Don't blush when I rip you open...

The razors and the dying roses Plead I don't leave you alone The demi-gods and hungry ghosts Oh god, god knows I'm not at home...... -------------------------------------------28, Aquarian Aries Asc, Libra moon. INTP Female, Enneagram 5w6 (counterphobic) Aspie Addisonian

[sugardaisiess]

[battlecat13]

Sad that you're 28 and a hooker, you gave up on life so young. What will you do if you end up going to jail for a long time?

I'm not a hooker anymore so whatever Hun go back to church

[battlecat13]

Sometimes I feel like Satan himself Appears and reappears Through different doors In my life Dressed in different disguises Each one poorly imitating love Or the promise of it...

[battlecat13]

Isolating myself in preparation for my son's birth. Up on the 16th floor with a stack of Bukowski books and (in my opinion) the best view in Melbourne, overlooking the city. So here I am, just Bukowski and I. This imaginary friendship is only occasionally interrupted by the manic Russian gymnast who has taken up residence in my womb. The kicks, squirms and little feet protruding from my stomach always make me stop and smile. I'm going to give all my love to this little boy. I have no time anymore for crack-pipe philosophy or drug-addled dramatics, gracefully acted by the downward few. All my mental energy is going toward preparing for an unmedicated childbirth. I don't want my son's first experience of this world to be an opiate-induced haze. The countdown begins!

[melissanaffah]

Bukowski

[battlecat13]

So true

[battlecat13]

It's just me and BooGaloo!

[battlecat13]

I've spent the last 6 months piecing back together reality or at least my version of it. This morning it was totally shattered again. I'll be a mess when it hits. When it hits. If I believed in god, id ask him/her/it to give me strength. But I don't. So fuck. This will define me after it temporarily throws me into the void. A place I'm all too familiar with.

[battlecat13]

Hospitalised again....

This blows. This disease is capable of killing me yet chooses to toy with me slowly yet constantly instead. You brutal bitch Addison.

[artikbendeentelim]

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Of the Wand and the Moon - Time Time Time So I draw my secrets A flame so sweet And I loose my breath In those crystal eyes How time flies And how things turn A change of winds A stroke of wings And a pain so grave Only gods can touch How time dies – and how it hurts So I draw my secrets Secrets so sweet And I loose my faith In those dimlit eyes How time flies - and how it burns

[battlecat13]

❤️💜❤️💜❤️💜

[ourtroubledyouth97]

I chose an eternity of this Like falling angels The world disappeared Laughing into the fire Is it always like this? Flesh and blood and the first kiss The first colours The first kiss

[battlecat13]

Obsessed

[onemountaingoatssongaday]

Home Again Garden Grove

I can remember when we were in high school Our dreams were like fugitive warlords Plotting triumphant returns to the city Keeping TEC-9’s tucked under the floorboards, ah-ha Now we are practical men of the world We tether our dreams to the turf And cruise down these alleys for honey to feed them Jellyfish riding the surf Shoving our heads Straight into the guts of the stove Home again Garden Grove Garden Grove

from We Shall All Be Healed (2004)

[battlecat13]

This song soothes my aspie brain

[bracketbasher]

The Mountain Goats - Cotton

(We Shall All Be Healed, 2004)

This song is for the people Who tell their families that they’re sorry For things they can’t and won’t feel sorry for And once there was a desk And now it’s in a storage locker somewhere And this song is for the stick pins and the cottons I left in the top drawer

[battlecat13]

Always so inspiring to see someone else successfully overcome meth addiction.

[battlecat13]

I’m starting a collection of Addison’s related IV shots. Had my first adrenal crisis since being medicated the other day. Ended up in hospital and was quickly treated. We got through it together :) my son and I .

[battlecat13]

My baby 😊 first photo! It's official. I'm going to be a mother

[maxmundan]

It’s starting to show the line upon line upon line of crystal meth shoved up my nose the cocaine injected straight into my vein it’s staring to show in the lines on my face in my eyes in the gaps in my mouth where teeth should still be It’s starting to show the nights without sleep raging through the streets a Molotov cocktail live for today, worry about tomorrow tomorrow it’s starting to show in the stiffness and pain when I walk in the dull, resigned stoop of my shoulders It’s starting to show the blackout drunks the driving drunk the drunken fights the waking up in the morning still drunk it’s starting to show in the fog and confusion when I try to remember a name or a face It’s starting to show the cigarettes chain smoked down to the butt the bong loads of pot sucked deep into my lungs it’s starting to show in my x-rays in the gasping and wheezing just to get out of bed I guess I always knew I couldn’t get away with it forever

Max Mundan, Starting to Show

© David Rutter 2015

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[halseycon]

[sykend]

L&$YKEND

[battlecat13]

Love this