About 2 weeks ago, Iāve finally made a move. I create this ābabyppā persona to represent a secret side of me, the side where I want to be feminine, to be feminized.
I took some photos of me in these pink shorts, uploaded to imgur, posted on reddit. Iāve worn pantyhose and panties, but those are kind of my toys or tools for masturbation sessions. These shorts are the first piece of female clothing that shows my desire to be feminine without a direct implication for sexual stimulation.
I also wore the the little white top I got with the shorts, it was sexy, but I wasnāt thinking about rubbing my penis when I was dressed up, I just wanted to look pretty, sexy. I want others to be aroused when they see me, I am not trying to make myself aroused.
I want to show, to be looked at, to be admired - something I could never do with the normal me. I donāt look good normally, not as a guy, let alone as a girl. But my body, with some help of filters and camera angles, can actually be appealing for some people, myself included, I want it to look even better, but itās already better than how I normally look. I like the admiration, I like the attention, again, something I donāt usually get normally.
Am I trying to feminize myself to get the attention I crave? Or do I really enjoy being feminine? I am still trying to find outā¦
This happened after I had spent the night on Flingster, getting a few men off, then met a really interesting one, which I will leave that story to another time, and had to finish myself off on my own.
I guess I could try to find another partner and try to cum in front of him, but that last encounter was very satisfying despite me not getting to cum during it, plus it was getting quite late (or early, like 4 am) already, so I wanted to have more control over it and got it done relatively quickly.
A few things you may, or I did when I was editing, notice in this vid:
1. I am so skinny now. It is not a brag because I do not like it, and I did not lose weight intentionally. I think it is just because of the different diet after I moved to the UK.
2. My legs were bare, which is rare when I CD. I had pink fishnets on when I was doing the C2Cs, but my partner in the last session asked me to remove them. Was a bit too lazy to put them back on. Plus they had been freshly shaved that day, so I thought, might as well give that a go.
3. Never try to make a vid without any makeup at all. The guys on C2C sites may not care as much looking at the tiny chat window, but shooting a video is different. Remind me to remind myself that I am not a natural born beauty, do not get over confidence with your asset. The mask is hiding half of my face but I should still at least put on some eyeliner and shadow. But dang it I think my eyeliner has dried up again.
4. I might have exaggerated it a bit, but I was not totally faking it when I rolled my eyes at some point in the video. The feeling was really getting to my head. It did not look very good actually and I thought about cutting it out. But I think some people may actually like seeing that, so it was kept in.
5. Cars like to pass by when I am doing something interesting, like moaning, inserting the toy, changing position, and most importantly, cumming! I live by a main road that has cars passing by all night, albeit not constantly. They make enough noise to get captured in my recordings, and I have to lower the volume of those parts. I usually hold off from doing major actions when I hear one coming, but I canāt just postpone my orgasm when I am already halfway through it! And in this session, I even had a crow cawing when I was removing the dildo in the end, right on time my boy!
6. I usually use my phone to take videos, but I was using a Logitech webcam for C2C sessions, and so I just used that too to record this video out of convenience. I did not realise there would be a watermark. I guess it could be turned off in the software but it is too late for this video. I could still have blurred it out, but I have decided to be generous this time, free advertising for you Logitech.
The recording was actually 25 minutes long. I tried pretty hard trimming it down this time, not keeping much footage leading to the climax. But the post-orgasm bit is actually relatively intact. It is because, to me, my reaction there is an interesting and important part of the session. In my experience, the special thing about anal orgasm, or at least anally-assisted orgasm, is that the feeling lingers longer afterwards compared to just ejaculation by stimulating the penis. So I feel like keeping that part in is important.
All in all, I knew the whole setup was pretty raw this time. But with the lack of new clothes and shoes, I doubt that I would be making anything fancy any time soon. So I decided to record it and get something to show for anyway, for the people who crave for a new vid from me, and also as a record for myself in this rather blank period.
Link to the vid here, without a thumbnail this time as it's NFSW (does it even matter now anyway, is the adult content ban still here?)
