heroic sacrifice !

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the revival of the server begiinnnnssss

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tonights dnd session featured my character, again, getting possessed/partially possessed & almost used as a vessel for a Very fucked undead being so,, ya know... a cOMPLETE slay of a moment :D ....also ripping a cursed amulet out of the undead chest/skeleton and now kinda being fused with it/unable to let go. but. ya know. WE NEEDED IT???

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steve wants that polycule house so bad bro,,,

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anyways steve harrington u looked so breedable send tweet

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me watching the final dnd game like—

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btw going up against literal bbeg mind flayer like that is what got steve to cave and finally get into dnd :/

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i think i've gone through too many genuine bad show endings to even remotely understand all the hate in the tags and across tiktok :/

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im ugly sobbing snotty nosed crying holy fucking shit that was so good

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[djo]

Hey, about some of the stuff I said earlier, I just… It’s fine, it’s okay. No, just… It’s not okay. Eddie… He saved your life. Our lives. And I know what he meant to you. I can’t even imagine how hard it’s been. But instead of just being there for you, I just… Well, I got angry about it. I guess I got angry because things were different. 

STRANGER THINGS 5.07: The Bridge

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btw dustin's whole breakdown and desperate plea to steve has monumentally rocked steve's core and his entire outlook going forward. seeing such raw emotions, really seeing how much someone values his life... oh boy has it rocked him. he was so ready to fight as hard as he could with the knowledge that if he had to sacrifice himself for it, that was okay. steve has always been okay with dying because he sees it as the ultimate way he can be useful. he doesn't have a death wish, but he absolutely romanticised the idea of sacrificial deaths having purpose (and is part of why what he initially said to dustin in their fight was partially inflated to bait dustin into expressing his emotions). but seeing how desperate dustin got, hearing him outwardly say that he basically couldn't survive steve dying... oh booooyyyy has it shaken him.

he already had something to fight for... now he finally has something to live for.

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conan gray // superache rp meme.

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movies.

i want a love like the movies.

i look at you like you're perfect.

all of our friends think of us jealously.

still can't believe that this isn't a dream.

i'm falling in love with a damn fantasy.

in my head, we kiss under the stars.

we know that's not what we're doing.

baby, this ain't like the movies.

we're holding hands, but it's all just for show.

they don't know, they can't know.

you say it's over, but why does she call you at 3am and 4am?

that's a funny way of staying friends.

in my head, we never grow apart.

in my head, you never break my heart.

we love all the love that we had.

i can't pretend.

i can't pretend it'll ever come back.

i think you're seeing right through me.

people watching.

i like her coz she's so much smarter than me.

i'm happy for them.

i wanna feel all that love and emotion.

i wanna feel all that love and emotion, be that attached to the person i'm holding.

someday i'll be falling without caution.

for now, i'm only people watching.

someday i'll be falling without caution, but for now i'm only people watching.

i'm only looking just to live through you vicariously.

i've never really been in love, not seriously.

i've never really been in love.

i hope i use some common sense.

i cut people out like tags on my clothing.

i end up all alone, but i still keep hoping.

i still keep hoping i won't be scared to let someone know me.

disaster.

the potential of us, it was keeping me up all night long.

this could be a disaster.

what if you freak out?

we're losing it all at the critical chapter.

you call me a liar and now i'm falling faster.

is it purely platonic to call me, like, every night?

if i'm reading it wrong then it'd be better off it i died.

you're not mine for taking.

maybe i just made it up, messed it up.

best friend.

i'm glad you've finally gotten over them.

i swear that bitch was such a narcissist.

everybody knows i love you so, so, so, so much.

that's my fucking best friend.

that's my fucking best friend, that's my fucking lifeline, that's my ride or die.

made a promise that i'm gonna marry you if we're both still single by like thirty-two.

i hate like, everyone, except for you.

you're just as psycho as me, just as sick inside the head.

astronomy.

we were the same, with runaway fathers and mothers who drank.

a tale as old as time, young love don't last for life.

