it's how the light gets in.

private blog for fairfordrp. written by hayley.

[aylinerdogan]

&. AN INTRODUCTION TO :

— AYLIN SEVIL ERDOGAN.

'and now you don't have to be perfect, you can be good.'

BIO.

INTRODUCTION

BIRTH NAME: AYLIN SEVIL ERDOGAN

CHOSEN NAME: AYLIN

NICKNAME(S): N/A

TITLES: N/A

AGE: 28

DATE OF BIRTH: 14/03

STAR SIGN: PISCES

GENDER: CIS FEMALE

PREFFERED PRONOUNS: SHE/HER

SEXUALITY: DEMIGRAYASEXUAL

HOMETOWN: FAIRFORD, WA

LANGUAGES SPOKEN: ENGLISH, TURKISH, SOME SPANISH FROM SCHOOL

RESIDENCE IN FAIRFORD: A SMALL TOWNHOUSE IN THE SUBURBS

OCCUPATION: CHEF AND OWNER OF 'THE SUGAR CLOVE', TEMPORARY MANAGEMENT AND BARTENDER AT HER FAMILY'S 'POSHED AND SLOSHED' ESTABLISHMENT

APPEARANCE

FACECLAIM: OZGE YAGIZ

GENERAL APPEARANCE: WEARS A LOT OF RED CLOTHING, OR DARK GREENS. LOVES SUMMER DRESSES AND ANYTHING LIGHT FIT. ALSO LOVES TO WEAR OVERSIZED T-SHIRTS AND LEGGINGS FOR COMFORT

HAIRSTYLE/COLOUR(S): LONG, DARK BROWN HAIR. TENDS TO BE STRAIGHT MOST OF THE TIME OR TUCKED AWAY IN A ROMANTIC BUN

EYE COLOUR: BROWN

HEIGHT: 5'4"

BODYSHAPE/BUILD: SLIM

IDENTIFYING MARKS: HAS A SCAR ON HER KNEE FROM FALLING AFTER AN ATTEMPT TO FOLLOW AIDEN UP A TREE

DEEPER DIVE

ALIGNMENT: LAWFUL GOOD

POSITIVE TRAITS: CARING, GENEROUS, LOVING, KIND, GENTLE, DETERMINED, CREATIVE, PASSIONATE, EASY GOING, EASILY AMUSED

NEGATIVE TRAITS: INSECURE, DEPENDANT, SELF DOUBTING, NAIVE, ANXIOUS, EASILY OVERWHELMED

LIKES: BAKING, COOKING, PAINTING, SEWING, SWEET TREATS, PLANTS AND FLOWERS, BEING AT THE PARK OR BEACH, GIRLY NIGHTS, COCKTAILS, HOMEMADE GIFTS, BOOKS, POETRY, THUNDERSTORMS, SUPERHEROES, EXCITING FILMS

DISLIKES: BRUTISH BEHAVIOUR, CLOSED MINDEDNESS, BEING YELLED AT, FIGHTS, LOSS, BUGS ( EXCEPT THE PRETTY ONES ), BEING LEFT BEHIND, FEELING OUT OF PLACE

SKILLS AND STRENGTHS: SKILLED CHEF AND BAKER, GREAT WITH PLANTS AND ANIMALS, HAS SOME KNOWLEDGE OF BUSINESS, HAS SOME SKILL IN PAINTING AND SKETCHING

WEAKNESSES: EASILY OVERWHELMED, LISTENS TO OTHER PEOPLE'S OPINIONS TOO MUCH, EASILY DISHEARTENED, TENDS TO THINK LITTLE OF HERSELF

FEARS: LETTING THE PEOPLE SHE LOVES DOWN ( ESPECIALLY HER FAMILY ), LOSING FRIENDS AGAIN, FEELING LIKE ALL HER EFFORTS WERE FOR NOTHING, FAILING

DISABILITIES/ILLNESSES: HAS PRETTY SEVERE ASTHMA THAT RESULTED IN A STAY IN HOSPITAL WHEN SHE WAS YOUNGER. TENDS TO FLARE UP DURING SEASON CHANGES AND BAD WEATHER, OR WHEN SHE'S ANXIOUS AND HAVING A PANIC ATTACK