About time I actually start posting interesting encounters I had on random cam to cam chats. While I sometimes keep screen recordings of my sessions, I don't plan to publicize them, at least not unedited, for the privacy of my partners.
I don't expect any of them to stumble upon here and find out I've been writing about our session, but in the one out of a million chance that happens, please know that it probably went very well between us for me to blog about it. And if you want the entry off the internet, let me know.
With all that said, here is the first entry.
2024-9-22 Dirty Roulette
He was a big man, who wasnāt naked to begin with. But he started talking and greeting me right away, guess thatās why I stayed. He talked quite a lot, giving me instructions and asking me to share my fantasy and stuff, thatās why I stayed all the way I guess. I wasnāt speaking back, just typing, so it went a bit slow. And I didnāt fulfill his every request, but he was patient and didnāt just run away, so I paid back with my own.
He was smoking something, and probably had been smoking all night, maybe thatās why heās in quite the mood. At some point he even started doing something even stronger. I suppose itās not illegal for me to not stop him using it? Heās touching his chest and belly over his shirt but heās not even showing his cock. Still, what he said just kept me engaged. Thereās a lot of nasty talk which I wouldnāt share here, but thatās what I want from these encounters.
I was not wearing a bra at first but he wanted me to put on more feminine things, so I compiled by putting a pair on. Told you Iām sexier with some clothes on, ha. And it turned out he enjoys underwear quite a bit too. Later on he showed me that he strapped a pair of underwear on his chest like sports bras!
There were more exchanges of nasty sexual fantasies, and more instructions as the chat went on. I was touching myself and playing with a dildo in my butt. We were like 40 minutes in before he actually lifted his shirt, showing me his hairy man-tits and big belly, which I really didnāt mind. He was touching his body and stroking but his dick was still out of frame. What Iām saying is, you really donāt need a big cock and hot body to make me want to spend time with you. Itās more important to talk to me the right way.
He wanted me to ask him nasty questions too. I tried but I think I wasnāt doing a very good job, wish I had done better for him. During the session, he asked me if I honestly like his big body many times, I think I can relate. I am also always concerned if my imperfect body is actually gonna be liked. But Iām glad that it seems like people can genuinely like all sorts of different things, not just the perfect role models.
We were 2h30m in and it was like 4am for me, I wanted to make him cum but he said heās nowhere near stopping for the night just yet. So in the end, after some more nasty conversations, I kept playing with my toy and touching myself, I came and caught it in my hand as instructed, and put that into my mouth under my mask.
I donāt suppose he came, but the session had already gone on for nearly 3 hours and I had to pack up and go. So we said our goodbyes and I left the chat. I wished he would find someone or something to help him release eventually. And I'm in fact really curios how much longer did it take for that to happen...
Again, this was one of the sessions I had in the hotel room before I left HK.
Not a lot to say for this one, because itās simply a shower. Well, one with some āclothesā on.
Itās next to impossible for me to shoot in the bathroom at home. I needed to be very sure that my family would be out of the house for a long period of time, during the day. Thereās very little room to get good angles. Itās difficult to place lights and stuff in there. I think Iād only ever done it once.
So when the hotel room comes with a rather large shower room, I had to make a vid there.
Doing it solo, I had to keep things simple. I didnāt want to try going in and out of the shower to move the camera around, risking getting water everywhere and making a mess. Still, the whole recording was 17 minutes long and I somehow kept 10 minutes of footage in this final cut. Yes, Iām quite greedy.
It was winter when I did it, and to avoid too much steam, I didnāt turn up the heat too much. So it was actually kinda chilly when Iād gotten myself wet, but not keeping the water coming.
It took surprisingly long for the thigh high stockings to get soaked. Were they cotton? Or synthetic instead? Anyway, I was hoping theyād looked sexier when they got translucent, but well, I tried.
Thereās not much of my figure I could hide in that outfit and that camera angle, thatās also one reason why I probably wonāt do another shower vid. But Iām happy I did it, feels like a bucket list thing, ha.
One of the sessions I had in the hotel room before I left HK. Again, itās been ages, so I can only remember so much.
