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there’s a bad moon on the rise.

personal art and testing out new shading

bowling alley carpet vibes.

this is the first thing i’ve finished in a long while

Reflection & Art:

i fucking hate online school. as a visual and hands on learner and an art student, this is my worst nightmare. i don’t have the resources i did with in person learning, and i’m paying all the same money for it. don’t expect me to go out of my comfort zone when the only tools i have available to me are the ones i’m comfortable with!

and my brain can’t discern that i’m still technically in school, and has switched into vacation mode where my ambitions and motivation get lost in favour of sleeping more or going outside. and there’s a fucking pandemic but i’m supposed to carry on like normal, when my future is uncertain and the future of my education is entirely unknown. what the fuck!!!

so i have to force myself to do work, and nothing i do feels good enough. i don’t feel like i’ve learned anything or grown as an artist in this past semester, and i’m frustrated as fuck. the current circumstances have abruptly and prematurely ended my first year of uni and i’m furious!

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a silly concept sketch for my personal project

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Some coffee fuelled rambling for my personal project.

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this is the only thing i’ve been able to draw in weeks

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Personal Reflection

It’s become near impossible for me to find motivation or creativity with the current state of the world. i thought things would be ok, but as more cases were reported, the worse things became for me.

the life i loved was uprooted when i returned home, and now my mental health is struggling, seeing nothing but death and despair in the world outside. there is a looming sense of hopelessness that i cannot shrug off.

people are expected to be creative at a time like this, cooped up in their homes unwillingly, to continue their creative process despite the state of the world. there’s pressure on artists, and on people, to be productive during a global pandemic that threatens them and their friends and family.

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more personal work, now a strange wip collage make from butchered cigarettes boxes

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a 45 minute personal sketch

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what was supposed to be a future selves poster, now just a wip of a personal piece

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late night reflection

as i’m compiling my portfolio at 3am, i’m realising that ill either stick with what’s comfortable for me, or go out on a limb to do something bold but never finish it. i had so many visions for pieces and yet i’d lose my motivation and inspiration the longer they took to complete and then we’re subsequently abandoned in favour of quicker, more comfortable drawings.

i need to start sticking with my pieces, or at least returning to them. i need to stop working with what’s comfortable and start exploring more, to experiment even further with my work.

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