ALLERGIES: GENERAL HAYFEVER DURING THE SPRING

ADDICTIONS: N/A

SMELLS LIKE: LILACS AND GOOSEBERRIES

PRIZED POSSESSION(S): ANYTHING SENTIMENTAL LIKE TICKET STUBS FOR MOVIES SHE'S SEEN WITH FRIENDS, PHOTOGRAPHS, HER RESTURANT

PET(S): N/A

VOICE CLAIM FOR SINGING: N/A

FAVOURITES

MUSIC: ANYTHING ACOUSTIC, INDIE, CHVRCHES

FILMS: ROMCOMS AND SUPERHERO MOVIES, FAVOURITE FILM IS 'HOWL'S MOVING CASTLE'

COLOUR: DEEP, FORREST GREEN

FOOD: MOZAIK PASTA TARIFI

SMELLS: JASMINE, SWEET AND FRUITY SCENTS

FAMILY AND RELATIONS

FAMILY:

GRANDMOTHER ( ALIVE, LIVING IN TURKEY )

FATHER ( ALIVE )

MOTHER ( ALIVE )

ELDER BROTHER ( ALIVE, LIVING IN FAIRFORD )

ELDER SISTER ( ALIVE, LIVING IN FAIRFORD )

GENERAL BACKSTORY

BORN AND RAISED IN FAIRFORD TO THE ERDOGAN FAMILY

WAS A VERY QUIET AND SHY LITTLE GIRL, NEVER SPEAKING TOO MUCH AND SPENDING MOST OF HER FREE TIME FOLLOWING HER SIBLINGS AROUND OR STICKING CLOSE TO HER FATHER DURING HIS SHIFTS AT 'POSHED AND SLOSHED'

DID WELL IN SCHOOL, PARTICUARLY IN CREATIVE SUBJECTS

DIDN'T HAVE TOO MANY FRIENDS AND KEPT MOSTLY TO HERSELF

OFTEN FELT VERY INSECURE AND ANXIOUS, NEVER REALLY KNOWING HOW TO GROW WITHIN HERSELF, INSTEAD ATTEMPTING TO LIVE UP TO OTHER PEOPLE'S EXPECTATIONS OF HER INSTEAD

FOUND SOLACE IN A FEW NEW FRIENDS DURING HIGH SCHOOL, DEVELOPING A CRUSH ON ONE BOY THAT NEVER WENT ANYWHERE, NO MATTER HOW CLOSE THEY GOT TO CROSSING THAT LINE

AFTER A PARTICULARLY BAD FIGHT WITH HIM ONE NIGHT WHICH ULTIMATELY ENDED THEIR FRIENDSHIP ON HIS TERMS, AYLIN WASN'T ENTIRELY SURE WHAT TO DO THEREAFTER, FEELING AS THOUGH SHE'D LOST EVERYTHING AND ALL OF HER CONNECTIONS

FINISHING HIGH SCHOOL HAD BEEN DIFFICULT, AND AFTER A YEAR OF BOUNCING AROUND TOWN IN THE HOPES OF FINDING SOMETHING TO INSPIRE HER, AYLIN CHOSE TO LEAVE FAIRFORD BEHIND, FLYING OUT TO LIVE WITH HER GRANDMOTHER IN TURKEY

IT'S THERE SHE FOUND HER LOVE FOR BAKING AND COOKING, LEARNING FROM HER GRANDMOTHER AND HER FAMILY

AYLIN THEN RETURNED TO FAIRFORD YEARS LATER WITH A PROMISE TO HERSELF TO CONTINUE BUILDING HER CONFIDENCE AND NO LONGER LIVING THE WAY OTHERS EXPECTED HER TO AND INSTEAD, WOULD FOLLOW HER OWN PASSIONS

