I left six hours of class and the days have gotten longer so the sun was still out,
I wandered around downtown without a plan of what I wanted to do,
Just knowing I had to do SOMETHING before going home,
I walked past the bars and even went into my familiar dive bar but it didn’t last, not while the sun was still up and I was alone,
I wandered around, carrying my heavy backpack and ignoring the pain I’d had in my back for two days, ignoring how each step threatened to add a new pain in my leg joints,
I kept on straight down the main road, no knowledge of what I desired and thinking of what was around me I could use to try and fill the want in me,
The shops and the underground malls sparked nothing but negative feelings on consumption,
The fast food joints also felt discouraging, for the negativity of consumption but also knowing they are American chains,
I paused in a park, though park is a generous word for it, it is more like a block of concrete with a statue at the center and a girl nearby feeding the pigeons,
I picked out my book and read a page but this also wasn’t what I was looking for, it was cold and windy with a grey sky, it’s the type of sky that stretches the sunlight too far so you never feel its warmth but the brightness sticks around longer,
I got some semblance of a goal, if I couldn’t find what I desired I would at least reach my step goal of 10,000 steps, a goal I always struggle to meet,
I knew I was getting past the part of the road where I knew what was around, also getting past the metro stations that would bring me home, there was just one spot I knew left if I kept going this way,
A small local tea store, with tea blends and lattes made per your order, and in house pastries of all types, it’s a special gem I discovered with a friend a summer ago,
I am often indecisive but with the lack of knowing my desires I stood choosing my drink for some time, deciding on a tiger latte and quickly adding a cookie that caught my eye due to its strikingly rich cocoa colour,
I sat in the tea house waiting for my drink and realized the buzz in the store, despite its slim size almost every chair was taken by a group or pair talking and laughing together,
I let myself settle in, got my drink which was lovely though very hot, ate bit by bit of my cookie which was dark chocolate with a pistachio filling in the center, I pulled out my book and I read,
No solid goal or time limit on myself, just when I finished up my cookie and my drink had cooled enough to carry it outside, then I would naturally leave,
I ended up finishing both the drink and the cookie before departing, they filled me, not just my stomach but my soul felt uplifted,
It wasn’t a quiet moment to read to myself but it wasn’t about that, this was about being around people and being with myself and just allowing myself to be still, enjoy a treat, and feed my mind with the story,
I had more in me now to head back the way I came to the closest metro station and headed home, stopping on the way here and there, but ultimately emotionally rejuvenated despite being physically exhausted from my day.
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