The rope was pretty old, probably from the first couple of years of my CDing, when it was still easy to buy sex toys on Tao Bao and have them sent to HK. Later on, there were more restrictions on shippable merchandise and many shops didnāt ship to HK anymore. I think the rope was from a ā13-pieces SM packā or so, which included cuffs, a collar, a ballgag, a blindfold, nipple clamps, etc. Some of the gears used in my other vids probably came from this pack too.
The sheer top and panties were probably a pair. The top was so small that I always feared that itād get torn when I put it on.
Iām not super into ropeplays, but I admire people who have the patience to tie people up, or be tied up,Ā not to mention the skill required. I saw images and tutorials for é¾ē²ēø (Turtle ((diamond pattern)) binding) long ago and attempted a few times on myself casually before. But itās only with that long rope that I could actually do it decently. The upper part was pretty by the book but I wasnāt so sure how to finish the bottom part so that got a bit messy.
I think I did it pretty loose so I wasnāt restricted in any way, it was just for the look. But still, with the ropes around my crotch, it was kinda inconvenient to do a lot of penetrative play, so I ended up just touching and rubbing myself a lot. I donāt remember if I planned to end with just some rubbing though. Looking at the clips, I think I was just edging myself but went over the line at that point.
I think I didn't put on much makeup for this one, for whatever reasons. I always regret that though, when I check the recording the see the shadow under my eyes.
I cut the clips into a 15min version first, but a lot of it was just rubbing, seemed too similar, so I further edited it down to 13min. But then again 15 and 13 doesn't make much of a difference does it... hope you're not bored anyway.
The other vertical vid about me walking back and forth in front of the camera was actually done in between the rubbing on the bed. I was just trying to do a sexy walk, but after a number of tries, still couldnāt do it well enough, so I gave up. Put that into a separate vid just for laugh.
There is also a clip of me removing the rope from myself, maybe Iāll post it some day as a bit of behind the scene.
Black Rope Pleasure:
Black Rope Pleasure (Crossdresser) (2018) featuring Anal, Crossdresser, Solo, Amateur, Masturbation, Asian, Sex Toys, Small Cock, Homemade
Black Rope Walking:
Black Rope Walking (Crossdresser) (2021) featuring Black, Rope, Walking
One of the sessions I had in the hotel room before I left Hong Kong, one of the outfits/items in the āIāve bought it long ago but have never shown it, better do so before I throw it awayā clearance project. IāmĀ talking about the pantyhoses. The top was a more recent purchase.
It happened 3 years ago, my memory is understandably fuzzy, plus there really wasnāt much to say about this set anyway, so I will keep it brief.
Bought the pantyhoses cheap on TaoBao. They were supposed to be a pretty cosmic print. You know, the usual purplish, with some white swirls and sparkle here and there kind of pattern. But being a cheap product, they of course arrived looking disappointingly not similar to the images shown on the website. Them looking bad, plus the fact that I rarely get to make use of pantyhoses (unless crotchless, I need access to, you know, things I āinteractā with in videos!), are the main reasons why they were just in my storage all those years.
I think the wig was a pretty old one. I tried cleaning it a few times, but it just stayed oily looking by then. I never really learnt how to care for wigs actually. It was difficult to hang and dry them secretly after washing, so I was partially forced to not take very good care of them. And the ones I bought were all pretty cheap, so I didnāt feel too bad having to replace them from time to time.
I think this was the last session I had those heels on. They were my first pair, I was lucky to get a pair that fit well enough and was durable enough to last all those years so I didnāt really need another. Now that I donāt have any girl shoes, I miss them very much.
I had fun posing for these pics, making use of the limited space of the hotel room. It may sound weird to you, but we are talking about a relatively cheap one in HK, so itās not spacious at all. I couldnāt move anything around so I had to just improvise with the lighting and the space I got. In the end, Iām pretty satisfied with the result.
I did take some videos in this outfit, but as mentioned above, without easy access to parts of my body, thereās no major action in them. Still, Iāll probably put them together as a short clip later on.
I forgot that I still need to post my videos, and so I still need to make a post XD Well itās not like I hate to talk about it, but over the last 5 posts, Iāve written over 2k words already, am I making amateur porn here or taking writing lessons?