now i know it's time to go.

it seems like you own my heart.

as much as it seems like you own my heart, it's astronomy, we're two worlds apart.

we're two worlds apart.

i wish i'd stayed with you.

i thought if i wandered, i'd fall back in love.

you said distance brings fondness, but guess not with us.

the only mistake that we didn't make was run.

now look what we've done.

stop trying to keep us alive.

you're pointing at stars in the sky that already died.

you can't force the stars to align.

yours.

i'm somebody you call when you're alone.

i'm somebody you use, but never own.

i'm somebody you touch, but never hold.

you're somebody i'll never really know.

i know i'm not the one you really love.

i could give you all you want.

i could give you all you want, the stars and the sun, but still, i'm not enough.

all i really wanted was that look in your eyes, like you already know that i'm the love of your life.

you already know you're never saying goodbye.

you're never saying goodbye.

i'm not yours.

i want more, but i'm not yours.

i can't change your mind, but you're still mine.

you're still mine.

tell me that it's time for me to go.

you know i can't do it on my own.

the only thing that's harder than sleeping alone, is sleeping with your ghost.

i should've known that it was dumb love.

can't believe i chose you.

can't believe i chose you over all my best friends.

what the fuck did i do in the end, just to not be yours?

jigsaw.

if changing my clothes would make you like me more, if changing my hair would make you care, then i'd grab the kitchen scissors & cut myself to slivers for you.

if being more polite would keep you satisfied, if being less insane would make you stay, then i'd be more like my sister.

i've changed every part of me.

i've changed every part of me until the puzzle pieces aren't me.

i look in the mirror, now i'm just a jigsaw.

you take every part of me, all of the things you need, then the rest you discard.

all i did just to make you happy, still you don't even fucking love me.

you don't even fucking love me.

killing parts of myself to fit you, clear as shit i was not the issue.

clear as shit i was not the issue.

if i made you like me, would i even like myself?

pointing out all my flaws doesn't help.

why don't you love me?

family line.

my father never talked a lot.

his anger took a hold of him.

my mother never cried a lot.

she took the punches, but she never fought.

i'm leaving.

they're just the ones who gave me life.

but i truly am my parent's child.

i'm so good at telling lies.

i'm so good at telling lies, that came from my mother's side.

i'm so good at telling lies, told a million to survive.

god, i have my father's eyes.

my sister's when i cry.

i can run, but i can't hide from my family line.

i can run, but i can't hide.

the holidays will always hurt.

i wonder what i did to deserve this.

how could you hurt a little kid?

i can't forget, i can't forgive.

now i'm scared that everyone i love will leave me.

all that you did, i try to undo it.

all of my pain and all your excuses.

i was a kid, but i wasn't clueless.

someone who loves you wouldn't do this.

all of my past, i tried to erase it.

but now i see, would i even change it?

might share a face and share a last name but we are not the same.

we are not the same.

summer child.

you see all the flowers in the weeds.

your father was awfully mean.

there's darkness behind those eyes.

there's darkness behind those eyes, even when you smile.

you don't have to act like all you feel is mild.

aren't you way too busy taking care of everybody to take care of yourself?

footnote.

i told you i liked you.

it's so clear i'm in love with you.

you like someone else.

if i waited, could that maybe help?

you told me that patience won't help change how you felt for me.

patience won't help change how you felt for me.

i'll stop being pretentious.

i'll stop loathing our friendship.

you taught me a lesson, that love isn't precious.

i'll just take a footnote in your life.

they think we're a couple.

i'd be embarrassed if i wasn't so pleased.

everyone else see what you never see.

we're perfect together, but i'll never be the one.

please don't forget me.

memories.

it's been a couple months, that's just about enough time for me to stop crying when i look at all the pictures.

now i kinda smile, i haven't felt that in a while.

you just wanna talk, and i can't turn away a wet dog.

please don't ruin this for me.

please don't make it harder than it already is.

i'm trying to get over this.

i wish that you could stay in my memories.

