Rant #1
I donāt know how to explain my feelings to my boyfriend. We both bottle up things and we are trying to work on it together but I am struggling. I want to tell him things but I am scared he is going to walk no matter how many times he tells me he wonāt leave. Thereās this part in my brain always telling me heās just like the others, you are going to push him away, he doesnāt trust you but I know that isnāt true but my past put an image in my head that I am always the bad guy. Anyway, I just want to help my relationship and be able to have a pretty honest and open relationship. My biggest thing is that we both want to have a relationship where we can simply pick up the phone and talk things out. We have tried to do that before but we didnāt talk about everything we needed to. Any advise for me??