HER GRANDMOTHER GAVE HER THE MONEY TO OPEN 'THE SUGAR CLOVE', A QUIET AND CUTE TURKISH RESTURANT THAT FOCUSES ON A RELAXED AND SAFE ENVIORMENT FOR EVERYONE THAT ALSO SELLS PLANTS AND FLOWERS ON THE SIDE

AYLIN AIMS TO REPAY HER GRANDMOTHER AND MAKE HER OWN SUCCESS, JUST AS HER FAMILY HAD WITH POSHED AND SLOSHED

HEACANONS

AS OF MAY 25H 2023, AYLIN HAS BEEN BACK IN FAIRFORD FOR AROUND EIGHT MONTHS

'THE SUGAR CLOVE' OPENED UNDER HER OWNERSHIP FIVE MONTHS AGO

WHILE AYLIN IS STILL VERY NAIVE AND DOUBTS HERSELF OFTEN, SOMEWHERE ALONG THE LINE IN TURKEY, SHE FOUND HER VOICE. SHE'S NOT TOO AFRAID TO BITE BACK NOW, SHOULD SHE NEED TO, THOUGH SHE'D VERY MUCH PREFER NOT TO

DREAMS OF GETTING A DOG ONE DAY, BUT ONLY WHEN SHE CAN GIVE IT THE TIME IT DESERVES

PAINTS AS A HOBBY BUT DARN'T EVER SHOW ANYONE WHAT SHE CREATES

ABSOLUTELY LOVES BEING OUT IN THE SUN BUT LOVES FALL DAYS AND THUNDERSTORMS JUST AS MUCH

HAS PRETTY SEVERE ASTHMA SHE WORKS REALLY HARD TO KEEP UNDER CONTROL. HAD SPENT A SHORT TIME IN HOSPITAL AS A CHILD BECAUSE OF IT

PRONE TO PANIC AND ANXIETY ATTACKS

EXPERIENCES FOMO QUITE REGULARLY, BUT HANDLES IT FAR BETTER NOW THAN SHE DID BEFORE SHE LEFT FAIRFORD

IS QUITE GENEROUS, AND STILL DOESN'T REALISE WHEN PEOPLE ARE TAKING ADVANTAGE OF HER

ESTABLISHED CONNECTIONS

AIDEN STEVENS / childhood best friend and crush. had wished for the two to go further in their relationship, but had a fight shortly after aiden's dad died where he blew up at her and hurt her feelings, resulting in aiden burning that bridge. aylin has since tried to rekindle some sort of friendship since returning to fairford

ASHA DEAN / friend and inspiration in her pursuit of confidence

BLAKE CARTER /

COLIN TRUMAN / tech guy for 'the sugar clove' and a treasured friend. someone aylin leans on when times get tough or she begins to doubt herself

FELIX MANON / childhood friend who helped her establish the business side of 'the sugar clove' and overcome the stresses of starting a business

JACOB 'JJ' HAYES / a regular presence throughout her childhood, whether it be when visiting aiden or when she found herself unwell. someone aylin values

TYSON CHAPMAN / her favourite employee at 'poshed and sloshed' and the object of her teasing. adores the man and appreciates his help often

VITORIA ACOSTA / childhood best friend who claims the spot even now. partner in crime and her favourite person to spend girl nights out with

WANTED CONNECTIONS

TBA

NOTES

aylin is NOT available for plots that involve pregnancy or pregnancy scares. it's not something i'm comfortable with, sorry!

i don't push for romantic connections or ships. i prefer to let things happen naturally within threads. it just feels better and less forced like that

aylin is ASEXUAL. she will not be partaking in smut or the like

LINKS/TAGS/PAGES

TBA

[itsjust-aiden]

Of course Aiden had run into Aylin again. Unintentional as it seems he might be popping up where she is. He avoided the Sugar Clove since, and Thadd's place doesn't count when it required an invitation. Aiden also did well to do no more than acknowledge her with a greeting and move on to bullshitting with Colin.

Really he'd only been stopping by to see if Tyson had been working. It'd have been fun to hassle him for some heavy pours, and the veil of surprise meant he wanted to just show up without warning, just to find Tyson hadn't been behind the bar and it had been her voice calling out against the belligerent drunk.