you show up today just to ruin things.

i wanna put you in the past.

i'm traumatised.

i wanna put you in the past, coz i'm traumatised.

i wanna put you in the past, coz i'm traumatised, but you're not letting me do that.

you're too busy playing the victim to be listening to me when i say, i wish that you would stay in my memories.

it's hard to find an end to something that you keep beginning over and over again.

i promise that the ending always stays the same.

there's no good reason in make believing that we could ever exist again.

i can't be your friend.

i can't be your lover.

i can't be the reason we hold back each other from falling in love with somebody other than me.

can't be the reason we hold back each other from falling in love.

i guess i'll let you stay.

i guess i'll let you stay for as long as it takes to grab your books and your coat.

it makes me feel like dying.

i was barely just surviving.

the exit.

it's crazy how fast you tilted the world that we were busy building.

feels like we had matching wounds.

feels like we had matching wounds but mine's still black & bruised and yours is perfectly fine.

feels like we buried alive something that never died.

it hurt when i found out.

you love her, it's over.

you already found someone to miss.

you already found someone to miss, while i'm standing at the exit.

i can't hate you.

i can't hate you for getting everything we wanted.

i just thought that i would be a part of it.

i was moving into your apartment when you met someone.

impossible to understand how you're not coming back.

i can't say it out loud.

overdrive.

said i'm not catching feelings.

said i'm not catching feelings, i guess i lied.

i can't think of a reason we should take our time.

all or nothing, let's just trust the night.

i don't wanna see no red light.

you're right next to me, feel the heat going overdrive.

i know you're a stranger, but i'm liking the danger.

i'm liking the danger.

don't give a fuck about labels.

telepath.

already know how this ends.

you say we're breaking up, what a shame.

don't even wanna stay friends.

it's just so you, you're just so predictable.

won't you try something original?

old news, reused, that's why i don't cry.

i got a feeling you're coming back just like you have in the past.

you'll be sending me trash you should have left in the drafts.

you'll see me moving on & hate that i'm gone.

call me a telepath.

there you are at my door, drunk and asking me for a kiss.

yesterday, you said that you hated my guts.

yesterday, you said that you hated my guts, now you're back in love?

now you're back in love?

i bet you'll return in perfect timing and i won't stop you from trying.

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ethel cain // willoughby tucker, i'll always love you rp meme.

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janie.

hold me.

i wanna die in this room.

i'm easy to hate, easy to blame.

come on, hurt me.

come on, hurt me. i'm wide open & deserving.

please don't leave me.

please don't leave me, i'll always need more.

i know she's your girl now, but she was my girl first.

she was my girl first.

i can see the end in the beginning of everything.

you don't want me.

i still play pretend like i won't watch you leaving.

i will always love you.

it's not looking good, but did it ever?

i will wait.

you'll keep changing, i will stay the same.

i know you love her.

i know you love her, but she was my sister first.

fuck me eyes.

she really gets around town.

she's gonna get what she wants.

her nails are heartbreak red.

she's a bad motherfucker.

all the boys wanna love her.

all the boys wanna love her when she bats her fuck me eyes.

they say she looks just like her momma before the drugs.

she really taught me well.

she's no good at raising children, but she's good at raising hell.

she's just along for the ride.

she's just tryna feel good right now.

they all wanna take her out but no one ever wants to take her home.

what ya do with all that mouth?

if you're not scared of jesus, fuck around and come find out.

fuck around and come find out.

when she leaves, they never see her wiping her fuck me eyes.

no one ever wants to take her home.

i'll never blame her.

i kinda hate her.

i'll never blame her, i kinda hate her.

i'll never be that kind of angel.

i'll never be kind enough to me.

i'll never blame her for trying to make it.

i'll never be the kind of angel he would see.

nettles.

we were in a race to grow up.

the doctors gave you till the end of the night, but not till daylight.

time passes slower in the flicker of the hospital light.

i pray the race is worth the fight.

i made a fool of myself.

it wasn't pretty like the movies.

