AXIL

"He offered her the world, she said she had her own"

[axilish]

She's imperfect but she tries

She is good but she lies

She is hard on herself

She is broken and won't ask for help

She is messy but she's kind

She is lonely most of the time

She is all of this mixed up

And baked in a beautiful pie

She is gone but she used to be mine

[axilish]

I had all and then most of you

Some and now none of you

Take me back to the night we met

I don't know what I'm supposed to do

Haunted by the ghost of you

[axilish]

In my solitude

You haunt me

With dreadful ease

Of days gone by

In my solitude

You taunt me

With memories

That never die

I sit in my chair

And filled with despair

There's no one could be so sad

With gloom everywhere

I sit and I stare

I know that I'll soon go mad

[axilish]

I read them and my heart sank

I don’t believe that was me

Did I disconnect?

self-sabotage?

Maybe I’m not who I thought I was

I don’t deserve the answer

God it hurt my heart

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[axilish]

Walking in circles

Now

Do not disturb

Scream in silence

Everyone’s sleeping

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I couldn’t sleep last night because I know that it’s over between us. I’m not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I’ll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that’s what you’ve given me. That’s what I hope to give to you forever.

I love you.

I’ll be seeing you.

[axilish]

It’s my time to fade

[axilish]

I don't know what to think anymore

Maybe things will get better

Maybe things will look brighter

[axilish]

Grave and fatalistic

[axilish]

She shines like a flower

In my head

Everybody

Wants to pick her dead

[axilish]

Is it me?

I want to know

Why it's so hard to let go

Don't go too fast, my friend

Or you'll lose control

Don’t go

[axilish]

Tell me what you know

Tell me how you feel

It doesn't matter when you're down

And when you look at me with your eyes

That smile on your face seems happy

Are you happy?

And you know how it feels

To bleed some, to need some

[axilish]

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Maybe I should stop using this as my own personal notebook

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If I had a second chance, I'd make amends

Only to find myself losing in the end

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...and at that moment I knew

I was feeling tired

From the silence and the daily trends

Wanted to feel inspired

From the voices I heard in my head

I was whistling to myself

A little mellow and dark melody

And I wished to be heard

• Lola Marsh, ‘Remember Roses’