Anyway, there are totally 3 videos. By the time you read this, all of them shouldāve been published.
Teaser - 1 min vertical clip I did before taking the photos
40 min is way too long for anyone to spend on one porn clip. While JAV can be 2 hours long, some of them do actually have plots, and at least a few different scenes. Still I wonder if the Japanese themselves watch the full length of thoseā¦ My video is 40 min of me, on the same bed. (Well I did move around, took off some clothes, changed the camera angle a few times :P)
At first, I wanted to just cut it short. But how short? Most of my older vids were around 25 min long, and I feel that is still a bit too long for anyone to watch casually. But cutting it to 25 would be cutting away a lot of things already. So it would feel incomplete, while still being too long.
So I made a much shorter, 10 min version this time. Hopefully you can enjoy it without too much commitment. But, as the length implies, there are A LOT of things not included. If you are interested enough to want to see more, then you can find quite a bit more unseen footage in the 40 min version. So youāre not rewatching 80% of old content just to see the 20% new stuff.
I am not totally thrilled for it to have two different versions out there either, but I think this is the better choice. If anyone actually sat through the 40 min in my vid, let me know if you fell asleep at some point, or if now you regret doing so XD
Final note to self after editing the vids. Due to aging and probably weight lost, my arms looks even less feminine now. My belly is flatter but because of the dent in my chest, my torso is still not especially nice to look at. So, I guess I need to put more effort into acquiring a good top next time, if thereās a next time ;)
I canāt deny that Iām really getting old now. My skin is becoming loose and rough. I canāt really complain though, because I have not been spending time or money on skincare or anything against aging. Iām just not sure if I can produce content thatās nice to look at even if I try.
I suppose Iām still glad that Iāve got it done. It still feels fulfilling to create something, especially when itās at least mostly out of passion. I mean, yes Iām seeking attention, and maybe even some kind of validation, but Iām also glad that Iām not running a business. You know, like being a cam girl or selling clips on onlyfans.
I have nothing against people creating adult content for money. But I find it tiring to need to āstrategizeā everything you do. Like sitting there waiting for someone to tip before you would touch yourself, following trends to create videos similar to the popular ones, measuring engagement level and adjusting the amount of pics and clips you publish for free, etc. In this age where everything can be monetized, there are just too many calculations sometimes.
Itās a naive way to think I know, and thatās why Iām not getting rich XD But Iām already cynical enough in my normal life, I just need a tiny bit of me to be kept away from the rational world, to stay naive and kept some sort of passion alive, as a reminder of how true to myself and my feelings I once could be.
Sorry this journal got weird at the end. But this is written for you to read as much as for me to remember. Crossdressing is my secret, if I canāt even indulge myself in my very own secret, where else could I do so?
PS. Full gallery with this last pic uncensored (I'll tell you right away that it's not much, it's the plug, I'm just being safe here) now up on ashemaletube.
Lacey Cat (2024)
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I forgot that I still need to post my videos, and so I still need to make a post XD Well itās not like I hate to talk about it, but over the
Finally here comes the pic with by belly showing :P
I took some pics for the now useless verification first, then a couple dozens more in some rather usual poses. I didnāt really have many new ideas, and the outfit didnāt seem especially exciting anyway. I wanted to showcase the text on the back of the shorts, but taking pics when facing away from the cam was still challenging as ever.
Then it came to the video. I wanted to put in some cat-like movements at first, but I also felt Iām a bit too old to act overly cutesy or innocent, so I kinda dropped the act pretty quickly and just tried to be sensual and sexy.
With the windows closed, I felt myself getting warm before long, so I started stripping away the garments one after another. I didnāt want to get too much sweat on the bed sheet, so I had to place a towel under my body despite it not matching the theme. I guess Iāll have to buy a pink or cream towel some day.
The insertion in various poses went pretty well, but unwilling to bring in another off-theme tool to the scene, I didnāt use my usual acrylic board to keep the dildo in place for easy mounting. I had enough trouble getting a good angle to shoot in cowgirl positions to begin with, now needing to use one hand to keep hold of the dildo just made it way too physically taxing. So I think Iāve only shot a few minutes of those.