it wasn't pretty like the movies, it was ugly like what they all did to me.

they did to me when i wouldn't do to anyone.

tell me all the time not to worry & think of all the time i'll have with you.

i won't wake up on my own.

held close all the time, knowing i'm half of you.

to love me is to suffer me.

you'll go fight a war, i'll go missing.

i warned you.

for me, it's not that hard.

i wanna bleed, i wanna hurt the way that boys do.

maybe you're right & we should stop watching the news.

i've never seen brown eyes look so blue.

think of us inside.

this was all for you.

gardenias on the tile, where it made no difference who held back from who.

dust bowl.

he's watching me.

all of alabama laid out in front of your eyes, but all you could see was me.

all you could see was me.

you were kind.

you were dying to tell me you'll wait if i have to make sure.

i can keep you.

i can keep you a moment.

grew up hard, fell off harder.

grew up hard, fell off harder, cooking our brains smoking that shit your daddy smoked.

you'd be a writer if he didn't leave all his hell for you.

if you could, you'd leave it all.

i knew it was love.

i knew it was love when i rode home crying thinking of you fucking other girls.

but when you said that you're in love, i never wondered if you're sure.

you said that you're in love.

pretty boy, consumed by death.

a knock at the door.

you're not scared.

everything i've loved, i've loved it straight to death.

i'm still scared.

no one should ever see their friend they've known since they were kids foam up and bite it on the floor.

you never need to call my name.

i love it all the same.

i know you by your knock on the door.

i know you by your footsteps on the floor.

tempest.

can you hear them?

you're too late.

i'll hurt myself if i want.

i don't care.

do you swing from your neck with the hope someone cares?

please, just go easy on me.

i am young and naïve, i don't know what i need.

i don't know what i need.

i can lead you to bed, but i can't make you sleep.

i've heard it before.

i've heard it before from someone who leaves.

i stil dream of violence.

don't ask me why i hate myself.

death, it takes too long.

don't ask me why i hate myself as i'm circling the drain.

waiting on my own, always on my own.

always on my own.

you come around here just to watch me writhe.

am i what you think about all late at night?

someone take me home.

i wanna go home.

take me out of the dark.

it's no good.

it's no good, i'm gonna regret this.

i'm gonna regret this forever.

waco, texas.

my honey's heart is blue.

he's running out of daylight.

my baby acts cool.

my baby acts cool, but they all know something ain't right.

something ain't right.

i keep the pictures hanging where the world can see 'em.

i hope we die today.

save me.

you were there, looking for me.

i was gone, turned my back for a moment and you had fallen apart.

you had fallen apart.

they've been promising the lights as we beg for our lives.

now the weight's too much.

i can't hold you anymore.

how much of a cruel year can you call my fault?

not even the memories are immortal.

i'm terrified on this side of a conversation we'll never come back from.

i'll never live it down.

goddamnit, i did it to myself.

i liked him coz his rule was 'do whatever you like'.

i tried, alright.

now i'll wear these scars for life.

i loved you when it hurt.

i loved you when it hurt inside to.

you know i'd do anything for you.

you know it's true.

i swore i'd be good to you.

i swore i'd be good to you, then sat & watched as you walked away from me.

you walked away from me.

you've changed, but did i ever know you?

did i ever know you? or did i hold you facing away from me?

do you hate me?

when this is over, maybe then we'll get some sleep.

i've been picking names for our children, you've been wondering how you're gonna feed them.

love is not enough.

love is not enough in this world.

but i still believe in nebraska dreaming.

i'd rather die than be anything but your girl.

i never meant to hurt you.

i never meant to hurt you, but somehow i knew i would.

will it be like this forever?

i'd reach into your body & fix you if i could.

will i feel like this forever?

are you angry? do you hate me?

darling, time may forgive me, but i won't.

to be known the way you should is to put yourself through hell.

i waited and tried till it killed me.

it killed me.

i can wait if i want, but it'll never be good enough.

it'll never be good enough like i want to believe it is.

it is you.