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Jun 30

the weight you never let me carry - dick grayson

request anon - meta human reader that has like scp 999 powers to spread joy, emotionally comfort and even reformed villains to rehabilitate and their powers manifest back when they feel so alone of wishing someone was there to comfort them and for someone to believe in them that things can be better and so one day their powers got triggered when they wanted to comfort an animal and now they're able to do those things for anyone and anything but sadly can't do so for themselves

content dick grayson x gn! reader, meta! reader, comfort powers, emotional manipulation concerns, non-consensual use of comfort/empathy powers, secret identity reveal, power reveal, emotional burnout, power overuse, fainting/collapse, panic attacks, trauma responses, guilt, grief, survivor’s guilt, implied childhood loneliness/neglect, betrayal, angst, animal distress/injury references, animal rehabilitation, non-graphic violence, injury/bruising, implied past child injury, implied criminal rehabilitation, fear in crowds/darkness, hurt/comfort

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word count 8k

Dick Grayson first noticed you because the dogs did.

It was not, in fairness, the strangest thing that had ever happened to him. His life had included alien invasions, death traps, assassin children, family dinners that should have required riot gear, and Bruce Wayne attempting emotional vulnerability with the grace of a man defusing a bomb while blindfolded. Still, there was something memorable about walking into a Blüdhaven animal rescue at nine in the morning, exhausted down to the marrow after a night of patrol, and watching every frightened, wounded, half-feral dog in the intake room go quiet at the sound of your voice.

The place was called Harbour House, though it was less a house and more a stubborn little miracle wedged between a laundromat and a pawn shop on a street that always smelled faintly of rain, exhaust, and old salt from the river. Its front half operated as a crisis drop-in centre, offering hot drinks, clean socks, phone chargers, social workers, and the kind of kindness that did not ask for ID before it opened the door. The back half was a rescue unit for animals found in alleys, basements, fighting rings, flooded apartments, and all the other places Blüdhaven hid its damage when it did not want to be judged. It was loud most mornings. Dogs barking, cats yowling, kettle boiling, volunteers calling names over the chaos, someone crying in the bathroom because some days survival arrived with paperwork.

Then you said, “Hey, sweetheart, I know,” and the entire room softened.

Dick had been leaning against the reception desk, pretending he did not need to sit down, with a paper cup of coffee going cold in his hands. He had come in because the BPD had found three pit mixes during a warehouse raid, all terrified, underfed, and shaking with the kind of fear that had learned people meant pain. He had meant to drop off the paperwork, smile at the staff, make sure the dogs were taken somewhere safe, and leave before anyone noticed the bruise blooming along his jaw beneath the careful angle of his collar.

Then you knelt in front of the largest dog, a scarred brindle thing with torn ears and eyes like broken glass, and held out your hand.

The dog growled.

One volunteer whispered, “Careful.”

You did not move closer. You did not flinch away. You only tilted your head a little, as if listening to something no one else could hear. “You don’t have to like me,” you murmured. “You don’t even have to trust me yet. Just breathe. That’s all. Just breathe.”

Dick felt it before he understood it.

Not a force, exactly. Not pressure. Nothing that tripped the danger sense he had spent years sharpening until it lived under his skin like a second pulse. It was more like walking into a warm kitchen after standing too long in the rain. His shoulders dropped by a fraction. The pain in his ribs dulled. The night, with all its sirens and broken teeth and the child he had not reached fast enough, seemed to step back from him. Not gone. Never gone. But farther away. Manageable.

The dog’s growl cracked into a whine.

You smiled, small and tired and so gentle it made something in Dick ache. “There you are,” you said. “Good boy.”

The dog pressed its trembling muzzle into your palm.

Every animal in the room seemed to exhale.

Dick stared.

The receptionist, a woman named Mara who had known him since his rookie cop days and had never once let him get away with lying about being fine, glanced at him with a smirk. “That’s our miracle worker.”

You looked over then, as if the word had tugged on something behind your ribs.

Your eyes met Dick’s.

He had been recognised in many ways across his life. As the Flying Grayson. As Robin. As Nightwing. As Officer Grayson. As Bruce Wayne’s ward, son, shadow, scandal, successor, depending on which tabloid needed a villain or a prince that week. You did not look at him like any of those things. You looked at him like you could see he was tired and had already forgiven him for it.

Dick smiled anyway, because smiling was what he did when something hurt enough to matter. “Impressive,” he said.

You stood slowly, brushing dog hair and dust from your knees. “He did the hard part.”

“The dog?”

“He decided to try again.”

Dick glanced at the brindle dog, now leaning against your leg as if you were the only solid thing in the world. “Looks like you helped.”

Your smile shifted, not fading exactly, but thinning at the edges. “Helping is easy when someone lets you.”

Dick did not know what to say to that. So, naturally, he said something stupid. “Do you work on people too, or just dogs with trust issues?”

Mara snorted behind the desk.

You looked him up and down, taking in the collar hiding his bruise, the exhaustion beneath his grin, the coffee he had not drunk. “Depends,” you said. “Do they bite?”