It was about 2AM and I started to hear my stomach making noises from time to time, so I figured I should finish things up before I was too exhausted. I knew that I wouldnātĀ reach a climax from anal alone any time soon, so I just started to rub my soft nub down below.
Oh Iāve forgotten to mention that Iāve tied a wire around the base of it. I thought of using ribbons but I only had red and black ones. I had pink and orange wires (those for art and craft, with some soft fiber wrapped around) though. As a bit of decoration and a bit of a chastity device I suppose. Looking back, it created unsightly folds around my sac at times and I couldnāt notice them during the shooting. The same old āI canāt see all the small details from the small phone screen when Iām busy stuffing my buttā problem.
Anyway, I finished in the comfy position lying on my back, hoping to give viewers a bit of a POV experience. Iāve only noticed that I came quite a bit more than I felt when I watched the video afterwards. And it seemed at least a bit of cum landed on the dildo and got pushed into my butt like lube. Hope some people would find it hot and not weird or gross. At least none of the cum landed on my sac like last time, which I found ugly.
Iāve now reviewed the recordings, canāt say Iām totally happy with the result. Thereās just not much new in it so it may be a bit dull. And Iāve only realized after the session that, after removing the top and the shorts, the lingerie was actually almost identical to the one I used in a previous video. Itās true that I donāt have too many options now, but still I would like to not repeat myself if possible.
A bit more to say next time and that'll be the final entry for this set.
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Lacey Cat (2024) #5
Final entry.
I canāt deny that Iām really getting old now. My skin is becoming loose and rough. I canāt really complain
I ditched most of my makeup when I moved to the UK, but I did buy back some essential items when I had my last dress up session. Still, being a noob in cosmetics, I didnāt think of checking them before the session. I only realized on the day that some of the makeup couldāve gone bad or dried up after not being used for so long.
Luckily, most of them still worked. Unluckily, the eyeliner refused to give me any more ink after Iāve done 80% of my right eye and a bit of my left. If anyone has recommendations on good eyeliners, please please please let me know. All the ones Iāve used either dried up fast (pens), or not had enough pigment (pencils).
I ended up using my darkest eyeshadow as a substitute. I was surprised how well it worked. With it being just brown and not even black. So maybe I can just always use eyeshadow instead???
The rest of the makeup was just my usual things. I only have red themed eyeshadows left. And I only have 1 lipstick (well actually 2, of the same colour because I mistakenly ordered it twiceā¦ such an ouchy moment for someone who doesnāt need to show the lips all that much), which is actually too dark a red to my liking.
I still have some fake nails and nail polish, but I donāt have any remover. Putting on the fake nails takes too much time and they fall off too easily. A bit too much stress for videos in general.
I was also a bit surprised that my wig was still in decent shape, literally, after being jammed in a box for so long. There were some strands that had become... wild? Like cured up or bent. I didnāt know why. But overall it wasn't too noticeable.
Still, how I wished I still had my short bob hair wig after Iāve put everything on. A shorter wig would make it less hot, again, literally, during the session!
For the undergarments and socks, I didnāt have many choices left. I checked my stock the day before, and found that a couple of pieces got mould on them, but they were fine after a quick wash. But all I had were similar, black, lacey panties and a couple of bralettes. I still had a few pairs of black stockings, one of which were fishnets and one opaque thigh highs.
Since the outfit itself was more of a cozy home clothing, I wanted to go with the thigh highs at first, but they were quite boring. I also think the fishnets matched the look well, but I wasnāt very confident with my legs. And with how most of my panties are lacey, I thought I might just go with this ālacey catā theme and use a pair of lacey stockings. Looking back, I donāt think itās the best choice.
Now, finally, weāre getting to the shooting itself next time!
Continue to Part 4:
Lacey Cat (2024) #4
Finally here comes the pic with by belly showing :P
I took some pics for the now useless verification first, then a coup
It was the first time Iām setting up for shooting in this place. I had to buy a new bed sheet for it because now I own a double bed. I spent some time testing placement of the camera (phone) the day before. Itās quite a bit more spacious than my old room in HK, but Iām still trying to show as little furniture or background as possible.
