it wasn't a miracle we needed

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these days

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Do you think about me still?

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Sometimes I want to know: what made you break? Sometimes I look back and don’t see it coming. Other times, it’s the most obvious thing in the world and I see it from miles away.

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where did you go?

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life is really different now

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Lately:

fresh/blooming/alive

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I was an echo

i was a shadow

to you

& now that’s what you are to me

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good and bad times

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L: Tonight I saw this picture of you, from ten years ago.

You are holding a cigarette. You are smiling, a soft smile. You are looking up, off, into the sky, like you have an important thought, and you’re about to say something grand. Your bangs are roughly cut, like with a kid’s safety scissors, a harsh slice across your forehead.

In front of me there is a plastic cup of beer. In front of you is an ashtray, full of crumpled cigarette butts.

I wish I knew what you said in the next moment, after the photo. I wish I could travel back, hold your hand, tell you we would go on to be great people, despite the men who hurt us. I wish I could say in that breath of a moment—“your smile, it peaks through the clouds”—but then again, maybe I did.

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I keep closing my eyes just to feel you

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