Electra Hart

Delilah Hart 19 I probably won't like you

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  “I thought that the answer was kind of obvious, Jack…” Alex drawled amused at how shy Jack was being. It was a bit of a chnage from the summer, as they had no problems then. Alex could help but love it though, how could you not when someone was that cute? Alex decided his pause was long enough, and that Jack was probably freaking out inside his head by Alex’s lack of response.

“So, since you thought it wasn’t official, I guess I’ll just have to ask you then. I rather fancy you , Jack so will you do me the honor of being my boyfriend? Regardless of what happens at school.”

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Jack sighed, a pensive look written on his face. “Oh…” He mumbled waiting for Alex to give him the answer. ‘Of course he’ll say no, you were a dick to him, he could do way better than you’ the voices inside of his mind was telling him. Just as he was about to get up and walk away from sheer embarrassment, the boy asked him out. He nodded “Yes I’d quite like that actually, just promise me you won’t get mad at me if I seem a little distant at school, well at first anyways” he said quietly curling up to the older boy.

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Alex wrapped his arms around the younger boy, as a sort of apology for his earlier teasing and dragging how his response.  “Hmm, I guess. I’ll let it slide for a while, but If i get fed up you better expect that i’ll kiss you right in the middle of school, I’m a rather possessive person, and I like when people know what’s mine. But we’ll figure this out yeah? And if any wankers try to give you shit about it I’ll deal with ‘em. “

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Jack cuddled in closer to the boy, feeling safe and loved for once again in his life with the same boy who made him feel like that. "Hm that's ok, oh trust me.. I know" he said with a small giggle slipping passed his lips before leaning up to kiss the boy gently. The skunk haired boy sighed, pulling down his sleeves out of habit and anxiety, "I'm going to get killed tomorrow" he said with a groan, still upset that Alex had told everyone about their fling over the summer holidays. "Plus I'm pretty sure all your friends hate me seeing as I'm a cunt dick face at school" Jack told Alex.

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Jack giggled ‘Oh well thanks’ he said smiling softly at the boy’s kiss. “Hey Lex? You know if it does go around the school, can we, I dunno try us again?” He asked gently his heart practically beating out of his chest. He really wanted to be with Alex again, at least they’d be able to be open about it by then. “I mean you don’t have to say yes, you just make me happy, and I know you probably don’t want to because I was a dick to you” he said quietly, still hiding his face in the others chest.

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“I thought that the answer was kind of obvious, Jack…” Alex drawled amused at how shy Jack was being. It was a bit of a chnage from the summer, as they had no problems then. Alex could help but love it though, how could you not when someone was that cute? Alex decided his pause was long enough, and that Jack was probably freaking out inside his head by Alex’s lack of response.

“So, since you thought it wasn’t official, I guess I’ll just have to ask you then. I rather fancy you , Jack so will you do me the honor of being my boyfriend? Regardless of what happens at school.”

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Jack sighed, a pensive look written on his face. "Oh..." He mumbled waiting for Alex to give him the answer. 'Of course he'll say no, you were a dick to him, he could do way better than you' the voices inside of his mind was telling him. Just as he was about to get up and walk away from sheer embarrassment, the boy asked him out. He nodded "Yes I'd quite like that actually, just promise me you won't get mad at me if I seem a little distant at school, well at first anyways" he said quietly curling up to the older boy.

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Jack cuddled up closer to the older boy, finally feeling safe and calm for once in a long time. He blushed ‘um, yeah, I still didn’t know people wanted to shag me, I mean I’m a weird lanky kid with gay ass hair’ he said with a little laugh. ‘I know it’s probably not the...

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Jack giggled 'Oh well thanks' he said smiling softly at the boy's kiss. "Hey Lex? You know if it does go around the school, can we, I dunno try us again?" He asked gently his heart practically beating out of his chest. He really wanted to be with Alex again, at least they'd be able to be open about it by then. "I mean you don't have to say yes, you just make me happy, and I know you probably don't want to because I was a dick to you" he said quietly, still hiding his face in the others chest.

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Jack froze ‘You what? They hate me! They’re going to tell everyone, I can’t go to school tomorrow, I can’t! Why did you tell them Alex?’ The younger boy cried, pulling himself into a ball. ‘They’re gonna hurt me, and never ever stop, even if I’m about to die’ he cried...

