conan gray // wishbone rp meme.
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nobody saw us leaving with bruises on our necks.
nobody wondered where you went all april.
my friends discovered when you left me in july.
i didn't cry, i kept the lie alive.
church bells won't stop ringing for an undead wedding day.
you've spent the summer drinking.
i spent the summer being erased.
you've spent the summer drinking, while i spent it being erased.
i tried to hide the feeling, but it just won't go away.
let's pretend nothing happened.
you're a much better actor than me.
i barely even fucking know him.
you're saving face, but you take it out on your nose.
if you ever cared, well, i wouldn't know.
blame it on a bad manic episode.
there's a side of you that she'll never know.
tell all your friends that she's the one.
you've spent your whole life drinking, oh, drinking me away.
i tried to hide the feeling, but i just can't lie that way.
you pretend nothing happened.
you know that i love you.
i have a feeling that you love me back.
your eyes are like heaven.
11:11s, they all hear your name.
i'm too shy to tell you the words on my mind.
i hope you can see if you read through these lines.
i wrote this song about you.
something i wish you knew.
something i've tried to say, but now i'll say it straight.
the smell of your perfume is all over me.
is it dumb believing you might love me too?
you say we're fine, but your brown eyes are green this time, so you've been crying.
so strange to be back at your place pretending like nothing has changed.
speak up, i know you hate me.
looked at your picture & cried like a baby.
speak up, don't leave me waiting.
got way too drunk off a vodka cranberry.
called you up in the middle of the night wailing like an imbecile.
if you won't end things, then i will.
now i look dumb & you look mean.
i notice everything you do.
everybody knows you don't love me the same.
so cruel to be lying to my face.
i know what you're too scared to say.
don't make me do this to you.
don't make me do this, but i will.
i was out waiting for you but now you've gotta wait for me.
even on my worst days i was never treating you the selfish way that you treated me.
even in my worst pain, i was never dragging you around.
you'll carry my shame for free.
you don't wanna know all i did.
i drank your poison from your lips.
i took that blade into my ribs.
you took away my will to live.
i hope you know i'm never gonna want you back.
i'm never gonna want you back.
you put me in a grave of stone.
you put me in a grave of stone, but now it only makes me laugh.
spending my summer in love, then i went and got dumped.
i did it all, damn, for what?
never liked sitting around your egoist actor friends.
never liked kissing your mouth with cigarettes on your breath.
looking back i don't know why i got so up in arms about losing you by my side.
looking back i wish i listened to my friends who said i could get a much better guy.
i don't wanna know what you did with all the girls you swapped me with.
i guess i was just your experiment.
where art thou? i'm all alone now.
where art thou? i'm back in your hometown.
where art thou? fuck if i care now.
you've gotta figure out your shit with someone else.
i've given up on being anything.
we're just a summer fling.
i found approval as a remedy.
it's my world & it's my life.
it's my girl & it's my guy, i'll kiss em if i might like.
i'll kiss em if i might like.
i don't have you in mind.
it's my time, i'll waste it how i might like.
there was a time when you were everything.
couldn't tell you who i was before.
when you shut the door & shut the world of me, how was i supposed to know who i should be if i was no longer yours?
how was i supposed to know who i should be if i was no longer yours?
you say you're sorry for treating me like trash.
you got your revenge by being stuck with your life.
you can keep drinking and living a lie.
it won't affect my life, coz i don't care anymore.
growing up didn't go how i'd liked.
it twists & turns like the limbs of a pine, trying to grow on earth that writhes.
half my friends barely know who i am.
everything comes back around.
i still feel like the class clown.
take your pick, be laughed at or laughed with.
i learned early on either way, it's a shit stick.
my father was barrelling fists.
while my father was barrelling fists, i was laughing all the way through it.
now the blondies are clutching their ribs from my latest joke from my old bag of tricks.
there's this beautiful moment in it where i can sorta just vanish.
everything is over now, i still feel like the class clown.
if i get older now, i'll let my younger version down.
if i stop laughing, all the blood will just start pouring out.
we joke a million jokes through the phone.
nothing funny about that home, but her & i, we already know.
you just wanna dance, it feels like our final act.
you're holding my hand, my mind sees a grizzly trap.
everyone trusts you, they love you out loud.