Dick’s smile became real.

That was how it began.

Not with fireworks. Not with a dramatic rooftop rescue, though those would come later because apparently Dick’s life had a contractual obligation to include rooftops. It began in a rescue centre in Blüdhaven, with a traumatised dog deciding to breathe, and Dick Grayson mistaking the impossible warmth in his chest for the ordinary relief of being near someone kind.

He kept coming back after that. At first, there were reasons. Actual ones. Blüdhaven was Blüdhaven, which meant every other case seemed to end with someone needing a shelter, a social worker, a safe ride, or a place to take an animal that had been caught in the crossfire of human cruelty. Harbour House was good at all of those things, and Dick liked good things with the desperate loyalty of someone who had watched too many of them get crushed. As a cop, he brought in victims who refused hospitals, kids who needed somewhere bright to sit while adults figured out next steps, animals pulled from raids, witnesses too scared to go home. As Nightwing, he left envelopes of cash in the donation box, escorted frightened people to the back door, and once carried in a raccoon wearing a plastic six-pack ring like a terrible necklace.

You had opened the door at three in the morning, stared at him, then at the raccoon, then back at him. “This is not a dog.”

Nightwing, rain dripping from the tips of his hair and one glove clamped firmly around the furious animal’s scruff, said, “I know.”

“It is also not a cat.”

“I also know that.”

The raccoon hissed.

You sighed and stepped aside. “Bring the tiny criminal in.”

“It bit a drug dealer.”

“Then it has civic value.”

He laughed so hard the raccoon tried to bite him, too.

You were different with Nightwing than you were with Dick, though he did not understand why that bothered him when you did not know they were the same person. With Officer Grayson, you teased more openly, rolled your eyes when he flirted with volunteers for extra blankets, told him to drink water, and once threatened to staple a nap schedule to his forehead. With Nightwing, you were quieter. Not less warm, never less warm, but careful in a way that made him feel seen through the mask. You did not ask for his name. You did not ask what hurt. You did not ask why he kept showing up with blood under his nails and jokes in his mouth.

You simply opened the door.

He did not know you knew who he was.

You had known by the third visit. Not because he was careless. Dick Grayson was many things—dramatic, affectionate, pathologically unable to leave a conversation without making sure everyone felt at least five per cent better—but he was not careless in the mask. He changed his posture. Changed his voice. Changed the weight of his smile. Nightwing moved with sharper edges than Dick, like the joy had been stripped down to muscle and nerve. But comfort was your native language, and pain had accents. Dick and Nightwing carried the same ache differently, but it was the same ache.

The same grief that made him brighten rooms like an apology. The same guilt that gathered between his shoulder blades when he thought no one was watching. The same desperate, bone-deep instinct to become whatever the situation required: leader, brother, son, joke, shield, hand reaching through the dark.

You knew him too well too quickly.

That was the problem.

You loved him too quietly to stop.

The first time you used your power on him deliberately, he was not bleeding.

That would have been easier to justify. Blood made decisions simple. Crisis narrowed the world into triage, and triage had never cared much for ethics beyond survival. If he had stumbled through the back door with broken ribs and a concussion, if he had been shaking from fear toxin, if he had been holding a dying dog or a crying child or any of the other things that made your power surge before your restraint could catch it, you might have forgiven yourself faster.

But he was not bleeding. He was sitting on the floor of Harbour House’s supply room with his back against a shelf of donated towels, still in his police uniform, staring at nothing.

It was nearly midnight. The crisis centre had gone quiet in the strange, temporary way places did when exhaustion finally overpowered fear. Outside, rain tapped against the windows. Somewhere in the kennel room, a dog dreamed in tiny huffs. You had come looking for extra blankets and found Dick sitting in the dark with one hand pressed flat against his chest, as if holding himself together by force.

“Dick?”

His head jerked up. For half a second, he looked completely lost. Then the smile arrived, bright and practised and heartbreaking.

“Hey,” he said. “Sorry. Didn’t mean to steal your closet.”

“It’s a supply room.”

“Exactly. Very high-end closet.”

You stepped inside and let the door close behind you. The dim light from the hallway cut across his face, catching on the bruise near his temple and the wet shine in his eyes that he blinked away before it could become evidence.

You sat across from him without asking too many questions because you had learned, with Dick, that questions sometimes made him perform answers. “Bad day?”

He laughed softly. “Blüdhaven day.”

“That’s worse.”

“Yeah.”

Silence settled between you. It was not empty. With Dick, silence was almost never empty; it was full of all the things he was choosing not to say because he had spent his life becoming beautiful around grief instead of letting it make him ugly.

After a while, his smile slipped.

“A kid got hurt today,” he said.

Your chest tightened.

“He’ll live,” Dick added quickly, as if the fact should erase the shape of everything else. “He’ll be okay. Probably. Doctors said he was lucky.”

“You don’t sound like you believe in lucky.”

