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[beahutii]

Here goes it,

I’ve spent 18 years trying to figure out who i want to be, what i want in my life, how to get someone to love me and what i need. But i realized i don’t need to know those things yet, i’m young. What i do know is i want to be a ray of sunshine in my life and others, and i want to be a better person. I want to stop smoking, i want to write more, like really honest shit, i want to go after what i want. I want to not care about who loves me and who doesn’t, i’m still going to love unconditionally because this world needs more of that. I don’t wanna get so hurt by rejection, i want to not be afraid. I don’t want to be afraid anymore.

[jtbarnett]

“I’m at a fucking loss here.”

— J.T. Barnett

[beahutii]

maybe people leave me because after tasting my lips the poison transfers. maybe all the happiness i gain is replaced by sadness for them. maybe “i have to love myself first.” isn’t a cliche. maybe i carry the sadness of every past lover on the tip of my tongue.

but how do i fix it.

[beahutii]

i’m tired. tired of pouring myself into everyone i meet only to be left behind. tired of thinking everyone is different from the last just to get my heart shattered again. i want something that lasts, just for fucking once can something last?

my soul.

[beahutii]

I saw you and you were just driving by me, but we made eye contact and everything came rushing back. like the months i’d spent getting over you, telling everyone you didn’t matter, convincing myself not to care, we’re just gone. the second your eyes met mine it all fell apart. i couldn’t stop crying because i forgot what it felt like to look at your face and have you look back at mine, to hear your laugh and see your smile and that’s when i realized. i was never really over you. because i still can’t look you in the eyes and tell you that. i don’t know if i’ll ever be able to.

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[especiallypeaches]

Colored light floods out over the concert venue, casting us in brilliant hues of red and probably tragedy at our current predicament. My blonde hair is turned pink, your eyes look darker than before. I’m trying not to let this mean anything. Then you look back at me over your shoulder and I think, fuck. There it is. That smug little grin, the right corner of your mouth curled up so devilishly. I really have to stop romanticizing my life before it gets me into real trouble. Add “excessive romantic” to my list of character flaws. ‘Flirts when she’s bored, too competitive for her own good, falls in love with everyone she meets.’ You keep saying you’ll be around after tonight. But isn’t it usually me telling people that? That I promise I always come back around, eventually. And I do, don’t I? I know you better than you realize, and I know I’ll probably never see you again. But hell, it could have been great.

two-toned eyes

[beahutii]

I can’t keep begging for your attention it’s breaking my heart.

do you want me or not

[beahutii]

Nothing is going my way and i keep messing everything up.

[depressed-and-alone4ever]

“You don’t understand what it’s like, living waiting to die”

-aj

[insatiably-red]

[girlrose]

cellophane - fka twigs

[saadsaiyyed]

[niceaf]

Promise everything // Basement

[aesthetic-depression0]

“What if after all this fighting it turns out this world isn’t for me? What if i don’t belong here?”

_

[jtbarnett]

“Life’s too fucking hard for me.”

— J.T. Barnett

[beahutii]

I trusted you and maybe that was my first mistake. I loved you and maybe that was my second. I made excuses for you in my mind and that was my third. I screamed at you at 2am in the rain and that was my worst. We fought for an hour and everything was sour until i forgave you. And i have forgiven you for your worst mistakes, and you’ve forgiven me, but what kind of fucked up love story are we living?

I love you but we can’t be together

[anancientheart]

ok universe, i’m ready to feel good things. make me feel good things.

[anancientheart]

whenever i post this it works  reblog if u want to feel good things & the universe will bring u something sweet