natnatnat

a morbid longing for the picturesque at all costs

[awayfromomelas]

Fires everywhere, I don’t know what my tears are trying to extinguish.

[awayfromomelas]

I hate birthdays because they remind me I haven’t carpe diem’d the way we swore to during that three am conversation.

It’s my own altruistic, suffer in silence, others first tendencies that continue to get in my own way. Despite the never ending cycle, everyone looks at me like I’m the most infuriatingly selfish person. Funnily enough it feels selfish to psychoanalyze myself in such complexity rather to help comfort someone else.

It’s a self loathing, in a most secure, insecure person I know way. Constantly checking in and out of my own mind because on a subconscious, or maybe not so subconscious, level I feel too insignificant to worry about myself. That’s why I can’t entirely open up without feeling a stabbing regret of placing worthless worry on a person. Id rather be a child suffering locked in a room with the weight of everyone else.

This is nothing new, this has been me since I can remember. Here’s to another year of disappointing myself and seemingly everyone too.

[awayfromomelas]

poems put things into perspective a lot better than normal sentences

isn’t that funny?

They’re both collections of words put together,

but sentences have to follow structures.

Reality, truth, life, has no set structures

[awayfromomelas]

never be scared or ashamed of being human

[awayfromomelas]

I always understood Bella when Edward left,,

But now that my bf is miles away, i really do feel his absence everywhere.

[awayfromomelas]

deeply intoxicatedly obsessed and in love

[awayfromomelas]

I think I completely adore you haha ;-;

[awayfromomelas]

be with someone who makes you feel how you’re favorite book feels

[keremelcream]

everyone’s comfort characters are either gay, mass murderers, mentally unstable or just straight up dead or all of these

[awayfromomelas]

i never noticed when i started dreaming you

i never noticed how much you draw me in,

but like an eloquent symphony

this melody stuck my head

and roped in my heart

[softnsexyq]

"...I never realized that you could fall in love with humans the way you fall in love with songs. How the tune of them could mean nothing to you at first, an unfamiliar melody, but quickly turn into a symphony carved across your skin; a hymn in the web of your veins; a harmony stitched into the lining of your soul."

Source: Our Chemical Hearts by Krystal Sutherland

[awayfromomelas]

if the multiverse is real i hope there is a least one where we never find each other, where we never go through the pain of losing what we had.

[awayfromomelas]

they say not to cry over spilt milk, but the milk has soaked my only change of clothes.

[awayfromomelas]

i don’t think my parents know how lonely they’ve caused me to be

[awayfromomelas]

if your tears don’t reflect regret, then you’ve done all you can.

[awayfromomelas]

Life has no meaning if you don’t live vigorously and emotionally. If you live carefully, wearily, and closed off what was the point of breathing.

[awayfromomelas]

we’re each other’s nightscape, each other’s moon

moonchild