i love you. you’re my soulmate. i believe we’re meant to be together. 5 years of dating only to break up, be blocked, & have no sort of communication for 5-6 months. then we reconnect. you come to the house, talk to me & catch up & then we sort of just gradually started talking more. i come over to celebrate your mom & grandma’s birthday & i ended up sleeping over for 4 days. then you block me again after my trip to washington bc of how much it hurt you to know that i got intimate w/ someone else before getting intimate w/ you again. you cried, punched walls/your car, bled, all bc it hurt to much. you loved me & it never stopped. i know that now. a week or 2 later, i find out i’m pregnant! god is telling me that you are meant to be in my life, we are meant to be together. so why is it that it is so difficult rn. why is it that we don’t talk like we used to. why does it feel like i’m still going through this pregnancy alone. i miss you. i miss us. i want everything to go back to how it was in september/october when we reconnected. i’m patiently waiting for you to come back to me. so that we can be a family. please. just one last chance to make this work. fuck your friends, fuck what anyone else has to say. it’s you, me, & this baby. please don’t give up on the idea of us just bc of your friends. i still love you