Life's ups and downs are really tricky. A lot can happen in less than a month: Yes. No. Yes. No. These changes really turn up people's heads, mine, and I ended up not knowing what to think, what to do, what I want, which is something that really confuses me because I like to know what is happening with myself, being able to control it, and not planning the future feels weird to me (although most times, nothing that I planned happens) because I can be a person that cares to much about details which doesn't always play my side. I grind and regrind stuff in my head, and when I don't have anything to disctract myself, it is even worse. I end up thinking, thinking, thinking, thinkig and I only think about crap, only say crap, or don't say absolutely nothing at all because what I wanted to say SO MANY THINGS that I don't say anything. And everything I spend so much time thinking and 'unthinking' becomes a massive whirlwind of thoughts that turn my head upside down. But they don't go away! They only end up messier, and the world outside, the one that really matters thinks I don't think anything. That I don't really care about. And so I write over and over again to try to clear up the mess the whirlwind made and I simply end up with the (easy) solution of "saying nothing at all" (again). When I don't say anything, I feel like I'm failure, that don't stand up for myself, and when I do say something I feel like I shouldn't have because maybe my line of thought is not that right. So after this I can briefly say that you MUST stay true to yourself. You should do whatever you feel is the right thing at that moment. But be careful, you shoul be mindful if your decision is still viable. Go ahead. Turn that messy whirlwind of thoughts in the fresh breeze of hot sunday nights, only you have the power to change it.
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