“I believe in lucky.” He looked down at his hands. “I just hate when people call it that because someone else was too late.”

There it was. The weight. You felt it in him like weather pressure, a storm packed behind his ribs. Dick Grayson carried guilt like it was a family heirloom he had been taught to polish. Every failure, every injury, every person he had not reached in time, every time he had survived when someone else had not—it gathered in him, hidden beneath charm and movement and that golden, generous smile. People thought Dick was light because he gave light away. They did not understand how much darkness a person had to know to become that determined to shine.

You should have sat with him. You should have let him feel it. You should have trusted that comfort did not always mean removal.

Instead, you reached across the narrow floor and placed your hand over his.

“Hey,” you whispered. “Breathe with me?”

Dick looked at your hand, then at you. Something vulnerable flickered through his expression. “Yeah,” he said. “Okay.”

You let the power move. Only a little, you told yourself. Only enough to loosen the worst of it. Only enough to give him room to breathe. Only enough so the boy in the hospital was not sitting between you like a ghost with Dick’s hands around its throat.

Warmth left you in a slow, careful stream. It moved into him through your joined hands, not bright, not visible, but real enough that his breath caught. His shoulders dropped. The tension in his jaw eased. The grief did not vanish. It never vanished. But it softened, uncurling from around his lungs.

Dick closed his eyes.

“Oh,” he whispered.

You swallowed.

He leaned his head back against the shelf, and for the first time since you had met him, his face went completely still. Not empty. Not numb. Resting. Like his body had forgotten vigilance was not the same thing as existence.

You should have stopped. Instead, you held his hand until his breathing steadied, until the tremor left his fingers, until the room felt less like a confession and more like a shelter.

When he opened his eyes, they were damp and grateful.

“You’re really good at this,” he said.

You smiled because the truth was too sharp to hold bare. “Sitting on supply room floors?”

“Being here.”

The words went through you like light through broken glass.

You wanted to tell him then. You nearly did. You nearly said, Dick, there is something you should know. I can do things I don’t fully understand. I can make pain step back. I can make people feel safe. I can give you something I cannot give myself, and that is probably why I keep offering it when I should be asking first.

Instead, you squeezed his hand.

“I’m glad it helps,” you said.

It was not a lie.

That was how you learned to forgive yourself for the first mistake. By telling yourself it was kindness.

After that, it became easier.

Not easy. Never that. You were not cruel. You were not careless. You did not use your power on him like a drug or a leash. You did not twist his feelings, did not manufacture affection, did not make him happy when he had reason to hurt. You only lifted. A little here. A little there. The worst edge of exhaustion after patrol. The jagged flash of panic when a trapeze act appeared on a charity poster and he went very still. The old grief that crossed his face on the anniversary of his parents’ deaths. The guilt after a fight with Bruce. The quiet devastation when Damian said something sharp enough to draw blood because he was thirteen and angry and did not yet know tenderness had to be practised.

You told yourself you were giving him breathing room. You told yourself he deserved one place in the world where the weight got lighter. You told yourself he would ask if he knew how.

But Dick did not know.

That was the root of it. The poison under the flower.

He thought it was you. He thought your presence comforted him because you were you: warm, steady, funny in a dry little way that always caught him off guard. He thought the relief in his chest when you touched his shoulder was the relief of being known. He thought the way nightmares faded faster when he slept on Harbour House’s ancient couch with your coat thrown over him was because the building felt safe. He thought, when his heart steadied at the sound of your voice through the phone after a terrible patrol, that maybe he was falling in love.

And he was.

That was the most unfair part.

He was falling in love for real.

So were you.

It happened around ordinary things, which made it worse. Dick bringing you coffee and remembering you liked it too sweet when the day had been cruel. You texting him photos of the brindle dog, now named Captain, asleep upside down in deeply undignified positions. Him showing up at Harbour House with donation boxes balanced in his arms and a grin bright enough to make volunteers swoon into the mop bucket. You calling him “Officer Grayson” when you wanted to annoy him. Him calling you “sunshine” once, casually, and then going pink when you stared at him too long.

“You can’t call me sunshine,” you said.

Dick leaned over the reception desk, smiling like trouble had good cheekbones. “Why not?”

“Because you’re literally the human equivalent of a golden retriever with trauma.”

“That feels like deflection.”

“It is. Respect it.”

His smile softened. “Noted.”

You looked away first because sometimes his gentleness was harder to survive than his flirting.

He told you about his family in pieces. Not the masked parts, not at first, but the shape of them. A father who loved badly because fear had eaten too much of him. Brothers who fought like stray cats in a bag and loved like they would burn down cities about it. Sisters who understood more than they said. A grandfather-figure who could make tea feel like absolution. A little brother with knives in his voice and a zoo in his heart. Dick told stories with laughter tucked around the painful parts, and you learned to hear the spaces where truth had been wrapped in comedy for safe transport.

You told him about your work. About animals. About the first cat you had ever helped, though not what happened when you touched it. About believing broken things deserved more than being admired for surviving. About the loneliness that had shaped you without asking permission.

