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edit: im 24 now. i landed a job as a research coordinator at a hospital. ended up resigning bc i just wasnt a good fit for the role. im kind of regretting it now but i have faith Allah will take care of me.

im really thankful i got into my supervisor’s lab. im so damn lucky i feel so lucky. thank you Allah every single day for this. ill never take it for granted.

im so weird. im so weird. im so weird. im so weird. im so weird.

update: i graduated university. bachelors of science in honours w/ high distinction. biological anthropology & forensic sciences. im starting my masters in september 2020. there are times i still can’t believe it. praise be to Allah for getting me through it, ‘cause God knows... it was tough.

I really hate that I’m always forgotten. I really fucking hate it. It’s never going to change. I’m always going to be last. Always. Why am I so unimportant? Is that how fundamentally gross I am?

angelrom

I’m that kind of person who keeps letters and birthday cards, tickets from trains, parks or museums.

i just want to be able to sleep well for one night. just on f*ing night.

when you meet people who seem to be the exception to the rule, it is often because that rule is broken, not that they are an an exception to it. - dalia mogahed

traumatizedbunny

update im in fourth year now

things are going good alhamdulilah Praise be to Allah SWT The Almighty Most Forgiving Most Merciful

things between my parents and especially with my dad is getting rough....

i went to an all girls party the other day and ngl i felt so displaced and nonfunctional and just plain ugly

i couldnt dance bc i dnt know arabic songs and i just felt so awkward and socially ridden compared to other girls my age

i should probably just die innit

im in my third yr ofuni

im still depressed

Havent achieved much

Still get ghosted by guys

I doubt im going to make it one day

I cant wait until i die

the more i go on living the more i realize people are just hypocrites

that nostalgic post-depression feeling after anime north always gets to me, i feel like cryingggg

#an2018 #anime north 2018 #Anime North

i met the cutest guy at anime north 2018, he cosplayed as hidan. ill probably never get to see him again. it sucks when you fall in love with a stranger :(

#an2018 #anime north 2018 #anime north #dreaming is nice

i miss him. wallah i miss him. but for the sake of allah i have to move on and focus on cultivating my own faith. my own strength. i cant lean back to what possibly was bad for me. i have to keep moving. my lord knows whats best. i need some faith and patience.

its tough ; i feel like i wont ever be with someone ever again. im not a bad person , i like to think im caring and loving in nature. i hope by some chance Allah works a miracle and makes my future spouse a coolness to my eyes and heart. ill be praying in the mean time.

i guess tim hortons bae doesnt like me anymore :((((

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