I have slowly realized that I may have general anxiety disorder... and I need to seek help. My battle with anxiety has been too long already, yet I'm anxious about getting help (the struggles).
Two years ago, I realized that I cannot function when I'm just being forced to do anything. I realized how important it is to have a significant "Why?" in everything that I do. I had to let go of things that I knew were bringing me down and worked hard to make sure that I never fall back into forcing myself to do work just for the sake of finishing it. Yet, all that struggle, all that hard work, gone over one role.
I know that this feeling is the worst I ever felt. Unlike before, I cannot for the life of me force myself to do work. I cannot push myself to do anything. When I do, there's this force within me numbing me, stopping me from doing work. Then, the anxiety kicks in... and more often than not, a panic attack.
I don't get it. It only happens for certain orgworks, and never happens for anything academic related. I don't get why it has to afflict me.
I don't know how much further I can handle this, how much I can still hide from the world. All I know now is that I'm very vulnerable now, and any moment I can simply break.
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