"S'fine, really. That guy was a fucking asshole. I almost punched his teeth in." Being cut off should have been his hint, and the threat of a ban did nothing to settle it. "You'd better put a ban on him. This isn't a dive bar." Though had it been, patrons would have been up and ready to give Aylin a hand. Not the scene for it, however. She's buzzing with a nervous energy Aiden knows all too well from when they were kids.

"You're alright, though?"

[aylinerdogan]

"i will, i promise. i'll make sure all the bartenders know." not that it wouldn't take long for word to get back to them at some point anyway, whether she text them all individually or not. what would fairford be without it's obsessive need to gossip and discuss the latest drama around the streets? for as long as 'poshed and sloshed' had been open and all the drunks that had caused an occasional uproar, the rumours had never tired and the discussions between patrons would never cease to exist.

settling herself back behind the bar, aylin nods with an answer to aiden's question, pulling out two shot glasses to immediately fill with their old friend jack. "mhm! yes, well... yes," she murmurs, setting one glass down on the bar to push it towards aiden with a shrug of her shoulders. "just... grateful you were here, that's all." aylin looks down at her shot then knocks it back, swallowing the amber liquid with ease. a sharp difference from their younger years, when aylin could barely stand the taste of aiden's drink of choice for even a second.

"just another wonderful evening at 'poshed and sloshed', right?" she laughs quietly. "at least some things never change."

[deaniewagner]

starter for @aylinerdogan

location: java junction

"Thank you so much for meeting here, I owe you my life," Deanie tells Aylin -- her lunch break was only a half hour, and it saved her a trip across town.

"Literally, anything you want is on me. I'll buy you a barrel of coffee in gratitude. It turns out I actually know nothing about wedding food, so I promise not to waste your knowledge. How's your day been?"

[aylinerdogan]

oh, deanie needn't worry herself about buying aylin a single thing as a thank you. not when the girl had shown up with a bag filled with binders filled to the brim with recipes and all the research she'd been filtering though to find the right food for the first wedding she'd ever truly felt excited for. not only had it been the challenge of her dreams, but aylin found herself discovering so many more ideas for the sugar clove that she couldn't help but consider it a win win situation for the pair.

"don't be silly, you can't waste this! did you know somebody served a pizza cake as their wedding cake, and another couple served a tower of burgers for theirs? i couldn't stop giggling the entire time i was reading it."

"oh but, we won't do that for you, obviously," aylin laughs. "um, but it's been... a day? my grandmother called to check on the restaurant and that always makes me feel like i have worms crawling around in my stomach... but it is what it is, i suppose!"

[mackmontgomerys]

open

where: anywhere!

@fairfordstarters

“I wish I was shitting you,” Mack says, his index finger running along his tattooed forearm where there was no space for anymore inkings, hoping that they could use their imagination for what he was trying to explain from his last shift, “They got it done right here, just about the wrist. Their partner’s bitemark impression tattooed for life. I’ve inked a lot of crazy shit, but that one was new even for me.” 

[aylinerdogan]

it's a terribly awkward thing to keep her eyes focused on mack's arm as the chair continues to spin with disregard to the fact she's doing her best to listen to his story and not throw up all over ink city's floor at the same time, already dizzy and queasy with the way the room moved and mack sat still, waffling on with the answer to her question as to why the hell there was a stencil for a bite and why the molars looked so alien. "... what if they'd asked for a different impression? like the outline of their... um..." aylin grins, holding up her little finger when she span back around to face him, giving the digit a wiggle as she bursts into giggles.

"or would you tell them that it's far too small and the detail would never show?"

[brendannichols]

Dealing with rowdy drunk people was nothing new to Brendan. Especially with how much time he spent hanging around the local bars in town. He was never usually one to start shit, unless someone really pushed his buttons and tested their luck. But he had a natural talent for talking down angry drunks. Something he picked up over the years when dealing with his father and his group of friends from the bar.

