Ayat

"Its a paper town with paper people"

[ayat96]

Everytime I see a delivery, I cry!

Not out of sympathy, but because I couldn’t live it, with its details.

[ayat96]

Here’s to the new me 🍻

[romuwr2]

"لم أعد أهتم لبريق الأشياء وسطوعها، يكفيني أن تستمر في صدري بالسكينة ذاتها دون أن تسبب شرخًا ما، أن تكون حقيقية دونما خوف من تلاشيها."

[ayat96]

Motherhood… the strangest of life stages.

While you’re fighting to feel secure, to love who you’ve become, even though you never really accepted who you were, comes this tiny human. All that they know is you and loving you. They don’t know how to eat, sleep, talk, walk… but they know how to love you, with it’s purest mere meaning.

[ayat96]

صباح الخير،

اشتقتلك.

[ayat96]

I wish I could just end it

[ayat96]

I am too much for anyone to handle.

[ayat96]

And then, here i am, at the middle of the night, making scenarios of us, together, in love.

[ayat96]

Jibs are some real shitty waste of time, life and energy.

[ayat96]

[ayat96]

I am only comfortable when in bed

[ayat96]

I am nervous of meeting people.

[ayat96]

She is wearing five bright colors she's weird; a shame. She's wearing one color; a shame. Mother said "you'll be the norm. Besides, what is 'shame'?" She wears five bright colors, they all do. mother once wore five bright colors "mother, who are you?" "mother, you despise the norm. Still, I can't see your own".

[ayat96]

"You can't change anyone. But what can u do?! You love 'em" -Me Before You

[alinafoureyes]

[thatsthat24]

THIS WORLD

[march-to-thesea]

wow

[ayat96]

I want to pull my heavy heart out of my chest

[ayat96]

Again

It is devastating that it is only 20 minutes maximum, but it leaves me physically and psychologically damaged for 24 hours. I don't know why it happens, i can not predict it. I don't know how to stop it. It just happens. Every single time. It kills a little hope inside of me. It makes me weaker, i have to give up fighting. Heart racing, teeth cracking, arms and feet so numb and shacking, eyes flashing, mind blowing. Death is so near. Thinking; STOP Seeking Attention, get yourself together, Fight girl, FIGHT. Get away from people. Can i get away from myself? Is Anxiety myself now? Am I Anxiety or am i anxious? The 20 minutes are over, fix your headscarf. Your lipstick. Oh, your hands are still shacking? It's okay, draw some perfect eyeliner.. Better now huh? Drink some water, breathe deep, put on your headphones on. Play Bach, suit N°1. Perfect again. Congratulations, you survived. Again.