This blog has no dni but I block freely. DMs and asks open!
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This is a jiraiblr, yanblr and shedblr account
I reblog gore and SH art
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Read my stances before interacting with me. I might be in your dni.
if I ever say “goodbye. I’m gonna die here’s my reasons why and here’s what I’m gonna do” I give everyone full permission right now to spam my DMs and inbox with suicide helplines and beg me not to die. I know right now that don’t wanna be lost to depression. I know ill regret dying. Don’t let me die.
🫀relationship status: taken, I haven’t been received but I have been preordered
🫀fandoms: I post about Friday Night Funkin and Pico’s School on my main account, @8lur5ot0ng. Fandoms I don’t post about include the Mario (specifically the Koopalings), Pokemon (specifically namelessshipping, pokespe and the alola region), The Amazing World of Gumball and Umibe No Etranger (but the plot is shit in my opinion, I skip to the parts where the dudes they go to town) (im bisexual. Meaning I do indeed like men. I wouldn’t date a guy cuz I wouldn’t be able to marry a dude in Singapore but m/m on ao3 and yaoi tickles my pickle)
When I am an elderly man, before I die, i will spend my savings to hire a hit man and a young looking adult to lure in a predator. From there, the hitman will bring the predator close to death and my wife and I will finish off the child predator dressed as a magical girl yuri with weapons that look like this.
If I announce that I am planning on suicide, remind me of my mission. I am not joking. I will not die until it is done. I will not let my inner child die without the revenge that played in his head with those nightcore edits.
You can’t insult people with slurs and then say “I reclaimed it I’m [insert group]!!”. That’s not what reclaiming is. Reclaiming is meant to unite people, not bring down your own community.
I know I should interact with the rest of the unbearable world but unfortunately I like my little online bubble where we all love japanese pop culture, have mental illnesses, don't do bigotry and can say the word suicide without freaking the fuck out
I think loyalty isn't that important actually. No I don't stick with people who turn out to be assholes. I will drop you like a hot potato if you do or say something fucked up. I have no duty to hang around you, I owe you nothing, and you have no right to expect unconditional support from me. The only thing I'm loyal to are my morals and if you cross 'em I'm goneeeee
I hope “trans inclusive misogynists” realise that transmisogyny has always been a part of misogyny. Think about what society demands of trans women:
dress femininely
but not babyish feminine that fetishises little girls
feminine voice and by feminine voice I mean shut the fuck up when people mistreat you because being angry is masculine
look pretty, but don’t wear too much makeup cuz then it looks like you’re trying too hard
be sexually desirable but not freaky, if you’re open about how you’re a sexual being then you’re fetishising womanhood
Damn it’s almost like transmisogyny is when sexists’ need to police women slips out the moment they’re talking to a group of women that are less likely to be defended by feminists.
scalpel- what impact do you wanna make on the world?
To at least in some way turn people’s attention away from things that they think are weird and icky to things that actually harm people. Even if the only one who really changes is me and the rest of the judgmental assholes (which I used to be. I was anti xenogender anti therian transmed puritan and a bunch of bs) don’t change, I need to be someone who’s converted into a life of silliness and joy.
dosage- what do you wanna learn more about?
I wanna study to become a social worker so I gotta learn more about that in general. But for fun like monsters and magic and stuff, I wanna start learning more about that. I liked that when I was like 6-8 and then I started thinking “this is so girly and weird and I’m not girly and weird” and so I stopped trying to find Rainbow Magic at the library
Radnormals: actual abuser who happens to be a paraphile? PREDATOR. anti contact paraphile? PREDATOR. Proshipper? PREDATOR. transunicornhorn? PREDATOR. Indirect association with the radqueers in any way = PREDATOR. Wait no guys it’s not like I’m saying they’re all the same thing I’m saying they’re all weird and cringe therefore bad.
Since N hates humanity (at least at the start) and was raised by Pokemon, I feel like she would support me being transspecies and would lowkey give me tips.
haii, I'm being accused of being a predator. here's how it started. I commented down on a post asking if someone can educate me on who choco is, then an alt account argued with OP and dmed me ACCUSED OP of being a groomer because OP wasn't on choco's. then the alt account made THREE different accounts arguing with OP. I blocked OP and the alt account cause don't wanna be involved with all of this. and then choco made a callout post on me accusing me of being a predator because I "agreed" with Mayday even tho I don't know who this Mayday person is... few days ago, I received an ask from another alt account just saying "raw". I didn't screenshot it and delete it cause I thought it was a bot.
I went back to unblock OP so I can screenshot the comment. i hope you guys believe me, I actually cried over this bruh.
I don’t get people who try to claim some kind of moral high ground over someone who posted explicit art on their private twitter acc or on rule 34 sites by reposting it to widely accessible social media platforms. “But I censored it!” You defaced it with scribbles that barely censor the art and wrote the words “ew ew ew” on it.
Not to mention it’s not your art to spread, weirdo.
hai every0ne. i havez a seri0uz p0zt t0 makez.
i thinkz i need t0 be upfr0nt ab0ut why ive been in4ctive.
lazt year, i hadz a abuzive partner n4med Benjamin.
he SA'd m3, and i g0t infected wit HIV.
