Through the Surface of Mine

me. myself. others. dearest. beloved. hate. melancholic. ice cream. chocolate. photography. summer-dress. (flat)shoes. beach. sunset. sunrise. pictures. books. music. sleep. walking. introvert. mobile phone. camera. love. organized. random. write. silent. talk. bed. travel. passion. kiss. food. nothing. everything. I.

[ayufarany]

I wish I'd just leave

this whole world.

So everything will be a peace.

[hirxeth]

Notting Hill (1999) dir. Roger Michell

[ayufarany]

Little things I cerish

Activities I longing to

Situation I love to be in

Nothing is approved.

Why would I even stay?

[nottingbutnottinghill]

Bella being philosophical at the restaurant’s final dinner…

[nottingbutnottinghill]

“With you I’m in real danger. My relatively inexperienced heart would, I fear, not recover if I was once again cast aside as I would absolutely be… as I expect to be.”

— Hugh Grant (Notting Hill)

[ayufarany]

Such an irony that I who love celebration so much even for little things lost the joy of it since this day six years ago, which was the biggest celebration I had.

#lostalotofmyself

#daysaredull

[ayufarany]

Pulang kantor, pake kendaraan umum semaksimal mungkin biar hemat, sampe di rumah cuma buat nyuci piring dan kotak makan berkerak sisa pagi, buang-buangin sampah dari lantai.

???

Pembantu aja masih mendingan; nyuci piring dapet duit.

[ayufarany]

Ribet banget.

Emang ngurus ngurus beginian dapet apa sih?

Malah buat diri sendiri abis semua.

[ayufarany]

Benci banget jadi miskin. Sekedar beli beras aja harus dihitung. Kebutuhan pribadi habis semua.

I didn’t sign up for this. For the selfishness causing me heavier responsibility. I’m sick of being responsible for everything.

Kerja tapi dinikmati buat diri sendiri aja ga bisa. Hih.

[ayufarany]

2022

It’s 2022. February 2022.  Years and years after my last post. And here I am today coming back to my safest place. Because it’s getting heavier and heavier.

[ayufarany]

Can't wait to finally be home. (at Ciledug Indah 2)

[ayufarany]

One mandatory post to say Eid Mubarak! Dah ya, lebaranan dulu 🙏 (at Komplek Reni Jaya Pamulang)

[ayufarany]

I thought my heart can’t be broken anymore. But, that day, doing this before the Big Day, I knew it still is. Papa, Why so early? You should be there with me on the Day.

5.April.2017 For 8.April.2017

[ayufarany]

12-03-2017 . Ibon's birthday as always ☺️ (at Lot 9 Bintaro)

[ayufarany]

04032017: Let's get started!

[ayufarany]

For one crazy moment, I was thinking about coming back to stay in this city... That's how nice that day was. #friendship #happiness #lahlapehsonyakarimbo (at Padang , West Sumatera , Indonesia)

[ayufarany]

Two down, three more to go 😄 17years and still counting. #BFF #lahlapehsonyakarimbo (at Padang, West Sumatera)