Sometimes, when his eyes went too soft, you almost confessed. Then he would lean into your presence like someone finally resting, and the selfish part of your love would whisper, What if the truth takes this away?

So you kept the secret.

Storms hit Blüdhaven differently than Gotham. Gotham swallowed rain and turned it into atmosphere. Blüdhaven choked on it. Gutters overflowed, streets became rivers, basement apartments filled ankle-deep before anyone important cared, and sirens wailed all over the waterfront as power lines snapped and cheap buildings remembered they had been built by people cutting corners with other people’s lives.

Harbour House became an emergency shelter within an hour. Volunteers dragged out cots. Mara coordinated intake with the terrifying efficiency of a woman who could organise the apocalypse if given enough clipboards. Animals were moved to higher rooms. Kids arrived soaked and shaking. Elderly residents came in wrapped in plastic ponchos. A mother cried because she had lost her dog in the floodwater. Someone’s oxygen machine needed power. The whole building strained under fear.

Dick arrived as Nightwing just before two in the morning, carrying a child in one arm and a shivering terrier in the other.

You did not have time to be surprised.

“Generator’s failing,” Mara told you. “Basement’s taking water. We’ve got too many people in panic and not enough staff.”

Nightwing set the child down with a paramedic and looked towards you. His hair was plastered to his forehead, suit slick with rain, a cut bleeding along his cheek. “What do you need?”

Everything, you thought.

Instead, you said, “Help Mara clear the basement.”

He nodded and moved.

For the next hour, the building became a storm inside a storm. Nightwing was everywhere, carrying supplies, moving people, cracking jokes with children while water dripped from his gloves, making the terrified laugh because that was his gift, his curse, his reflexive offering to the world. You felt him even when you could not see him. His exhaustion. His worry. The way he kept glancing toward you as the crowd pressed closer, as people began to tremble, as the fear in the room rose toward something dangerous.

You held back as long as you could. Then the generator died.

The lights went out.

For three seconds, Harbour House was plunged into darkness. Three seconds was enough.

Someone screamed. A child began sobbing. Dogs barked from the upper rooms. In the black crush of the main hall, panic spread body to body, breath to breath, a living thing with too many hands. Someone shoved toward the door. Someone else fell. The storm hammered the windows. The emergency lights flickered but did not catch.

You heard Mara shout your name.

Then you heard Nightwing say, “Everybody stay calm!”

But calm could not be commanded. Calm had to be given room.

You opened yourself.

The power moved out of you harder than you meant it to. Not a trickle this time. Not a touch offered under the disguise of ordinary presence. It surged from your chest and hands and voice, filling the dark shelter with warmth that no blackout could touch. The crying softened first. The dogs quieted. The crush near the door slowed. Breathing steadied across the room in waves. Fear did not disappear, but it loosened its grip, enough for people to hear Mara’s instructions, enough for Nightwing to lift the fallen man without being trampled, enough for the building to become a shelter again instead of a trap.

Your knees nearly buckled. You grabbed the edge of the reception desk and kept pouring warmth into the room.

Too much. Too fast. But there were children in the dark and animals crying upstairs and Dick—Nightwing—standing in the middle of it all with too much weight on him, always too much, always trying to hold the whole world up with shaking hands and a smile. You felt his panic when the lights went out. Felt the old circus-dark flash through him, the memory of ropes and screams and falling. Felt him shove it down instantly because everyone else needed him.

No, you thought. Not him, too.

You reached for him across the room with your power, instinctive and intimate from months of practice.

Nightwing froze.

Even through the mask, even in the dark, you saw it.

He felt it this time. Not as presence. Not as your usual warmth beside him. He felt the direction of it. The touch without touch. The impossible hand lifting the weight from his chest.

His head turned toward you.

The emergency lights finally flared red.

Your eyes met through the chaos.

And Dick Grayson, behind Nightwing’s mask, understood.

Not everything. Enough.

Hurt flashed across his face so clearly it might as well have been lightning.

Then the ceiling over the west hall cracked.

The moment shattered. Nightwing moved on instinct, throwing himself toward the collapse as plaster and old wood came down near the stairwell. You pushed the last of your power outward, calming the surge of terror before it could become a stampede, and the world narrowed to red light, rain, shouting, and the cold emptiness blooming inside you.

You remembered Mara catching your arm. You remembered Captain the brindle dog barking from somewhere upstairs. You remembered Nightwing turning toward you after the last person was safe, his mask gone somehow, or maybe pushed up, or maybe your vision simply knew him too well to care.

Then you remembered nothing.

When you woke, you were on the couch in the staff break room with a blanket tucked around you and Dick Grayson sitting in a chair three feet away, still in the lower half of his Nightwing suit with a borrowed Harbour House hoodie pulled over the top.

For a moment, before memory returned, the sight was so absurd you nearly smiled.

Then he looked at you, and the smile died.

Dick’s face was pale beneath the bruises and rain-dried exhaustion. His hair was still damp, curling messily around his forehead. There was a bandage on his cheek. He sat with his elbows on his knees and his hands clasped together so tightly his knuckles had gone white.