HIV iz a seri0uz illnezz that iz still under-rese4rched, 0ftentimez queer beingz r ign0red in theze casez… i went 10 m0nthz with0ut pr0per treatmentz, when itz supp0sed t0 b diagn0zed IMMEDIATELYZ…… dezpite tellingz mai d0ct0r h0w it waznt juzt a flu an i wuz gettingz pr0grezzively sicker an sicker, I wuz ign0red. R3cently, I havez switched d0ct0rz, dezpite mai p4rentz pr0tezts. The tezt came 0ut p0zitive.. but mai parentz are refusing me pr0per treatmentz. I am legally n0tz all0wed t0 livez 0n mai 0wn, n mai partnerz are t00 far awayz t0 smuggle meh 0utz.
i amz bedridden, it hurtz t0 even type thiz, butz i will try and spreadz j0y az much az i can.
i havez rashez n s0rez all 0ver meh b0dy, mai head aches like s0me0ne iz stabbing meh, mai thr0at stingz, ivez g0tten several recurring lung infecti0nz, n mai SH cutz are 10000% m0ar likeleyz t0 getz a deadly infecti0n. ૮ •́︿•̀)ა HIV iz lik3ly t0 turn int0 AIDz, n im s0 scared 0f what will happen n0wz. Butz at leazt i havez all deh art 0f mai selfshipz and flagz t0 die wit n b mai legacy! J0kez 0ut 0f deh way, Im v3ry scared. I c0uld die 0f s3psis if im n0t careful. Ive alz0 been gettingz harazzed, I d0nt want t0 g0 t00 far int0 it, but mai crayzay ex iz stalking meh, (I kn0w y0u zee thiz Ben. I d0nt care ab0ut y0u anym0re. Leave me al0ne becauz y0u kn0w what y0u did t0 a tranzgender queer neur0diverse at the time MIN0R whenz y0ure 24, n gave bark a seri0uz incur4ble illnezz y0u KN0W pup cantz get pr0per treatmentz f0r…) ive alz0 been gettingz harazzed by anti radqueerz n fand0m antiz, N itz been makingz mai illnezz get much much w0rze. Im s0 s0rry ifz i d0nt reach 0ut much 0r d0nt rezp0nd, I d0nt thinkz i can t4ke flag requezts anym0re. I cantz even draw anym0rez.
I w0uld really, really appreciatez any kind 0f supp0rt right n0wz. Again, idk if i c4n resp0nd t0 every0ne, but i'll try. Thankz y0u all s0 muchz.
y0u canz still uze all mai c0ined termz, but i will n0 l0nger b t4king requestz, at leazt n0t regularly. I d33ply appreciate deh r4dqueer c0mmunity n ev3rythang y0u have g4ve meh.
Hello to anyone wondering what this says or means and can't read typing quirks. I, Malachai, will do my best to translate this!
hi everyone. I have a serious post to makez
I think I need to be upfront about why I've been inactive.
Last year, I had an abusive partner named Benjamin.
He sa'd me, and I got infected with hiv.
Hiv is a serious illness that is still under-researched, oftentimes queer beings are ignored in these cases… I went 10 months without proper treatments, when its supposed to be diagnosed immediately…… despite telling my doctor how it wasn't just a flu and I was getting progressively sicker and sicker, I was ignored. Recently, I have switched doctors, despite my parents protests. The tests came out positive.. but my parents are refusing me proper treatments. I am legally not allowed to live on my own, and my partner and I are too far away to smuggle me out.
I am bedridden, it hurts to even type this, but I will try and spread joy as much as I can.
I have rashes and sores all over my body, mai head aches like someone is stabbing meh, mai throat stings, I have gotten several recurring lung infections, and my sh cuts are 10000% more likely to get a deadly infection. ૮ •́︿•̀)ა Hiv is likely to turn into aids and I'm so scared of what will happen now. But at least I have all the art of my selfships and flags to die with my legacy! jokes out of the way, I'm very scared. I could die of sepsis if im not careful. Ive also been getting harassed, I dont want to go too far into it, but my crazy ex is stalking me, (I know you see this Ben. I dont care about you anymore. Leave me alone because you know what you did to a transgender queer neurodiverse at the time minor when your type 2 a, and gave Bark a serious incurable illness you know pup cant get proper treatment for…) I've also been getting harassed by anti radqueers and fandom antis, and its been making my illness get much much worse. I'm so sorry if I dont reach out much or don't respond, I dont think I can take flag requests anymore. I cant even draw anymore.
I would really, really appreciate any kind of support right now. Again, idk if i can respond to everyone, but i'll try. Thank you all so much.
You can still use all my coined terms, but i will no longer be taking requests, at least not regularly. I deeply appreciate the radqueer community and everything you have gave me.
it is kind of alarming how often i've seen the response to the, surprisingly common, experience of transmascs wishing as teens that they'd develop breast cancer so they could get a mastectomy be "you must be extremely unempathetic to have ever thought that" as opposed to "you must have been hurting really bad to wish you would literally get cancer just for the chance to have your breasts removed"
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