hey. were the capricorn system. you may know us from @slowlydyinghost. we decided we wanted to restart, and move all our system blogs into one place.
our collective name is six,, and we collectively use it/its pronouns. we are bodily a minor, although most of us are adults in headspace.
there are 150 of us please dont ask if someones in front
we are somewhere on the schizo spectrum, are autistic, and a narcissist, plus other disorders. we are sometimes not a very good person, nor are we often safe to be around.
we do not use tone tags, nor do we want them used for us. if you have to clarify tone/intent, put it in brackets after the text, as so: "this is random text. (tone typed out in full with no abbreviations)".
assume good intent from us. we very rarely do things because we mean bad.
we regularly forget words and how to spell them. be nice.
no dni, they dont work anyway. follow us if you want, we will likely block you if we dont like you.
important posts we want to be looked at \/
this post details all of the blogs on this account.
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important other things:
system in control currently: the algedi system. persephone, star/it/? pronouns.
Everyone told me testosterone would make me angrier. My family has a habit of attributing any anger I feel these days to the testosterone. I didn't feel any angrier, but my mother would still tell me that no, I am angrier now, and testosterone did make me angrier and *she* could tell.
A week or two ago, I got my proof to the contrary. I'd been having a difficult day, woke up late, and had to rush out the door, ran into minor inconvenience after minor inconvenience, and then the straw broke the camel's back.
I wrote out the kind of angry vindictive seething text message I used to write constantly. I didn't send it, of course, I copied it out and pasted it in the folder of my notes where I put all my rage venting.
And then I thought.
Huh, it's been a little while since I did that. And I checked the time and dates on my previous notes. The last one was a few days before I started testosterone.
And scrolling back, I noticed that they were *constant* at least one a week for *years* I used to get so angry that I would get the serious urge to say cruel hurtful things to or about people I cared about on a near-daily basis. I didn't realize how big of a problem it was until all of a sudden I hadn't gotten that angry in Eleven Months. Nearly a YEAR.
And then I realized in my rush to get out the door in the morning, I hadn't taken my T shot. My testosterone was the lowest it's been since August.
All of a sudden, I had demonstrable proof that testosterone really did make me less angry. That all that "you may not think you're any angrier but you are" was bullshit.
I feel like I should be angrier about this than I am. I know how angry I used to get. About everything. I just felt it again for the first time in a while. For once, it would feel justified to be that angry. But I'm not. I'm not mad. I'm just... disappointed, I guess.
Society says it. People believe it. Science disagrees. To be clear we probably need an expert because there is a shit-ton of biased science research when it comes to “males are like this, females are like that” which as we know is society induced bullshit.
New scientific evidence refutes the preconception that testosterone causes aggressive, egocentric, and risky behavior. A study with more tha
i think taylor swift wishes she was bisexual because she knows it would make her slightly more money. whereas sabrina carpenter wishes she was bisexual so she could have sex with someone who looks exactly like herself. and ariana grande wishes she was bisexual because she did too many designer drugs on the set of wicked and now she has kin memories of being glinda for real
FriendProgram was an essential character for me to write because they are EVERYTHING people usually don't want an aspec character to be.
'aspec but I still love my friends!' FP doesn't want friends
'aspec but I still feel love!' FP doesn't feel love
'aspec but I still feel empathy!' FP has a very low empathy
'aspec but I'm very affectionate!' FP hates hugs and any other form of affection
'aspec but I still like watching romance/power of friendship/etc' not FP, they hate watching that
FP being very morally grey at times is probably also not something everyone would like either
(FP is a robot too, that one is fair if you don't like it, I'm the loveless person that likes robots is all)
But it was so important to me that this character existed. I'm so tired of aspecs always needing to do something to prove their worth, it never is about them just existing, they have to do something else to prove they are a good person. So here is FP, doing everything most people hate
Yes aspecs can feel love and have friends, obviously!! this is about the demonization of the opposite. We have so very few aspec characters that I think we just constantly throw each other under the bus cause we want to see more of every single part of the spectrum, and we are right to be mad, give us 1000 aspec characters. But we won't win if we throw each other under the bus and I do think characters like FP and also you know, real people, get a big amount of crap cause they are what way too many people see as 'bad representation' or 'bad aspecs'
This is not about me writing the best representation ever (it's not), this goes beyond my dumb rpg maker game. please for the love of god just be nice to loveless people, people with low empathy, love repulsed people, etc
One thing that kills me about the tme/tma false dichotomy is the fact that so many now feel the need to put it front and center in their bio right next to their name and pronouns. Really? That's THE most important thing about you as a person? Should I use "sinophobia exempt" as a primary personality trait since I'm not Chinese? Why not list every axis of oppression they presume to be affected/unaffected by in bio? Silly me using bios to tell people who I am instead of who I'm not.
Well, when you realize that TMA/TME is just MtF/FtM rebranded, it makes complete sense.
no nuance, pick the continent you were in when you learnt the acronym (like if you went to school in asia and were taught pemdas, but now you live in europe, then pick asia because that’s where you learnt the acronym). if you didn’t learn either acronym sorry there aren’t enough poll options for you. feel free to reblog with your acronym/mneumonic/whatever.
this poll is for my friend btw so the more answers the better o7