He did not look angry at first. That would have been easier.

He looked hurt.

“You knew,” he said.

Your throat felt scraped raw. “Dick—”

“You knew who I was.”

You closed your eyes.

He laughed once, but it broke before becoming anything sharp. “Okay. Cool. Great start.”

You pushed yourself upright too quickly, and the room tilted.

Dick moved halfway out of his chair, then stopped himself. The aborted motion hurt worse than if he had not moved at all.

“You should rest,” he said, voice tight.

“Don’t do that.”

“What?”

“Care about me like you’re not angry.”

His jaw clenched. “I can multitask.”

That almost made you cry.

You pulled the blanket tighter around yourself. “I knew by the third time Nightwing brought in an animal.”

“The raccoon?”

“The raccoon helped.”

Despite everything, his mouth twitched. It vanished immediately. “And you didn’t tell me.”

“You were the one with a secret identity.”

“Yeah,” he said, and there was the anger now, bright under the hurt. “I was. One that protects my family. One that keeps people alive. You knew my secret, and I didn’t know yours.”

You flinched. Dick saw it. He looked away, breathing hard through his nose.

“I didn’t know how to tell you,” you said.

“About the power?”

“About any of it.”

He stood then, restless energy driving him to the tiny break room window. Outside, the storm had softened to rain. Emergency lights still flashed somewhere beyond the glass, red and blue smearing across puddles in the alley.

“How long?” he asked.

You did not pretend not to understand.

Your hands tightened in the blanket. “The first time was in the supply room.”

He went very still. The silence that followed was so complete you could hear the old refrigerator hum.

Dick turned slowly. “The kid from the hospital.”

You nodded once.

His face changed. You had seen Dick hurt before. You had seen him bruised, bleeding, exhausted, furious, scared. But this was different. This was trust folding inward around a blade.

“I thought that was me,” he said quietly.

Your eyes burned. “It was.”

“No.” He shook his head, backing one step away as if the room had tilted under him, too. “No, I thought I calmed down because I trusted you. Because I felt safe with you. Because for once I could sit with someone and not have to be okay.”

“You could,” you whispered.

“But you were using your power.”

The word using landed between you, ugly and deserved.

You looked down at your hands. “Yes.”

Dick pressed his palms to his eyes for one second, then dropped them. “Did you ask?”

“No.”

“Did you tell me?”

“No.”

“Did I consent?”

The question struck harder than anger would have. You shook your head.

Dick’s laugh this time was almost soundless. “God.”

“I didn’t control you,” you said quickly, then hated yourself for how defensive it sounded. “I didn’t change your thoughts. I didn’t make you feel things that weren’t there. I just—”

“Made the bad ones easier?”

You swallowed. “Yes.”

“Without telling me.”

“Yes.”

He stared at you, and you could see him doing what Dick did best and worst: replaying every interaction, every touch, every moment he had felt lighter around you. The supply room. The couch. Your hand on his shoulder after patrol. Your voice over the phone. The nights he had mistaken supernatural relief for intimacy unshadowed by secrets.

His voice went quiet. “Did I tell you things because of it?”

“No.” You sat forward despite the dizziness. “Dick, no. I swear. It doesn’t work like that.”

“How do I know?”

The question broke something in you.

Because he was right. You had made yourself impossible to believe.

You pressed both hands against your mouth for a moment, trying to keep the worst of the grief inside. It came out anyway, shaking through your fingers. “You don’t.”

Dick’s anger faltered.

“You don’t,” you repeated, voice cracking. “And that’s my fault.”

He looked away again, but not before you saw the wetness in his eyes.

You wanted to reach for him. Every part of you wanted to. His pain was filling the room, huge and bright and calling to the power inside you like a wound calling for pressure. You could ease it. You could make his breathing steady. You could give him enough warmth to look at you without feeling the betrayal so sharply.

You dug your fingers into the blanket until the urge passed.

Dick noticed that too.

“What are you doing?” he asked.

“Not using it.”

His face twisted.

You laughed weakly, miserably. “Yeah. Too late for that to count for much, huh?”

He did not answer. The silence hurt, but you accepted it. That was the least you owed him.

After a while, he said, “Why?”

It was barely more than a whisper.

You looked up. Dick stood near the window with rainlight on his face, looking younger than he usually allowed himself to look. Younger and tired and so terribly wounded that your whole body ached with the need to fix what you had broken.

“Why would you do that?” he asked.

The truth was not noble. Not clean. It did not make you look good, which probably meant it was the only truth worth offering.

“Because I love you,” you said.

Dick went completely still.

The confession sat in the room like something alive. You wished you could take it back. Not because it was untrue, but because it was too much, too unfair, another thing handed to him while he was already bleeding. But it was out now, and you would not make it smaller by pretending.

