have to, I'm not actually /mad/

[text:] ... okay, point. but technology is no indication of personal human development. if anything that stuff is a distraction. hence the beeping and reminding.

[text:] of course not. it's for posterity's sake. and possibly blackmail if you ever decide you don't like being the dictionary definition of noble. 

[text:] plus if I ever need to do serious repairs, imagine how much a video of captain america destroying half a kitchen will go for

[text:] (also that's a joke. just fyi)

[hellstar-rogers]

[text] I don’t want to make you uncomfortable.

[text] Or put pressure on you.

[text] It’s okay if you don’t feel the same way.

[aviatixn]

[text:] it's not

[text:] it's not that

[text:] just give me a second

[text:] okay. 

[text:] have you thought about this? because if this is some /heroic sense of obligation/ thing for what reason I can't fathom, it's okay.

[text:] and I didn't say that. but you do get that you're- well you're /you/ right? and I'm just me? 

[hellstar-rogers]

[text] Sam

[text] I’m sorry.

[text] I shouldn’t have said anything.

[text] I’ll just go.

[aviatixn]

[text:] no wait hold on

[text:] I'm sorry I'm an ass you just caught me off guard and

[text:] sorry just

[text:] I didn't mean it like that I-

[text:] don't understand?? you can literally have your pick of /anyone/ I just don't

[star-spangled-sap-deactivated20]

[text] It wasn’t -that- much of a disaster…

[text] … Was it?

[aviatixn]

[text:] I have video. If you're feeling brave you can judge for yourself.

[text:] but for future reference you are not going /near/ my stove again

[text:] or apparently my toaster??

[text:] /neither of which were required/

[aviatixn]

open;

[text:] ...

[text:] I have no words for you. 

[text:] which technically shouldn't be said but

[text:] I just needed you to know how few words I have for you

[text:] few being /absolutely none./

[saiintlouis]

inspired by (x)

[saiintlouis]

(cap & winter soldier version here)

[forassgard]

[hellstar-rogers]

"Yeah, well, you still look like you could use a rest first and to worry about food later. Consider it one less thing to worry about." Steve had managed to mentally talk himself out of outright asking Sam out on a date. He doubted it would actually go over well. Besides, he was pretty sure that he wasn’t Sam’s type. "Food first, then you can sleep until Christmas."

[aviatixn]

Sam regards him carefully for a few moments; Steve isn't acting differently, not really. But he can't shake that feeling, that too-tight itchiness that he's missing something. Or, more likely, actively and unconsciously distancing himself from something.

"You're not wrong but I don't want you to- y'know, don't feel obligated or anything like that. This isn't the first time I've been keeping terrible hours." The statement is punctuated by a laugh and a gentle, almost questioning bump of his shoulder against Steve's. 

[hellstar-rogers]

"Well…" Steve shut up before he made an ass of himself. "Get your coat. Dinner’s on me, you look like you could sleep forever."

[aviatixn]

"-Dude, seriously not necessary. And not forever, but maybe like- a whole twelve hours or something equally outrageous." There's something there that Sam's not getting and he has a feeling that the reactionary mix of curiosity, frustration, and fairly unexpected tension is going not going to abate.

[hellstar-rogers]

"I just asked if you wanted to get dinner."

[aviatixn]

"Yeah but you asked like- I mean it sounded like-" There's a sigh and an only slightly embarrassed fidgeting of his hand at the back of his neck. "-Ignore me, long week and my mind's all over the place. Dinner's good."