Is It Still Worth the Wait?
Almost a year ago, someone asked me if I can consider praying to apply for a certain position in a company that I really want. I prayed about it (kahit na alam kong gusto ko na talaga mag-apply kelangan ko pa din ipagpray). Got answers from God, sent my resume, got interviewed but unfortunately didn’t make it. Eto yung moment na “Lord, nag-usap naman tayo dibaaaaa. Anong nangyare?” Had so many questions but in the end it’s still God’s timing. (So okay Lord, it’s not yet the right time. Not now is not never naman eh)
February of this year, I was asked to apply again in the same workplace but different position. Again, I prayed about it. It was really hard for me to apply again because I already tried and was not accepted. (Mas todo pray to. Nasaktan na ko before, mahirap masaktan ulit haha). Sabi ko kay Lord, “Lord di ako magpapasa ng resume hanggat wala kang word”. So God led me to Philippians 1:6. Naalala ko eto yung word sakin ni Lord last year sa prophetic presbytery. Knowing that God put this desire in my heart, to work in this specific workplace so why am I doubting. So G, apply ulit. Waited 2 months before ako makareceive ng message for first interview (ang tagal ng 2 months friend, pero naexplain naman sakin why hehe). First interview, okay. Waited 2 weeks para naman sa 2nd interview. Second interview, okay (kahit nalate ako). Waited 1 week para sa final interview. So eto naaaaa, after final interview, feeling mo sobrang tagal ng panahon. Asked God, Lord tama ba talaga na nag-apply ako? Pag ba di ulit ako natanggap will I still be okay? Will I apply again if may chance knowing na eto yung promise mo sakin? Will I still love you the same or even love you more if di ako matanggap? But God reminds me everyday that His plans are good, pleasing and perfect. That even though I’m not sure of the results, I can still put my faith in Him because He is God. That no matter what the result is I can still rejoice.
After 2 weeks of waiting, I got the result (July 29, Friday) . Read it more than twice to make sure na tama yung nababasa ko. Na again, di ulit ako natanggap. Cried so hard (ang hirap umiyak sa office friend, yung concern na yung mga kaoffice mo bakit namamaga na mata mo kakaiyak. Di ka na makawork ng maayos kakaiyak. Yung binabayaran ka sa office kahit umiiyak haha)
Ang tagal nung hinintay ko, more than 3 months tapos di ko pala magugustuhan yung result. After ko makaubos yung isang roll ng tissue (haha) and after scanning all my notes during nung waiting season. Narealized ko na waiting changed me. God increased my faith in Him. God taught me how to be secured with His promises. Looking back, God gave me so much grace in waiting, (knowing me, di ako mahilig magwait. Baka nag-apply na ako sa iba haha) Now, is waiting still worth it kahit na di okay yung result ng hinintay mo? YES. DEFINITELY. WAITING IS WORTH IT. I may not get the result I want but God gave me more than what I have been praying. God changed me and I would not want to trade that for anything else. (And again, Not now is not never :D). You showed me how you love me personally.
Thank you, Jesus. I love you 💕