“I love you,” you said again, quieter. “And I know that doesn’t make it better. I know it might make it worse. But you asked why, and that’s why. Because I saw how much you carry. I saw how everyone leans on you because you’re good at holding them up. I saw how you make yourself bright so nobody notices when you’re burning. And I had this thing in me that could make it hurt less for a little while, and I convinced myself that using it was kindness.”

Dick’s expression had gone unreadable in the way that meant he was trying very hard not to fall apart.

You kept going because stopping would be cowardice.

“My power manifested because I was alone,” you said. “I was a kid, and I wanted someone to come comfort me so badly it felt like it was killing me. No one came. An injured cat found me instead, and I wanted it to feel safe because I knew what it was like not to. That was the first time. Since then, I can give it to almost anyone. People. Animals. I can make fear loosen. I can make grief step back. I can make someone feel like maybe they can survive the next minute.”

Your voice broke.

“But I can’t do it for myself.”

Dick’s face changed.

You looked down before the pity could undo you. “So when I saw you hurting, I think some selfish part of me wanted to become what I never had. I wanted to be the person who came. And then you looked at me like I made the world easier to live in, and I didn’t want to lose that. I didn’t want to lose you.”

For a long moment, Dick said nothing.

Then he sat down again, heavily, like his knees had remembered gravity all at once. His hands hung between them. He looked at the floor.

“You should have told me,” he said.

“I know.”

“You should have let me choose.”

“I know.”

“I would have said yes sometimes.”

The softness of that nearly destroyed you.

Your eyes filled again. “I know.”

“No,” Dick said, looking up at you now. “I don’t think you do. I don’t think you understand that I would have trusted you with it if you had trusted me with the truth.”

There it was. The thing beneath everything.

Not the power. The trust.

You nodded, crying silently because there was no defence left in you. “You’re right.”

Dick looked like he hated that you agreed. He looked like he wanted a fight because fighting would let him stay angry instead of hurt. But you had taken enough from him already. You would not take the clean edge of his anger too.

“I’m sorry,” you said. “Not because you found out. Because I did it. Because I made choices about your pain that should have been yours. Because I let you feel safe without telling you why, and then I let myself feel loved for it.”

He closed his eyes.

You forced yourself to say the rest. “You don’t owe me forgiveness. You don’t owe me understanding. You don’t owe me comfort.”

A tear slipped down his cheek.

Dick wiped it away quickly, angry with it. “That’s my line.”

“What?”

“I’m supposed to say that to you.” He laughed again, but this one hurt differently. “I’m supposed to be the person who makes everyone else feel like they don’t have to earn being loved.”

“You are.”

“Yeah?” His eyes were bright when he looked at you. “Then why didn’t you believe me?”

The question hit so close to the lonely child inside you that for a second you could not breathe.

Dick seemed to regret it immediately. “I didn’t mean—”

“You did,” you whispered. “And you’re right.”

He looked wrecked.

You both sat there in the dim break room with the storm fading outside and the building full of sleeping survivors around you, two people who loved each other and had managed to hurt each other anyway. It should have been impossible for love to sit in the same room as betrayal. But there it was, bruised and stubborn, refusing to leave.

Eventually, Dick stood.

Your chest tightened.

He noticed. He had always been good at reading rooms, reading bodies, reading the tiny moments before someone broke.

“I need air,” he said.

You nodded.

He reached the door, then stopped.

For a second, his hand rested on the frame.

“I don’t know what this means,” he said without turning around.

You swallowed. “Me neither.”

“I’m angry.”

“I know.”

“I still—” He stopped. His shoulders rose and fell. “I still care about you. That’s making the angry part extremely inconvenient.”

A broken laugh escaped you. “Yeah. Same.”

He turned his head just enough for you to see his profile.

“No powers,” he said.

Your heart twisted. “No powers.”

“Not on me. Not unless I ask. Not unless you tell me exactly what you’re doing.”

“I promise.”

He nodded once.

Then he left.

Dick avoided you for five days.

Avoided was perhaps unfair. Dick Grayson did not avoid like a normal person. He sent updates through Mara, made sure Harbour House had generators by morning, arranged for Wayne money through Bruce without putting his name on it, and apparently delivered three crates of dog food at dawn on the second day like some emotionally unavailable Santa Claus. He cared from a distance with military precision, which was somehow both touching and deeply irritating.

You did not chase him. You wanted to. God, you wanted to. Every time your phone lit up, every time the door opened, every time Captain lifted his head as if expecting Dick’s familiar footsteps, your whole body went tight with hope. But love without consent had gotten you here. You would not turn apology into pursuit. You would not make your need another weight for him to carry.

So you waited. You worked. You slept badly. You taught volunteers how to read stress signs in dogs. You helped flood victims fill out forms. You did not use your power unless someone asked or unless immediate safety demanded it, and even then, you explained afterwards until your voice went hoarse. It felt clumsy. Terrifying. Like learning to walk with your hands open after years of hiding them.

On the sixth night, Dick came back.

Not as Nightwing. Not as Officer Grayson.