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Jack cuddled up closer to the older boy, finally feeling safe and calm for once in a long time. He blushed 'um, yeah, I still didn't know people wanted to shag me, I mean I'm a weird lanky kid with gay ass hair' he said with a little laugh. 'I know it's probably not the right time, but I really missed you Lex' he said quietly, not moving a inch away from the boy. He wanted to be with Alex more than anything, maybe he'd have some nice real friends for once, and maybe Alex and him could be something one day again. He sighed to himself 'And I know they would of told people, maybe even by accident god knows' he said sighing.

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Jack chewed his lip watching the shorter boy come near him. “I’m sorry for being a dick to you, and I’m sorry for my so called friends, they just, they don’t know I’m gay, and one of them knows and he threatened to tell the whole school and if that happens I’ll be forever...

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Jack froze 'You what? They hate me! They're going to tell everyone, I can't go to school tomorrow, I can't! Why did you tell them Alex?' The younger boy cried, pulling himself into a ball. 'They're gonna hurt me, and never ever stop, even if I'm about to die' he cried hiding his face. All Jack could think about was what the kids were going to do to him, he'd probably have to move schools, or even countries. 'No one's gonna want to be friends with me after now' he said sighing.

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Jack stared out into the sea, thinking about his summer with Alex and how great and amazing it was. He sighed to himself fiddling with the sleeves of his jacket, he heard someone come up behind him, for a moment he was confused to who it might be but then he remembered, it...

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Jack chewed his lip watching the shorter boy come near him. "I'm sorry for being a dick to you, and I'm sorry for my so called friends, they just, they don't know I'm gay, and one of them knows and he threatened to tell the whole school and if that happens I'll be forever hated and no one will ever like me and god' he said covering his face for a few moments pulling down his sleeves so alex wouldn't see the scars on his arms. "Me at school is just an act, I swear to god" he whispered looking at the boy. "Please don't hate me Lex, I had no idea I'd ever see you again" he whispered.

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At lunch, Alex was pleasantly surprised. Matt was right, his friends were great. Even if Zack looked intimidating and Vinny was reallly obnoxious. 

“So Matt, what is with all those guys wearing those short jeans? They look awful.”

“Ohh, you mean Jack Barakat and his friends, well I guess they’re known as a the “popular” kids, but I don’t really know man. It is a shame though Jack’s actually really hot. I wonder what he’d look like in normal clothes…”

Alex smiled a bit, he had figured that was why, but had wanted to make sure.

“Oh, trust me he looks great~. Especially his ass.”

“Wait. What? How do you know?” Matt was the one turned to him in interest, but he wasn’t the only one. Apparently he had caught the attention of everyone at the table. 

“Because I may have met him this summer in Florida, and I we have hit things off.”

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Anatomy was fucking awful. The teacher was really strict and and wouldn’t let anyone move out of their alphabetically assigned seats, so Alex had no chance of talking to Jack. It didn’t help that his next class was maths and three halls away, so He could stay to talk to Jack.

A blur of classes later and it was the end of the day. Alex had failed to talk to Jack once and Jack never even told him anything about meeting him. Sighing Alex decided to walk to the beach, since He really didn’t want to go to his new home yet. At least at the beach he could try and pretend it was summer again.

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Jack stared out into the sea, thinking about his summer with Alex and how great and amazing it was. He sighed to himself fiddling with the sleeves of his jacket, he heard someone come up behind him, for a moment he was confused to who it might be but then he remembered, it wasn't just Jack's spot it was Alex's too. He turned around almost instantly and saw the older boy walking closer to him. The skunk haired boy pulled out a headphone and stared up at him. 'Alex?' he asked before sighing quietly, 'Alex don't ignore me we need to talk' he said quietly. 

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Glancing at Jack, the older lifted an eyebrow "And what is occurring tonight? I'm still annoyed at you. And depending on what you say, We'll either start over as friends, or pretend summer never happened."  The Bell rang , signaling the start of class, turned in his desk to pay attention to the music professor. Flyzik was right, the professor was a saint, and and before Alex could realize how much time had passed, the bell rang again. A hand shot out and grabbed his timetable, it belonged to Jack. He scribbled something down hurriedly on the sheet of paper before thrusting it Alex's face and leaving the very next second. Alex saw that one of his later classes was circled with a small note next to it. 

my next class is far away, sorry. but we have anatomy together, see you then.