you won't hurt a fly, but we're flying up now & all that goes up, well, it's got to come down.
your love is a threat & i'm nauseous.
scares me to death, how i want it.
your love is a threat & i'm nauseous; scares me to death, how i want it.
not common sense, but i'm haunted.
i'm haunted by people who've left.
i'm haunted by people who've left me, so you scare me to death.
with people before, they left like a falling floor.
there as i soared, i vowed to be never more.
i vowed to be never more, too trusting and loving.
behind every kiss is a jaw that could bite.
maybe that's why i feel safe with bad guys.
that's why i feel safe with bad guys.
maybe that's why i feel safe with bad guys, because when they hurt me, i won't be surprised.
when they hurt me, i won't be surprised.
maybe i'm here waiting for someone to get through my years of trying to trust them.
maybe i'm here waiting for someone.
i know that it's in me to really love someone.
i know that it's in me to really love someone, but that's not a thing i learned from my loved ones.
in that moment, you weren't all that kind.
promises spoken, all coming back as lies.
you with your soft sweet kiss is all i miss in the back of my mind.
did me wrong in the past & i know it was bad.
did me wrong in the past & i know it was bad, but you burn inside my memory so well.
you burn inside my memory so well.
you burn inside my memory so well, you caramel.
ignoring me so they won't find out.
you can act real cool coz it's over now but man, you cried when it all went down.
you can act real cool coz it's over now.
you cried when it all went down.
no one believed me, you gaslighted feelings.
you gaslighted feelings till you had me thinking that i was the reason that i was fucking losing my mind
i was fucking losing my mind.
it was love at the worst, it was what we deserved.
the longer you burn, the sweeter that you smell.
sweet taste in my mouth, i can't get it out.
i heard you're in town, i want you back now.
come over to my house, there's space on my couch.
i almost hurled when i saw your hand down the small of her back.
you were never outside with me, spent my summer months in your unwashed sheets.
spent my summer months in your unwashed sheets.
i know its dumb that i'd ever think that i'd meet your mom and dad.
kissing your ghost was my own damn fucking fault.
deep in my bones i know pain is what i earned.
you remind me of how good it feels to hurt.
you remind me of how little i deserve.
i knew we weren't meant to be.
i'm not your type, but you're trying things.
that's everything i need to break apart my own heart again.
validate the worst thoughts inside my head, that i'm not worth shit & i'm better dead.
who's the victim in the end?
you remind me of my father slurring words.
heard your in the city, i felt like total shit.
it's horrible getting all your news through a friend.
been tryna hide that i'm still here stuck in your hell.
i'm still here stuck in your hell.
if you're out here doing well, don't tell me.
spare me all the stories of how you're moving on.
i'm lying to myself when i say that's what i want.
part of me just wanted some proof it's hurting you in the way it's hurting me too.
you've got a messed up head & you need some space.
if you're working on yourself don't tell me.
i wish you the best but hope that you die inside.
if there is someone new that you're out here fucking, don't tell me.
it's easier to never know.
it's easier to never know than face it that you're letting go.
sometimes there's just so much to say.
i've still got a little hope that you might want me back one day.
i've still got a little hope that you might want me back one day & i can be the one to walk away.
if i blink, you'll be missed.
in my mind you & i still exist. it's a thought that is dangerous.
i'll wait forever, i won't look for better.
i'll find sighs for you & i.
as much as i act like i want to forget it, i still wish for you at 11:11
heard you're seeing some girl in new york, so what am i reading horoscopes for?
maybe you're superstitious like me.
i'll wait for nothing, pretending we're something.
my mind lies for you & i.
i just can't accept that it's too late to save us.
now all that i want is just to move on.
life's so much better now that we don't speak.
there will always be parts of me that are yours.
i don't cry coz it's over.
i just don't feel like i could love again.
i told myself that i'm over you, but i care.
my fault for making believe, mistook who you are for who you could be.
pretend to hate you instead.
i won't miss being your lover.
though i won't miss being your lover, i'm still losing a friend.
i'm not trying to say that i want you back.
i'm not trying to say that i want you back, but it's nice to linger in the past.
it's nice to linger in the past.
it's good to know that you're not attached, but why does it trigger me so bad to see you with somebody who is not me & you're happy.