The ceiling light is very bright so I wasnāt sure if I needed the ring light. In fact I later put tissue paper over it to soften it, but then in the end I set up the ring light anyway and went without the ceiling light. I thought I got enough light from that and wanted to keep my room as dark as possible to avoid drawing attention in the middle of the night.
I also checked my outfit the day before shooting. It was bought over a year ago, and it was my only purchase after moving to the UK. I bought it partially to test how buying on Amazon and picking up from the post office works. Itās nothing fancy and it's pretty cheap, so of course the quality is nothing to write home about. Functionable, I would say, like most of my CD outfits have been.
What I didnāt think through though, was that it is a fluffy outfit. It comes with a pair of shorts yes, but the top is long sleeved and it's a hoodie. Itās August, and thanks to good insulation, Iām getting 24 degrees in my room at night. I was heating up quickly wearing almost nothing underneath and before doing anything!
I had to open up the windows, with curtains still drawn closed, when I was taking pics before the video. I was so glad that it helped. But I had to keep them closed to minimize the noise from the traffic during the video. Canāt believe Iām still struggling with noise from passing vehicles even when Iām in the UK (house close to main road =/).
That is one reason why I took the shorts then the top off midway through the vid, despite them being the main theme. I didnāt want to become a sweaty mess, and my makeup was bad enough without it melting.
Oh yer before we get ahead of ourselves and into the action, I need to talk about the makeup first.
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Lacey Cat (2024) #3
I ditched most of my makeup when I moved to the UK, but I did buy back some essential items when I had my last dress up
I have lost count but I think itās been over a year since Iāve last dressed up. Many reasons for my loooong break, so letās just leave that for now and talk about why I did it again instead.
I suppose the main reason, at least thatās what I told myself, is that I had been losing weight. I am now lighter than I used to be back in Hong Kong. Regardless of the reasons or if itās a health issue, I just thought I might as well take advantage of it.
I felt like my tummy is now flatter. It was one of the parts I was unhappy about, but frankly, the list of the flaws on my body is so long anyway, I could always find reasons to stop myself from showing any skin if I wanted to. I guess Iām taking whatever little bonus or victory Iām given.
Secondly, I had been posting on redgifs for a few weeks now, just to scratch the itch a little. It was helpful that their interface is quite simple and I have some old short vids lying around. It sucks that thereās no comment feature, but I donāt suppose I wouldāve gotten many anyway, Iām not even getting too many likes so far.
You need to get verified if you want to increase exposure, and verifying requires the same old "holding a paper with your url on it" photo. So yer, had to dress up to do that unless I wanted to show my guy face.
I did that during the session. But sadly, then I found that besides the pic, you also need to provide at least 1 link to your profile on one of the listed platforms, like onlyfans, manyvids, chaturbate, etc. I was kinda expecting that all those sites require real ID verification themselves, which I donāt plan to do. But, pornhub was also on the list, and I have a pornhub account, so I thought, thatāll do.
But the truth is, a user account on pornhub wouldnāt do. Youād need a creator account, which means real ID verification just like the other sites. So there you go, half of my reasons to dress up and take pics gone, together with my plan to get verified on redgifs.
Still, pics have been taken, videos shot, and I'm not gonna pretend that I didn't have plan to post them online anyway.
Now with that out of the way, let's talk about the session next time.
Edit: Changing and adding some pics as I remember that I should be including all the pics here. XD
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Lacey Cat (2024) #2
It was the first time Iām setting up for shooting in this place. I had to buy a new bed sheet for it because now I own a
Finally getting back to start publishing the many vids/pics I did last year. This is gonna be a huge catching up and I probably donāt remember all the details, but Iāll just write down whatever I still do.