Looking at the circled class, he saw that it was his fifth hour. Good, he thought to himself, I wanted to ask Matthew about some stuff at lunch, specifically involving those horrid trousers everyone seems to wear... Moving his eyes up the page he found his next class and quickly walked out of the music room, not wanting to be late.

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Jack sighed 'I I dunno Lex' He muttered quietly. He wrote down on the note and shoved it at Jack before rushing off to his next period which happened to be maths, his least favorite subject.  After enduring hours of school and countlessly trying to sneak away from his friends so he could talk to Alex, school finally ended.  He grabbed his phone and plugged in his head phones, listening to Blink-182 as loud as he possibly could. He rushed out of the school before anyone could notice him and wandered to the beach, no one ever went there, it was his place. He took of his sweater that showed his scars, his deep cuts that no one ever knew about, apart from Alex. It had gotten worse, ever since Alex went back. The skunk haired boy trailed his hand over his left arm, feeling the indents of the razor blade that he used basically every day. 

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Jack arrived at his music class, thankfully before anyone else did. He slipped into a seat at the back. This was the only class without his friends, they all thought he was off fucking some teacher or something but in reality he was in his favorite class. He really hoped that Alex wouldn’t be in his music class, but that was highly unlikely seeing how amazing he was at it. The skunk haired boy sighed to himself, maybe he could get a chance to apologize, explain everything to him, god knows he thought to himself. He watched as the people poured in, no one ever expected Jack to do music, but he did, it was the only thing that kept him sane.

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Following the directions Flyzik gave him. Alex found the class room easily, and was the second one in there. The first being Jack

oh lovely, Alex thought, what the fuck am I in? Some cheesy romance novel like the one my mum reads?

Alex stood there awkwardly not sure if he ought to talk to the boy he met during the summer or ignore him. Those douche bag friends of his weren’t around so it might be safe. And Jack is staring at him. Well I’d be staring too if someone stood and stared at me for a whole minute…

Mustering up some sort of courage, he strode forward and sat down next to Jack. “I really should be ignoring you, but at the very least I think I deserve some sort of explanation…”

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Jack watched the boy enter his class, great he thought to himself. He expected Alex to go sit on the other side of the room but no he sat down next to Jack wanting an explanation. 'It's uh hard to explain' he mumbled quietly before facing the boy. 'Look all I can say is I'm not who I am at school, I hate how I act, I hate what I wear I hate everything that is me when I'm at school, I didn't want to tell you because I'm ashamed of that part of me, please understand Lex, look I'll explain it all to you tonight ok?' He asked quietly chewing on his pen. He really missed Alex, like a lot and he had to be a dick to him to keep one of his friends not telling his secret.

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Jack felt sick for doing that to Alex, he felt screaming at his stupid friends. He sighed to himself pulling out his iPod. “Your Song” by Elton John came on and Jack immediately felt like he was about to break down. This was their song, and now Alex probably hated his guts. He sighed to himself before leaning back in his seat remembering those wonderful times he’d had with Alex. They cuddled under the stars, kissed, watched movies, did all that cheesy stuff together.

By the end of the lesson Jack realized he was smiling like an idiot. He stood up and left the room in an instant hoping to avoid his friends, and Alex. The skunk haired boy walked over to his locker and grabbed his books out, before hiding his face in it. ‘Fuck I’m such a dick’ he muttered and went to his neck class. Thankfully it was music, none of his friends did that and seeing as music was his passion he could escape.

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Alex’s class passed with no trouble, and ont once did he deem it necessary to look over at the boy he thought he once knew. It seemed that he was right about the kid he sat next to, and they got along like white on rice. Matt told him that his friends were chill too, and  that “You’ll like ‘em, even Vinny even though he’s a douche bag sometimes, you can meet ‘em at lunch. Speaking of which. What’s your fourth class?”

Looking down at his timetable, Alex saw that he was due to be in Biology with Simpson, and he repeated the information to the older boy. 

“Really? That works out I’m pretty sure Rian has that class, he looks like a fat, angry potato with hair, but don’t let it fool you he’s a giant softie. I think Cass might be in there too, she’s his girlfriend.”

“A potato? You know what, never mind, maybe it will make sense once I see him.” Flyzik seemed amused at his confusion and laughed. “Well the bell’s ‘bout to ring, I need to get my shit together I’ve got politcs next and the damn class is on the other side of the building. What about you?”

“Uh…, I’ve got music.”

