Also go through things right now..
As I am feeling very alone now, very sick without someone to look up to because this recent person I'm with for a while I really don't believe in him anymore because he pretty much treats me like crap and at a con recent when I tried to stop a fight and just end it. he told me "fuck you fucking sult." I pretty much do everything for him to try to get back on his feet and it's like I'm both the girlfriend and boyfriend in the relationship. It's like I'm just a piggy bank for this moody, childish, angry manchild... and he wants to move in and start a life with me but I don't think he can do that. At all. He always say he can change and stuff but.. it just goes back to us fighting and everything. No plan b's, car, money, and he wants to take care of me too. I rather take care of myself. I mean that's what I been doing this whole time. And I just rather see other people then just talk to him. I just want to hang out with some people I rather call friends than see him every weekend. I don't even I to introduce him to friend because he is that angry....
Pretty much crying my eyes out now...
Holding a turtle from him that had good memories abit...
Even tho I still pretty much feel alone I still not much of a person to hang out with much people no matter what I do...
And I through when I was friends with people that I thought I was okay with they still don't think I exsist...
Just want someone not only be there when I'm emotionally down like this but not someone to get angry at me when I do everything and be inconsiderate, have mood angry issues, has a job, keep a job, commons sense in everything, not pleasing me by porn or other madness, cleans up abit, and....
And the asshole of a ex after him that "didn't do anything" and played innocent with everyone..
I feel like I'm gonna get ran over and be alone forever no matter how many times I stick up for people, help people, encourage people, and thought I was good with people.
I'm still getting ran over.
This is why I just be by myself and just stay away from crowds. And certain people who keeps on treating me like crap...
I'm pretty much a ghost anyways...
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