Done in early Oct 2021, the beginning of my āletās use all these clothing Iāve gathered all these years before I leave HKā project. If I remember correctly, this vid was to showcase the long wig, the mesh gloves, and maybe the dildo which I often used but not featured in a video yet.Ā
Looking at the setup, maybe it was for Halloween too? But I never managed to get the room dim enough for the mood while still bright enough to keep decent video quality. I think I might have thought of dimming it in post production, but in the end while I was editing, I couldnāt get the result I wanted either. I didnāt want to repeat what I did in the sissy demon vid (adding a spotlight in post), so I just tuned the colours a bit.
Regarding the side bars, they are simply there to block out bits I donāt want to capture in the vid, but I couldnāt find a camera angle to crop them out. It has always been a problem for me, small room.
Thereās nothing too special about the video Iām afraid, given the only theme was just ālaceā. I think I left the A/C on during shooting because I took a short clip for testing first, thinking well the noise is not too bad. And then of course itās pretty bad once I amped up the volume in post, and led me to do some tricks to cut out the background noise, and in turn also burying some of my moans.
Still not able to cum from anal alone, but having something in my butt to push me over the edge was probably the next best thing. Didnāt really like the way I cum, always making a mess on the sheet, but cumming with a semi-hard penis pointing down is preferred anyway, just for the feminine feeling.
I was wondering if you would ever wear a small chastity for a video and cum handsfree
I actually always wanna try one of those flat chastity things, but I can't easily and cheaply buy one these days. As for cumming handsfree, I would if I could XD But I'm just still not really capable of that sadly =/
Iāve been enjoying āsissy hypnosā for quite some time. I donāt believe they can actually brainwash me (slowly influencing yes, quickly brainwashing no), but many of them do contain materials that make me horny.
Iām not a fan of flashing images or PMVs (porn music videos), though some of the PMVs are among the best sissy hypnos. I suppose babecock imagery on its own can be hot but it depends on the quality and I could be a bit desensitized by now.My favourites are the kind with narration, dirty talking, instructions or captions.
Context is so important as it adds more meaning to the images you see. A girlās hand on a cock with the caption āfeel the warmth of her handā leads you to think as the man. If itās āfeel the warmth of his shaftā instead then youāre led to think as the girl.
Among the sissy hypno genres I enjoyed, ārefocusā is one that I rank pretty high but donāt see enough of. What it means is that you take a porn clip, and shift the camera to the things you want the viewer to focus on. Some people do this kind of video by blurring, blacking out or censoring the other bits, but I think filling the screen with the subject so thereās no way for you to escape from looking at it is still the most powerful way, as it takes away your choice and you donāt even need to actively use your brain to pick which part of the screen to look at.
Thatās why my first attempt at making a hypno mainly follows this recipe. Yer I went to make a sissy hypno myself. I guess I had some fun making that panda girl tease remix last time so I thought, why not? Could be fun.
I wouldnāt say I put a huge amount of effort into it, as I just went online and downloaded a few āBlackedā videos for my source material to begin with. Iām not a BBC fanatic but I thought their videos are generally in nice quality, the contents would always be dominant male vs submissive female, so it would be an easy start. What I didnāt realize, was that the videos I downloaded were all compilations and vaginal sex.Ā
A bit into my editing, I was wishing I have longer, uninterrupted footages of a scene, and anal content would probably be even nicer. Oh, and having videos thatās better than 720p 24fps would also make the end result much better looking.
I started with a more dominating tone, addressing the viewer in a meaner way, but in the end I think that required too many words and took too long to get things going. So I ended up cutting to the chase quicker and made it more like a straight to the point guidebook.
There are a lot of zoom-ins in the video and I soon discovered that I would much prefer a source video in high resolution. Most of the vid is in 110% size of the original to begin with, to cut away the āBlackedā logo. I put the sourceās name in the end so itās not that I donāt want to give them credit, itās just that the logo is distracting, especially when itās there sometimes, but not always. You can zoom it in to about 200% without it looking too bad, but 250%+ and it gets pixelated so much it puts you out of the immersion.Ā
Anal sex would probably be preferred by the target audience, but itās also true that if you only go for anal, you have less choices. So itās partly because of my source material, partly because I think itās a legit concern for viewers like myself, that I made the video āa guide to watch straight pornā for sissies.