“Ah, lucky, that’s a short walk, s’on the next hall over, first class on the left. Plus the teacher is a saint, lets you focus on your favorite type of music and rarely makes the whole class listen to stuff they don’t like.”

“Really? That’s sweet.”

“yeah, it is,” Flyzik said standing up as the bell rang, “Well I’m off bro see you at lunch.” 

Alex gathered up his things and when he ventured to look over to the spot where Jack was sitting, there was no trace of the boy. He must have been the first one out the door. Alex’s spirits sunk even lower,  the younger boy must really want nothing to do with him.

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Jack arrived at his music class, thankfully before anyone else did. He slipped into a seat at the back. This was the only class without his friends, they all thought he was off fucking some teacher or something but in reality he was in his favorite class. He really hoped that Alex wouldn't be in his music class, but that was highly unlikely seeing how amazing he was at it. The skunk haired boy sighed to himself, maybe he could get a chance to apologize, explain everything to him, god knows he thought to himself. He watched as the people poured in, no one ever expected Jack to do music, but he did, it was the only thing that kept him sane.

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Jack couldn’t help smiling, for those few seconds that he saw the boy he was completely in love with nothing could stop him. ‘What a loser aye Jack, he sounds like a complete twat’ Johnny, one of Jack’s friends said. The skunk haired boy bit his lip, he couldn’t bare being...

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Jack felt sick for doing that to Alex, he felt screaming at his stupid friends. He sighed to himself pulling out his iPod. "Your Song" by Elton John came on and Jack immediately felt like he was about to break down. This was their song, and now Alex probably hated his guts. He sighed to himself before leaning back in his seat remembering those wonderful times he'd had with Alex. They cuddled under the stars, kissed, watched movies, did all that cheesy stuff together.

By the end of the lesson Jack realized he was smiling like an idiot. He stood up and left the room in an instant hoping to avoid his friends, and Alex. The skunk haired boy walked over to his locker and grabbed his books out, before hiding his face in it. 'Fuck I'm such a dick' he muttered and went to his neck class. Thankfully it was music, none of his friends did that and seeing as music was his passion he could escape.

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Jack sighed to himself, first day of being a senior at high school. He hated school, he hated the person who they made him, he wasn’t the dick who didn’t care about anyone, no that wasn’t him but that’s who he had to be. The skunk haired boy rolled up the end of his chinos,...

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Jack couldn't help smiling, for those few seconds that he saw the boy he was completely in love with nothin could stop him. 'What a loser aye Jack, he sounds like a complete twat' Johnny, one of Jack's friends said. The skunk haired boy bit his lip, he couldn't bare being a dick to Jack, but he had to. 'Uh yeah, and his accent sounds like he's retarded' he said quietly not daring to look Alex in the eye. Quite honestly he found Alex's accent adorable, he found everything about him perfect and now he had to bag him out. He looked up from his desk and saw the look on Alex's face. The skunk haired boy felt sick, this was going to be a painful year. He moved his gaze to the teacher and sighed. He wished he didn't have to do this.

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I miss you safe haven people :'(

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Is that really you? || Alex and Jack.

Jack sighed to himself, first day of being a senior at high school. He hated school, he hated the person who they made him, he wasn't the dick who didn't care about anyone, no that wasn't him but that's who he had to be. The skunk haired boy rolled up the end of his chinos, which he hated wearing and slipped on a pair of converse. He grabbed his bag and threw it over his shoulder. 'I look like a complete twat' he muttered to himself. Jack wondered through the Gates, walking over to his stupid hipster 'Friends'. 'Jackie boy!' Luke, his "best friend" said to him. 'Hey buddy, how was your summer?' He asked and fist bumped the boy. 'It was alright mate, just working I suppose' he said with a shrug 'What about you' he asked. Jack smiled, remembering back to his summer with Alex, a weird but gorgeous British kid who he sort of had a fling with. 'Oh it was nice I guess, I met this guy..' He said and trailed off. Before he had a chance to tell his friends about his romance he heard the school bell ring. He sighed and wondered off to class, sitting at the back of it. The boy started to day dream about his holiday with the boy, and how nice and funny and sweet he was. Jack had never met such a gentle soul. 'Alright class, we have a new student from England, Alex, Alex Gaskarth' his teacher said. Was jack imagining it? Did he just hear Alex's name. A second later he saw the gorgeous dark blonde haired boy, who wore skinny jeans and a band shirt walked in. 'Alex!' He said louder than he probably should of.

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