Just Dick, in jeans and an old blue hoodie, hair wind-tossed, eyes shadowed. He arrived after closing, when the building had gone quiet and you were sitting in the kennel room with Captain’s huge head in your lap.

The dog lifted his head first. His tail thumped once.

You looked up.

Dick stood in the doorway with his hands in his pockets. He looked uncertain, which was not a thing he let many people see. Dick could leap between rooftops without looking down. He could command teams of heroes, fight assassins, charm donors, soothe frightened children, and make grief look graceful. But standing in a doorway after being hurt by someone he loved? That was harder. That required no performance at all.

“Hey,” he said.

Your voice came out soft. “Hey.”

Captain, traitor that he was, immediately got up and lumbered over to press his entire body against Dick’s legs.

Dick looked down at him. “Et tu, buddy?”

Captain wagged his tail.

You looked at the dog. “Unbelievable. I feed you.”

Dick’s mouth twitched. The tiny, almost-smile felt like sunrise through boarded windows.

He stepped inside but stayed near the door. “Can we talk?”

“Yes.”

You started to stand, but he shook his head. “You can stay there.”

So you did.

Dick sat on the floor across from you, leaving careful space between your knees and his. The gesture hurt in its gentleness. He was giving you the same thing you had failed to give him: room to choose.

“I talked to Bruce,” he said.

You blinked. “That must have been cheerful.”

“It was emotionally catastrophic for everyone involved.”

“Sounds like a Wayne family speciality.”

“Pretty much.” Dick rubbed a hand over his face. “He was very Batman about it. Lots of silence. A few sentences that felt like they had been carved out of stone. Then Alfred gave us tea and somehow made both of us feel judged by a beverage.”

You laughed quietly.

Dick looked at you like he had missed the sound and was trying not to show it too much.

Then the humour faded.

“I’ve been thinking,” he said.

“Okay.”

“About why it hurt so much.”

Your fingers curled against your knees.

Dick looked down at Captain, who had settled halfway between you both like a furry mediator. “Part of it was the power. The consent. The lying. That matters. I’m still not okay with it.”

“I know.”

“But part of it was…” He exhaled slowly. “I thought I’d found someone who made me feel lighter without needing me to be anything. Not Nightwing. Not the oldest. Not the funny one. Not the person who gets everyone else through the hard thing. Just me.”

Tears burned behind your eyes.

“And then I found out there was a reason,” he said. “A power. A secret. Something I didn’t know was happening. It made me wonder if I had made the whole thing up.”

“You didn’t.”

“I know that now.” He looked at you. “Mostly.”

You nodded because mostly was honest, and honest was better than easy.

Dick’s eyes softened, but his voice stayed steady. “I don’t think my feelings came from your power. I know they didn’t. I’ve been away from you for five days, and I still feel them, so congrats, I guess. Betrayal did not cure my crush.”

A laugh burst out of you, wet and surprised.

His smile flickered, real for half a second. Then he said, “But I don’t know how to trust the comfort yet.”

Your laughter faded.

“That’s fair,” you whispered.

“I need to know when it’s you and when it’s your power.”

“I’ll tell you.”

“I need you to ask before you touch my feelings.”

The phrasing made your breath catch.

Touch my feelings. It sounded childish and devastatingly precise.

“I will,” you said.

“And I need you to let me hurt sometimes.”

That one broke through. You looked down, tears slipping free before you could stop them.

Dick leaned forward slightly, then stopped. “Can I say something that might make you mad?”

You laughed weakly. “Sure. We’re already in emotional hell. Might as well decorate.”

His mouth twitched. “You didn’t just take my pain because you loved me. You took it because watching me hurt made you feel helpless.”

The words landed hard.

You looked at him.

Dick’s gaze was gentle but unflinching. “And I get that. I really do. But my pain isn’t a problem you have to solve to prove you love me.”

Your chest ached with it.

“I know,” you said, though the words still felt too new to fully believe.

“You can sit with me in it.”

You wiped your face. “I’m bad at that.”

“So am I.”

“You? Dick Grayson, professional emotional support eldest sibling?”

“Especially me.” His smile turned crooked. “I am great at sitting with other people’s pain. My own? Garbage fire.”

Despite everything, you smiled.

Dick looked at your hand where it rested near Captain’s fur. “Can I?”

You froze.

He nodded toward your hand. “Just hold it. No powers.”

Your throat tightened. “Yes.”

He moved slowly, giving you time to change your mind, even though he was the one who had been wronged. That was Dick all over. Hurt and still careful. Angry and still kind. You loved him so much it frightened you.

His fingers wrapped around yours. You closed your eyes immediately, focusing inward, keeping the power still. It wanted to move toward him. Not because you chose it, but because comfort was the shape your love had learned first. You held it back. Let the feeling remain only feeling. Let your hand be only a hand.

Dick’s thumb brushed once across your knuckles.

“No warmth,” he said quietly.

You opened your eyes. His expression was soft with something fragile and relieved.

“No,” you whispered. “Just me.”

For a second, he looked like that hurt and healed in equal measure.

