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Alex, 26. Just a Baltimore man who had some big dreams come true. I'm a puppy enthusiast and I'm waiting for the day that I open my very own puppy farm. I enjoy puns and American flag pants. If found alone, please return to Jack Bassam Barakat. [not real /:]

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how Zack and I spend Saturday nights tbh.

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you've almost lost your husband.

[telyr-cartyr-deactivated2015040]

I’m so so sleepy

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hi hey hello !!!!!!!!!!!!

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I'm blaming myself but I'm also blaming the copious amounts of alcohol I've been putting into my system. I should not have let us drift apart so much. It takes two to tango, and I get that. But with all the time for thoughts and the view I have from the bathroom floor, I can't help but blame myself. 

I can see my ribs again and I was so afraid that you'd notice, but then I remembered that we haven't been close. Not at all anymore, I fucking hate this. It makes me sick to my stomach, I can't lose you. You're literally the most important thing to ever happen to me.

I'm upset but I can't help but completely hate myself. I feel so pathetic. Some nights, or even during the day I'll crawl into bed and just stare at the ceiling for hours on end until I actually pass out. Some nights I'll just turn over on my side and shamelessly become a mess once again. 

I haven't seen you naked in the past two months unless you're changing. We're married and it hasn't been feeling like it. Both of the "I do's" are sometimes forgotten when I'm laying on the bathroom floor, feeling completely helpless. 

I fucking miss you more than I can take sometimes. I find myself wondering if there's something wrong with me, or if I'm doing something wrong. One side of me says that I'm just fine and the other side of me is just saying awful things. When in reality I don't want to be so miserable anymore, I'd rather be snuggled up in your arms. I want to watch movies on you every wednesday and have ice cream every friday, just like on the night that I asked you to be mine. Back when things were okay and my eyes didn't have bags under them and I couldn't see my bones this much.

I don't get the point in just sitting here and writing all of this to no one but I really need to get it off my chest before I go insane.

[awgaskorth]

for the love of all things good and holy

do NOT follow me unless you are a part of the rpg drop your weapon

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ryxho replied to your post:hi i am here and I miss my husbando 

Hi I am Ryan and love my boyfriendo

Hi! I'm Alex and it's nice to meet you, friendo.

[awgaskorth]

all of my posts are either saying hi or expressing how much I love/or miss my husband and I'm rlly sorry.

[awgaskorth]

hi i am here and I miss my husbando 

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muffledthoughitmaybe replied to your post:muffledthoughitmaybe replied to your post:Hi I’m...

Hello friend how is being alive today?

Eh. so-so, honestly.

how about yourself? how's being alive this fine day?

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muffledthoughitmaybe replied to your post:Hi I’m alive. //:

Welcome back.

thank you, Tyler. Hello pal.

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Hi I'm alive. //:

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pls unfollow if you are not a part of drop your weapon rpg.

[thatlowlife]

jetlagged dinner in japan

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