"No problem," Brendan said as a hint of a smile tugged on his lips. "You chasing someone out with a bar stool does sound like a sight to see. Probably best that it didn't happen because that's the kind of shit that would go viral on TikTok if someone caught it on camera."

[aylinerdogan]

"oh, well, i dunno... maybe going viral on tiktok would be good for business," aylin giggles, running her thumb of her knuckles for a touch of self soothing to settle those ever running nerves. it feels odd though, the notion of standing up for herself like that. better for having someone with her but, terrifying and exciting all the same.

"are you okay, though? he was a little... gorilla like, don't you think?"

[ashaisabelle]

Asha wasn't very tall or seemingly intimidating at first glance but looks were very deceiving. She was a force a nature - always had been. Always would be. Small but mighty was a term she heard often. Though it had been a while since she'd had to use her powers when she heard Aylin trying to regulate from her spot tucked away in the back of the bar, she knew that she had to help.

Asha had probably terrified those guys have to death with the way she'd lost it on them but that's what happened when you missed with her friends. She wasn't afraid to set the world on fire just to create warmth. And that's what she'd done for Aylin. She doubted those jokers would ever show their face at Poshed and Sloshed again.

Now sitting more visible incase someone attempted to come back, she looked up at Aylin as she returned. She was the sweetest thing and didn't deserve those asshole drama. "Of course," she smiled softly, taking Aylin's hands. "You know I always got your back," she chuckled, "though a visual of that will not live rent free in my head."

[aylinerdogan]

giggling, aylin squeezes asha's hand gently, grateful once again that there's a few friends in her roster that had some fire to them, and a fire far bigger than the small spark of her own. she could only hope that eventually, one day, it'd reach great heights like that of asha's, and guys like the ones she'd help usher out would take to fleeing at the sight of her too.

"maybe i should set something up behind the bar. or get a big dog... oh, but adem wouldn't agree to that, would he?" although, if she played the little sister card just right... "or maybe i'll never let tyson have a day off ever again because when he's here, everything runs a lot smoother than when i am," she sighs.

[tysonchapmans]

Tyson watches Aylin intently, taking a gulp from his vodka as he becomes the solo audience to her big reveal. His eyes narrow when he sees the name scribbled on the name tag, it all falling into place with that final gesture.

"If you wanted me to stare at your tits, there's easier ways to go about it than this. You really only have to ask." He couldn't deny that it was funny, and even if his eyes rolled at her calling him a clown, there was a hint of amusement on his surly face.

"Touché though, that was a wildcard choice."

There he had thought the Mountainside Sasquatch was going to be the most off the wall costume he had seen that night.

"Do you want a drink, Tyson?"

[aylinerdogan]

aylin bursts into giggles, covering her mouth with her hand. she thought she'd done a pretty good job, if she had to say so herself. the only thing she hadn't been able to master was the grouch of his expression and the way he carried himself like a moody teenager. "nuh uh, i'll show you mine if you show me yours first. but you can stare at my butt instead, since, i have one and you don't."

and she'd checked.

"i would love one, tyson, but, not that," pointing at tyson's glass. "vodka and i have a deep and terrible history and i already have one of those here." somewhere, with his shirt on backwards. "actually, is there whiskey around? it's a party, right? why not."

[greytyrell]

He couldn't really understand himself, that was the truth. Probably he couldn't really blame drinking, he was just upside down since the morning. Maybe it just wasn't his day. Grey would usually go to it near his house, maybe he should stick to that tradition. Or he could simply make some food by himself.

"I would say it was too good. I am mad because it actually happened this morning, not last night. I am usually not having breakfast around here but for some reason I had it. Oh, this one actually looks like my keys."

[aylinerdogan]

aylin giggles, keeping the bin still so he could rummage around the keys that look like this. "breakfast around here is pretty good, i'll have you know," she says in jest, nodding back out towards the main area of her restaurant. "i hear the waffles are rather popular, too."

"you should take care of yourself when you drink, though. it might not just be your keys you lose next time."