“Okay,” he said.

You sat like that for a long time, hands linked over Captain’s sleeping back, the kennel room quiet around you. Nothing was fixed. Trust had not magically rebuilt itself. Love had not erased the wrong. But Dick stayed. You stayed. The power stayed inside you, restless and unused, while something gentler and more human grew in the space it left behind.

Weeks passed before Dick asked.

You were on the roof of Harbour House, because of course he had found a way to make even emotional recovery involve heights. The city stretched around you in wet black and neon gold, the river cutting through it like a bruise catching light. Below, the rescue had finally gone quiet. Captain had been adopted that afternoon by Mara and her daughter, which had made you cry in the storage room for eleven minutes and then deny it to everyone except Dick, who had handed you tissues without mercy.

Dick sat beside you on the ledge, shoulder not quite touching yours.

“I miss him already,” he said.

“You visited him more than some volunteers.”

“He understood me.”

“He drooled on your shoes.”

“Love language.”

You smiled into the night.

Dick looked at you for a long moment. “Can I ask you something?”

“Always.”

He hesitated. That was new. Dick did not usually hesitate unless the question mattered.

“What does it feel like?” he asked. “When you use it.”

You leaned back on your hands and looked at the cloudy sky. “Like opening a door in my chest.”

His face turned toward you.

“Sometimes it’s warm,” you said. “If it’s small. If someone just needs a little help breathing, or an animal needs to know I won’t hurt them. But if it’s bigger…” You swallowed. “It feels like giving something away that I don’t know how to get back.”

Dick’s eyes lowered. “That’s why you get cold.”

“Yeah.”

“And empty.”

“Yeah.”

His jaw tightened. “I hate that.”

“I know.”

“No, I really hate it.” He looked out at the city. “I hate that something born from you needing comfort became something everyone else gets to receive except you.”

You did not know what to say to that. So, for once, you said nothing.

Dick’s hand rested on the ledge between you, palm up.

Your breath caught.

He glanced at you. “Still just me.”

You placed your hand in his. Still just you.

He held on carefully. “Do you think it would hurt less if someone asked?”

Your throat tightened. “Yes.”

“Do you think it would hurt less if you knew you could say no?”

“Yes.”

He nodded slowly. Then, after a silence, he said, “Would you help me tonight?”

You looked at him sharply. Dick’s face was open. Nervous, yes. Still bruised in places that had nothing to do with patrol. But open.

“You don’t have to,” he said quickly. “And I’m not asking because I think you owe me. You don’t. I just…” He exhaled. “Today was good. Captain got a home. Nobody died. No crisis. No collapsing building. And somehow that makes all the bad stuff louder. I don’t want you to take it away. I just want a little room to breathe.”

Your eyes burned.

There it was. Consent, fragile and holy. Choice. Trust, not repaired, not complete, but growing one careful root at a time.

You squeezed his hand. “I can do that.”

“Tell me what you’re doing?”

“I’ll give you a little warmth,” you said softly. “Not enough to numb anything. Just enough to help your body remember it’s safe right now. If you want me to stop, say stop, and I stop.”

Dick nodded, throat bobbing. “Okay.”

You let the power move. Only a little. Only what he had asked for.

Warmth passed from your hand into his, gentle as breath against cold glass. Dick closed his eyes, but this time you watched his face carefully, not with hunger for his relief but with respect for his choice. His shoulders loosened. His breathing steadied. The grief in him remained, because it was his and it mattered. But it stopped clawing quite so hard.

After a few seconds, he whispered, “That’s enough.”

You stopped immediately.

The power settled back inside you, present but contained.

Dick opened his eyes. They were wet.

“Thank you,” he said.

You shook your head, emotional enough to be vaguely offended by your own face. “Thank you for asking.”

He looked at you then, and the love between you was not simple. It had teeth marks in it now. It had rules. It had boundaries. It had the memory of hurt and the promise of trying again. But it was real. It had always been real, even when you mishandled it. Even when secrecy made it crooked. Even when both of you had to learn that comfort without truth could become another kind of wound.

Dick leaned closer, slowly enough that the question was clear before he spoke. “Can I kiss you?”

You nearly laughed, only because crying felt too predictable.

“Yes,” you whispered.

His free hand rose to your cheek, not glowing, not magic, not anything except warm human touch. He kissed you softly at first, careful in the way people were careful with things they had almost lost. The city hummed below. Rainwater glimmered on the roof around you. Your power did not move. It did not need to.

When he pulled back, his forehead rested against yours.

“No powers?” he asked, voice barely there.

You smiled, trembling. “No powers.”

His breath left him in something like relief.

“Good,” he whispered. “Because I want to know it’s you.”

You closed your eyes. “It’s me.”

Dick kissed you again, and this time there was still pain in it, still apology, still the long road ahead. But there was joy too, ordinary and unassisted, rising between you like morning after a storm.

For once, you did not give it away. You let yourself keep it.

And Dick, who had spent his whole life turning grief into flight, held your hand on the rooftop and stayed.