Fed Up
I'm fed up...
Not the 100% progressive make a change kind.
I'm the kind that turns light into darkness.
They say as we mature physically, our brains mature mentally,and emotionally.
.... My system must have missed a few updates...
I'm more anxious, more volatile, more sad than I've ever been.
I'm fed up, with not having the answers.
WHAT THE F#%K IS TAKING SO LONG?!
I'm fed up with 'trusting the process'
Fool me one time, shame on you!
THERE WILL NOT BE A SECOND!!!
I'm fed up with putting my trust in people.
I tell myself "no new friends."
(Honestly, I'm an isolationist)....
The loneliness of isolation is, honestly killing me....
I'm fed up with MYSELF.
'HOW COULD YOU BE SO STUPID?! YOU TAKE EVERYTHING FOR GRANTED, YOU HAD YOUR CHANCE AND YOU BLEW IT!'
I'm tired of asking for advice, from elders, who should have the wisdom
Having been in my position, saying " give it all to God ." Or "get a better job."
WOW! OHMYGOD!
You really reinvented the wheel with that s##t!...
Can I tell you a secret?....
I'm so fed up, the other day I wanted to scream but decided to go for a run.
Then got so frustrated, that I kicked a dent in my car and then when asked about it just said it had been a hit and run.
Yesterday,
I̶ ̶c̶r̶i̶e̶d̶ ̶m̶y̶s̶e̶l̶f̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶s̶l̶e̶e̶p̶.̶.̶.̶ ̶T̶h̶e̶n̶ ̶w̶o̶k̶e̶ ̶u̶p̶ ̶f̶r̶o̶m̶ ̶m̶y̶ ̶s̶l̶e̶e̶p̶ ̶c̶r̶y̶i̶n̶g̶
Nevermind I shouldn't tell you that secret (it isn't manly).
I'm so fed up I wanted to cut myself.... well...
Just get cut, and be ready for any muthaf##ka think they wanna jump.
I'm so fed up, I wanna fight the world!
I blame you for ME feeling like I'm losing my purpose....
Really, I'm fed up cause I can't tell if it ever stops hurtin'