[aylinerdogan]

for: open starter ( @fairfordstarters ) where: poshed and sloshed

bravery is a newer addition to her list of wants and things to be, something that certainly shows and while it isn't as if dealing with overly drunk customers is a new experience for her, dealing with them alone is a little more... fresh.

of course, applying what she'd seen the likes of tyson and the other men that worked at 'poshed and sloshed' doesn't hit quite the same when her voice shakes and she isn't quite as tall, but hell, aylin tried. she'd even raised her voice, threatened to ban them and even grabbed her phone to call her brother to come to the rescue and definitely do a better job that she had. but in the end, she'd needn't call for back up, because back up had already been there.

coming back into the bar wringing her shaking hands, aylin plasters on a smile and takes a breath, happy to hear the familiar and settled buzz of her family's business again and not the shouts of a bitter drunk.

"um... thanks for backing me up," she chuckles awkwardly. "i thought i was gonna have to chase him out with a bar stool or something. could you imagine?" a pause, long enough to giggle to herself. "i'd never be able to live that down."

[sasika-lg]

who: anybody (@fairfordstarters) where: crystal cottage

As the brunette was leaning back behind the counter, her eyes firmed placed on the book that was spread open in front of her, Sasika barely noticed the trickle of the melodic bells that signalled a customer had arrived. This wouldn’t be the first time she’d been caught slacking off at her job. As much as she needed the money, it was hard to care a menial job that paid barely anything. Besides, the place was empty, despite this new arrival.

Her eyes didn't even look up momentarily as someone approached her, an air of annoyance of being disturbed while reading on the job exuded from her. “Browse all you want,” she insisted, eyes still focused on the pages before her. "But hands where I can see 'em. The owner told me to hex anyone I catch stealing."

[aylinerdogan]

a grin spreads onto aylin's face, reaching over the counter to plop the sandwich wrapped in gently on the book before sasika, and the iced drink well away from the pages, lest the condensation damage them. "could you make it a good one, at least?" she asks, tilting her head to the side with a small giggle. "something fun and exciting because, if i'm being honest, i'm really bored."

thus the adventure all the way over to 'crystal cottage' in the first place. there had to be one person in town to pester for a while, hadn't there?

"it's your favourite, by the way. and on the house. i made too much of everything again... i still don't know how i do it."

[aylinerdogan]

Rumor has it you make the best cocktails in town

"oh now, not to toot my own horn but, they are very good. when i make them for someone else, anyway. they're always entirely too strong when i pour myself one which, probably says more about me than anything else!"

[aylinerdogan]

Rumor has it you're still in love with aiden

"well... don't we all still have some love left for our best friends? even if... you're not best friends any more?"

@itsjust-aiden

[aylinerdogan]

rumour has it you're too nice giving aiden a chance

"and rumour has it you should keep your opinions on business that isn't yours to yourself. besides, aiden isn't a bad person. what happened when we were children shouldn't dictate what we could be now. he lost someone, and he was angry. being too nice would be allowing him to walk all over me and i don't plan on being that nice. not for anyone, ever again. so go poke your nose in someone else's drama. there is plenty of it in fairford to entertain yourself with."

@itsjust-aiden

[aylinerdogan]

rumor has it you are a complete sweetie

"oh... well... it's nice that someone thinks so!"

[aylinerdogan]

Rumour has it you regret how it all went down with Aiden

"oh... well... yes, but, regrets aren't going to change anything, are they? that was then and this is now and that's... all i have. not much, but, not nothing either."

[aylinerdogan]

Rumor has it you have a crush on Tyson

"um, well, maybe when i first met him. kind of like when you see a painting from a distance and you sort of feel nice? but then you get close and tyson opens his mouth and ruins it a bit," she grins. "plus, i could never be his type. he likes old ladies that make him work for his tips and i hand them over without trouble, yes? it'd be really boring for him if he didn't have to part two pieces of flatbread to make a living." she presses her hand to her mouth. "oh but, really, i think he's fun. and not as grumbly as he likes people to think."

@tysonchapmans

[windsorbay]

FAIRFORD MEME #2 — RUMOR HAS IT...

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