no idea =D

setiap orang pasti mencari :) dan aku juga masih dalam perjalananku dalam merasakan hidup,kok :)

[ayoeshandia]

'Cukuplah aku jatuh cinta pada punggungmu saja. Tak usah yang lain, karena kutemui wajahmu mengabur dalam ribuan lainnya. Hanya punggungmu. Cuma itu'

[ayoeshandia]

Saya menulis lagi. Tertatih tatih kali ini, susah sekali untuk memulai apa yang sudah pernah ditinggalkan sebelumnya. Rasanya seperti tumpul, mengasah ngasah apa yang sudah saya tidak sengaja tinggalkan rasanya seperti itu. Seperti saya meninggalkan sebilah pisau yang sedang saya gunakan, saya berpikir awalnya tidak akan lama, tapi ternyata waktu memburai ingatan saya dan mengkhianati pemiliknya sendiri. Pisau itu saya tinggalkan begitu lama, lupa, hingga satu waktu saya membutuhkan dan ingat dengan apa yang saya sisihkan dari sekat sekat memori. Pisau itu masih ada, tentu saja. cuma berkarat dan bau besi tua. Bau besi tua seperti anyir darah segar. Coba saja cium. Maka dari itu saya perlu mengasahnya lagi, menghilangkan karatnya dengan cairan karbol yang entah apa. Masalahnya, kealpaan saya selama ini membuat meraba raba itu sendiri terasa susah sekali. Saya serasa tidak mengenali pisau saya sendiri, yang seharusnya mengenali lekukan tangan saya, bau keringat yang menempel, aus dibeberapa tempat juga sudah hilang lapuk karena waktu. Jadi sekali lagi saya berlatih, seperti memegang pisau baru yang sudah lama. Saya belajar memotong lagi, mengenali bentuk bentuk lagi, perasaan lagi. Dan juga, mengenali diri saya yang sempat tertinggal Di pisau lagi. Saya belajar menulis lagi, jadi, bertahanlah, tulisan saya akan sedikit lebih sentimentil mungkin. Saya harap tidak begitu.

[ayoeshandia]

Kedekatan membuat saya seakan tidak bisa bertahan dengan diri saya sendiri. Membuat saya berharap, memimpikan, lantas berangan angan. Sayang, saya seperti tenggelam dan kehilangan diri saya sendiri dalam duniamu. Bisakah kamu mundur sedikit dan biarkan saya mencintai saya lagi?

[ayoeshandia]

' tak perlulah gegap gempita, atau paling satu sengut dua sengut air mata. Karena rindu ini kubuat buat sendiri, biarlah kusimpan dan kukubur juga dalam sepi'

[coldwindandiron-deactivated2020]

I put no stock in religion. By the word religion I have seen the lunacy of fanatics of every denomination be called the will of God. I have seen too much religion in the eyes of too many murderers. Holiness is in right action, and courage on behalf of those who cannot defend themselves, and goodness. What God desires is here [points to head] and here [points to heart] and what you decide to do every day, you will be a good man - or not.

Hospitaller, 'Kingdom of Heaven'  (via thatkindofwoman)

[kasiababiscomics]

[pixartimes]

New Pixar Short LAVA Revealed! Read more about the short that spans millions of years here!

[rabbrakha]

“No one stays for you. Everybody stays depending on their need for you.”

Ahlam Mosteghanemi  (via thatkindofwoman)

[sassysluteverforever]

What if all women were bigger and stronger than you? And thought they were smarter? What if women were the ones who started wars? What if too many of your friends had been raped by women wielding giant dildos and no K-Y Jelly? What if the state trooper who pulled you over on the New Jersey Turnpike was a woman and carried a gun? What if the ability to menstruate was the prerequisite for most high-paying jobs? What if your attractiveness to women depended on the size of your penis? What if every time women saw you they’d hoot and make jerking motions with their hands? What if women were always making jokes about how ugly penises are and how bad sperm tastes? What if you had to explain what’s wrong with your car to big sweaty women with greasy hands who stared at your crotch in a garage where you are surrounded by posters of naked men with hard-ons? What if men’s magazines featured cover photos of 14-year-old boys with socks tucked into the front of their jeans and articles like: “How to tell if your wife is unfaithful” or “What your doctor won’t tell you about your prostate” or “The truth about impotence”? What if the doctor who examined your prostate was a woman and called you “Honey”? What if you had to inhale your boss’ stale cigar breath as she insisted that sleeping with her was part of the job? What if you couldn’t get away because the company dress code required you wear shoes designed to keep you from running? And what if after all that women still wanted you to love them?

For The Men Who Still Don’t Get It, Carol Diehl (via ohtheherondales)

[bbook]

Get a Closer Look at Xavier Dolan’s MOMMY

[ayoeshandia]

NAH INI YANG DICARIK!!

[thatradicalnotion]

I am too intelligent, too demanding, and too resourceful for anyone to be able to take charge of me entirely. No one knows me or loves me completely. I have only myself.

Simone de Beauvoir  (via thatkindofwoman)

[fullheartedly]

[awkwardsituationist]

mom’s got your back. and you’ve got hers. 

photos by (click pic): 1.joe penney in mali; 2. stephanie sinclair in ethiopia; 3. yury pustovoy in vietnam; 4. jessica dimmock in burkina faso; 5,6. niranjan shrestha in kathmandu, nepal; 7. eugene hoshiko in chongqing, china; 8. zsolt repasy in kajuru, nigeria; 9. frans lanting in botswana’s okavango river; 10. eric valli in the nepalese himalayas.

#BringBackOurGirls

[ayoeshandia]

[kenduricinta73]

[awkwardsituationist]

life and existence. fragile and ruthless. precious and temporary. confusing and miraculous.  

[wordsnquotes]

In your life, you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some, you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again. But you do.

C.S. Lewis (via thatkindofwoman)