Unspoken Secrets

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// Forbidden.

When you meet someone and not really fall for them but want to talk to them in hopes that something does end up happening with the two of you. But for some reason you feel that it’s wrong and you shouldn't do it, so you end up just cutting them off completely. You still think about them. You still want to pick up the phone and text them or call them, but something inside stops you. They are always on your mind and sometimes you don't even notice, but when you do. Then it’s all bad because you start obsess over all the “What if’s”.

Okay let me clarify somethings. I met someone and we did start talking but do to some past issues and personal issues it just doesn't seem right. I have completely stopped talking to this person, for the time being. Just to gather all my thoughts and see if this is something that I want to put myself through. Is it worth the trouble? Is it even worth my time? I mean how could it be if I have all these reservations in the back of my mind? There was lie after lie after lie and I still chose to get involved for that split second. I knew I shouldn't have in first place, but I still did. I knew that there was going to be lies. I had hoped that this person changed from the last time we talked, but it just seems that it was just wishful thinking on my end. Even though it’s wrong I wanted something committed, but this person just wanted fun. I was looking for something serious in something that was pure game for the other person. I looking for a light in someone who only brought me darkness. Now look where I'm at.

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Happy New Year. In 2017, let’s go farther than ever to protect the lands and waters on which all life depends—photo by Nick Hall @nickhallphoto.

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// Catfish; Exposed

In December 2014 I get this random message in Facebook from a girl. Simple yet unexpected. I message her back asking if I knew her from somewhere or if she knew me. She replied- “NO, just trying to make friends” .. Weird, because I look up our mutual friends and she had one of my family members. I go along with the conversation like nothing. We go back and forth for a few messages, only to find out SHE was a HE. Well he was using his “cousins” page. At first it really didn’t seem all that weird to me. The red flags didn’t start popping up till we started texting. So I ask him if he could send me a picture of himself because he has seen my pictures on Facebook and I have no idea how he looks, since it’s not his page. He sends me a picture and I tell him “you look totally different from your cousin”. I’m like makes sense then. So that was one minor red flag. He never wanted to talk on the phone. I asked him if I seen him before or if we met. He said no. We text for a couple days, then he just stops out of nowhere. Probably 3 days later he texts me. I question him as to why he just stopped. He didn’t reply at all, not even for the next week. A month later he texts me, and I about had it. I questioned him again and demanded some answers. All he can say was that his phone was off. I'm like for a month? So one morning I'm watching Catfish the TV show and I get the idea to just investigate. I didn’t really have much to go on. I only had one picture, his Snapchat, and his phone number. I did the whole dragging the picture into Google image search and nothing popped up. So all I have left is his Snapchat and his phone number. I decide to try his number. I end up on this one site and I put in his number. So you know that circle thing that goes around and around when something is loading? Well yeah, that was happening and once the page refreshed and all the information pops up, I tell you. It felt like my heart was going to drop down to my stomach and fall out my butt. Once I read all the information I was at a loss for words. I knew who this person is. I have met this person before. I know his dad. I have known this person since we were little. I'm thinking to myself - like damn if your were upfront with me from the beginning, something could have happened.

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// Bye 2016, Hello 2017

Yeah I know I'm a day or two late but oh well.

2016 is a year to remember. I discovered things about myself that I never realized before. I am stronger than I thought. I am more of a better son, brother, grandson, nephew, friend than I was. I am a better person because of all that I went through in 2016. I grew close to people I had no intentions to grow close to, at the same token- I lost people that I close to. I went through a phase where I felt alone, I had no one by my side, no one to confide in, but I realized that I was just too closed-off. Made a lot of great memories. Birthday parties, graduations, a family trip to Las Vegas, first time on an airplane. I got my first car, that I am paying on my own. So much has happened within this one year that it is impossible to name them all. So I had to make a video...

https://youtu.be/RCHo7xnVsHQ

... Now, let me just say this. 2017 has just begun and I am ready for this year has in store for my family and I. I know it’s going to be great things, why? Cause I am BLESSED with the BEST people. That’s all I need to have the time of my life.