I was feeling pretty good after editing the scenes with the first girl in the source video, kind of a pity that it didnāt end with a cumshot. Then I proceeded to do more with the other scenes, but they were just not as good. One of the girlās moaning and screaming just sounds annoying to me, some other scenes just donāt have good shots for me to work with. The last scene in the source video actually ends with a creampie but it was short and not shot from a nice angle. I had another 6 minutes or so edited material but in the end I just kept the first part with the first girl.
It took like a week after uploading for the video to be actually published on Hypnotube. So far itās getting a pretty good rating, but Iām still nervous as from my experience, the viewers there can be quite harsh on ratings. While my video should be pretty in line with the hypno topic, so it shouldnāt get automatically downvoted to hell like most personal sissy videos, I think itās still quite short and the video quality is truly not great.
Anyway, Iām quite pleased that I got it done. But it was indeed quite a lot of work, so if Iām not getting good responses from it then I doubt that Iāll try doing it again. Otherwise I may be doing more. But I will need to try to find better sources as material, and may even need to consider a bit of music, which I'm pretty weak at.
If you just like to watch CD/trans porn then this is probably not for you, but if you're someone who enjoys this kind of stuff then Iād love to hear your comments.
A little attempt to make a "refocus" themed sissy instruction myself.
So this is the other vid I was talking about, a 9-minute long ājerk-off encouragementā or whatever you would like to call it. Basically me rubbing, stroking, dirty-talking, and finally cumming a bit suddenly. :P
I donāt think I was planning to do this but the idea was probably always there, since I did a bit more talking and encouragement in the last panda girl vid (2019). And so I guess I tried to ramp it up more this time and talked more. Not sure if what I said was hot, nasty, funny, or actually cringe-worthy, I was just trying to do it as smoothly as I could.
I originally tried to give a 20 or so verbal countdown before getting to the climax, but I ended up cumming myself right before starting the countdown XD. So I had to add a bit of text aid to give you some preparation time. Otherwise I think I think itād be rather surprising and awkward that you just see me cumming out of nowhere shortly after a cut. Itās still not having a very good build up, but thereās not much I can do about it :P.
A related story. I tried uploading the tease video to SpankBang for like 10 times, and it kept getting auto deleted once itās processed, without a reason. Iāve tried changing the title, description, encoding the file again, changing it to another dimension, still the same, so I donāt think itās a technical problem (I can actually watch it during the brief window before itās deleted). If itās the theme then I donāt see why this stroking together vid doesnāt have the same problem.
Itās been pretty doom and gloom lately for me because of world events. But let me just put the guilt of not being sad about tragedies in the world aside for a moment and write about what I write here.
After posting the few presentable photos of this set, I turned my attention to the videos I took after the photo session. Iāve forgotten what I did in them as they were done about 6 months ago, and a lot had happened.
Anyway, after some editing, I have a 5-minute long almost non nude teasing video and a 9-minute one which we will talk about in another time. Iāve uploaded the teasing one to AShemaleTube already, but 5 minutes is too long for Twitter if I remember correctly. So I went and did a 1.5-minute version.
With some free time at hand, I decided to try and add some music to the vid because the recording actually came with pretty loud background noises. As always I just went to YouTubeās free audio library and tried my luck. I found a track that I felt was very appropriate pretty quickly, and in fact I could only find another one or two which were relatively satisfactory after some more searching. So The Nexus Riddim by Konrad OldMoney it is.
I extended my cut slightly to fit the track and I liked it. But hearing the beat drops in the tracks and seeing that there were quite a lot of cuts/transitions in the short vid anyway, I got tempted to do a bit more.
I wasnāt crazy enough to match every transition with the beats, but I did end up throwing in a bunch of effects from the limited library in my very old Premiere. The result may not be very sophisticated. If anyone should write a review saying that āthe editor overused some very cliche effects repeatedly like a child repeating the phrase they just learnt thinking itās the coolest thing in the worldā, guess even I canāt blame him.
But I did have fun making it and as someone who rarely do fancy stuff, Iām pretty proud of it too :P Hope you enjoy it too, and if you want to watch the full and basic version of the video, it can be found here:
