Oh dear, diary,
I’m in trouble.
The future is uncertain, the present is a nightmare, and the past is too comfortable.
Wake me up never, because I’m not going to fall asleep tonight.
Oh dear, oh dear, diary.

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@ayraethazeigen
Oh dear, diary,
I’m in trouble.
The future is uncertain, the present is a nightmare, and the past is too comfortable.
Wake me up never, because I’m not going to fall asleep tonight.
Oh dear, oh dear, diary.
:'(
Vor 5 Jahre
It was around this time five years ago, when Ayraethazide was created. A new pseudonym, a new blog, a new means of sharing my thoughts and creations for the interest and enjoyment of all who happen upon them serendipitously. Ayraethazide, a breath of fresh ayr.
It exists, in its current form, as an ensemble of multiple blogs - admittedly, some get much more attention than others, but hey. The initial concept of Ayraethazide was one to serve an audience of my inner thoughts and experiences. The very first spark of inspiration came from a dear friend of mine, who liked my account of our Year 11 prom so much that he suggested I post similar stories on here. Instantly, I was a fan of the idea, and began my adventure here on Tumblr, telling my stories first to my pillow, and then my diary, and then the world... How much of the world listened, I shall never know, but it remains to this day a great therapy of mine to hide my thoughts in plain sight, and not to bottle them up inside. So began Ayraethazide, in his early (and not so early) days, mostly unknown to the Internet.
Interspersed with sporadic bursts of reblogging and the posting of quotes, my inspiration struck, to share my creativity with the world along with my stories. Being a lover of information, I had already embarked on a project to create science infographics, little posters that aim to illustrate an advanced point in science and maths as simply as possible but without oversimplification. These were a hit with my personal friend circles on Facebook, and were even more so on Tumblr, to my surprise! Slowly, Ayraethazide became more of a science blog, now posting and reblogging mostly science-related content. However, this was to the expense of the lovely stories and my other experiences in daily life, and therefore this was forced to take a backseat.
Yep, but it didn't take me too long to realise this. A few years ago now (I think, between two and three?), I decided that it would be better for Ayraethazide's personalities to split into separate entities. This meant the birth of Ayraethazeigen, now my personal blog, where my inner thoughts, feelings, and experiences are documented. This is almost completely detached from science, but not detached from its older sibling, Ayraethazide. Ayraethazeigen is a walk in my personal history, a collection of stories that I have to tell but will only do so when no-one is listening. They are discovered only by serendipitity, which is how the best first encounters occur. Ayraethazide rarely mentions Ayraethazeigen, and Ayraethazeigen herself rarely shares any of her posts via any other channels.
None of my blogs in my blogosphere are maintained regularly. I have tended to post as and when I feel like it, and it's usually when I create something, come across something beautiful, feel some feelings, or have a mood swing. There is no particular schedule, but this scheme means that there's a new post fairly occasionally... It just needs to be discovered.
My blogosphere has evolved much in the past five years. And although not every one of my adventures or creative spurs are recorded in these pages of HTML, I think it's a pretty good representation of my thoughts and activities, for anyone who doesn't know me better.
Serendipity is lovely.
Hilf mir.. Sag mir, dass Dinge besser werden... They will. Diary, they will.
Can I write in my diary, and hide it somewhere, where anyone can see it, but only I know it exists (followers notwithstanding)? My thoughts fester when they are mine alone. When they fester, they do not leave me alone, but make me lonely. I trundled the path of life. I encountered adversity. I dealt with it, and things were good. I trundle the path of life. I fall in love. I make promises, and things are better. I will trundle the path of life. I will face uncertainty. I will make decisions, and things will be... Stop me before I say "best". It is the fear of a perfectionist to attain perfection, because there is no more opportunity for improvement. But the problem herein lies not in attaining perfection, but in identifying it. So how will I know that things are the best? That they have reached a stage when things cannot possibly get better? I don't. But the promises of today and the uncertainties of tomorrow suggest that, even if for just a fleeting existence, a point in time in the future will be even better than right now. And right now is pretty good anyway. ☺
The night, the dark, the moonlight in your burning eyes And now you're back to haunt my soul, to take my will You are the one who never fears a broken mind Your hands can touch the innocence in me and tear it all apart so I am free.
Feeling unstable.
Help me empathise with every fleeting feeling, people and things in my life. Make me deal with longing. Encourage my glee. Let me forget my sadness. Calm my anger..
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Remember that, when feeling lonely, music will empathise with you for any emotion you have. Let it play random, if your mood is random. Cry your tears before you dry them. Lift your spirit as high as it will go...
Writing down your thoughts puts them to ease. It doesn't matter if no-one sees them.
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I prefer to hide my feelings in plain sight.
This morning's distraction...
Let the sadness go away Let the rain wipe away my tears For forever my heart belongs to you And I know you'll be always near.
Eevee + Eeveelutions
Mojo Jojo’s all like, “SOON." 🐒 😈
Your friendly smile gives me that peaceful feeling Your gentle touch shows me how much you care Please hold me near Let me forget all the world around No one exists beside you and me right now.
Rest in peace, 415-day streak... :( :( :(
Meine Freundin hat mir für Valentinstag Schokolade gegeben. ♥
One language is never enough.
It's been so long Feels like pins and needles in my heart So long I can feel it tearing me apart.
Living here among the dying I don’t want to Give me faith, oh mother Take me in your arms, Shelter me Weakness of a human child Strength of a goddess Caught inside I can feel this body fading.
Mother, can’t you tell me Why the dying voice inside my heart Is calling me? I feel mighty powers But so many unknown feelings Are confusing me How could I command them?
Whatever you'll see in me One night long I am your favourite dream Never forget me.