3:00 AM THU.June 18,2015 There was a girl who was looking at the boys.Don't know why but she was watchin' out.At one point she put out her ipad from her bag.Then she was scrolling over social media and listening to some music.Every boy in the room and those who were watchin' her found this amusing, beginning to laugh. and i was reactionless.So, i had no reaction at her.Thus the girl noticed it.She put off her ipad in her bag.after this i thought this was over but no.She then began to look at me.I naturally don't look at girls directly.But i could see she was lookin' at me.After that we entered in the main classroom from waiting room.Then i got a good seat.At that point i forgot 'bout that girl.But there are something which you don't want to get but you got, that's what happened to me.The girl continues to look at me.and i could tell it by her wachin' style.I was just looked at her and she was beautiful enough to caught in any men or boy's eye.But i don't know what she found in me(Maybe there were something).At that time i was liking or getting affectionet at her but my mind was shouting by a line which was "Women are harmful to/on your study or the progress of your life".I dont know what to do.Now i have two option.One is,liking her or i should do what she's doing.Option no.two is, just avoid her.I think option number two is better for me or my life.Assuming that it's not the best.But you can't never get what's the best for your life.We should probably satisfied with what we get,at least.... (cont.) 1:09 AM FRI. June 19, 2015 Yesterday was more busier than any other day on this month.As i had to go my village home to give foods to poor people.But before that i had to go to the coaching class. In the way to the coaching i could remember about that girl but didn't remembered her face.After entered the class. I got a seat of narrow space but i was happy about that seat as i can see the whole class properly without turning my head. After sitting in the seat i saw the that girl.And she was sitting opposite of my seat,a little far distance.Then i could remember her face from before the previous class.She again looked at me as the way she looked at me the previous class.Now i became more interested in her than the previous class.She looked at me few times and same is done by me.At that time all i wanted was that she look at me at the time me seeing her.My wish was fulfilled. Another interesting thing i noticed at that girl was her behaviour was quite same as i.As s matter of fact her facial style was same as mine.I can remember a thing that when our teacher is lecturing some thing looking at me i would look at the teacher or looked at down and pretend to be understood anything he said,That same thing was seen in her.After watching her few moments, i was feeling that i seen her before but can't remember it.And that was the pain of my neck all day long. I can tell it without hiding that i did like it.After thinking this, i just worried about one thing is she like me or it just nothing.And i don't have any answer for this, till now.With this my class was dismissed for that day and i was going directly my village home from there.In the car i just thought about her.And a thing came to my mind that how a man can love two different people at the same time.But that thing remembered my of the girl i liked in my school,my first true school affection.Can't write her name (frzna),cuzz i fear that my life will go on thinking about her.But this was just the beginning in the way to our village we(mom & me) saw two girl and one of my age or few less.But what i could not thought that she was another girl (snju) of my affection. My mom took her to our car as she was our neighbours in the village.I took my headphone in my ear and full volumed it.I hadn't dare to look at her face let aside talking to her.Then i realise that a man can love three women or girl at the same time,it's possible, at least i can.(snju) Is beautiful and i like her since i was a small kid(as far as i remember i kissed her,maybe :-P ).But our obstacle is that she is our neighbour.That's it, just neighbour.Let aside my past and talk about present,what can i tell? I don't even know her name.If i don't ask her i probably won't know her name in the future.But i'm very bad at communicating with others, and now a girl of my affection,can't even think about it And her mom come to pick her after class.There are no option to talk with her.That's it.By the way my re-test of exem papers will be publish within one day. This result will select the way of my/our life if i can talk/see to her or just let her go without watching her.By the way today us the first day of RAMADAN....(cont.)
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