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“ … “ Natsuki just stared up at her friend intensely for a moment, blowing up her cheeks. Really, what was she supposed to say ? It was very, painfully obvious that her friend was lying to her. “ Liar. “ Natsuki pointed out, pouting. “ Dummy ! You need to sleep properly ! “

— A sheepish smile had spread across her face at Natsuki’s stare, only feeling more embarrassed. She had tried to fix her sleeping schedule, though she either oversleeps or doesn’t sleep at all. Though, how could she explain that to her? She’d either not believe her, or just cause concern. She didn’t want to cause even more worry, even if she was unsure if Natsuki was simply just angry with her. (She tended to always find the shorter girl hard to read…)

“…I know. I’ll try harder to, okay?”

beatenexe

“ Y-you better ! Jee, do I need to tug you in ? “ She exclaimed, mostly joking. It wasn’t like she really could sleep too well either, home just wasn’t...a very safe place to be, to say the very least. But she was mostly fine. She wouldn’t mind if Sayori just told her more about her issues, but she guessed it wouldn’t be fair anyways since she usually shut up about those issues herself just as much.

“ M-mhh.. I could make you snacks to take home, if that makes you sleep better... “

#tbt #sdfsdfsdf

bottlecake-blog

@beatenexe liked for a lyric starter.

“I never sleep.” It was intended as a joke, for the most part, though, the yawn after did nothing to make that intention clear. Regardless, she chuckled afterward. It was more of an awkward laugh then she hoped though, and slowly felt the now uncomfortable encroach on her. Nice going, Sayori, now you’ve probably just worried her.

beatenexe

“ ... “ Natsuki just stared up at her friend intensely for a moment, blowing up her cheeks. Really, what was she supposed to say ? It was very, painfully obvious that her friend was lying to her. “ Liar. “ Natsuki pointed out, pouting. “ Dummy ! You need to sleep properly ! “

#tbt #it's good!!

She did, but she supposed she should accept help when she needed it. She had been carrying a lot, after all. So, she dropped her pout, her small fingers clinging to the other container still in her hands. “ Mmhhh... It’s okay. “ She mumbled out.

She was sure it way okay, anyways. Really she had been overreacting.

#tbt

knivesexe

@beatenexe.

❝ n - natsuki … ❞ she’s tired of butting heads with the other as often as she does . wants her to know that it isn’t a matter of disliking her entirely , but simply being very passionate when it came to her opinions on writing && literature . gestures with the teapot in her hand as she speaks again , trying to calm her anxiety . it didn’t used to be this hard to casually talk with people , which made it hurt all the more .

❝ i’m making some tea i - if you would … like any … ❞

beatenexe

Natsuki didn’t exactly dislike Yuri, she just hated being belittled. She hated being treated as childish, because she wasn’t childish ! She was very grown !! She hated how the other would belittle her writing & literature just because she preferred simplicity. “ ..A-ah.. “ She pouted. “ S-sure. “ Dropping the pout, she nodded.

She really needed to stop being this mean.

#tbt #!!!!

glitchesexe

. ｡ . : ☆ DOKI DOKI ! ( EVER SINCE SAYORI HAD LEFT, & Yuri had entered her downward spiral , Monika had been managing to keep her cool ( for the most part. ) , & even as she could tell both Natsuki & MC were beginning to catch on to just how … wrong things were , she continued to act like nothing was wrong. )

. ｡ . : ☆ DOKI DOKI ! ( FOR A MOMENT SHE HESITATES , looking up from the podium at the messy drafts of her poem for today scattered across it , honestly , not the best move. But , she’d reassure Natsuki she was fine nonetheless. She just had to keep acting like nothing was wrong , like she wasn’t slowly falling apart , maybe then she’d be okay. ) ❛ No , why do you ask ? ❜

beatenexe

She wondered if that was true. Everything had been getting weird & honestly it worried Natsuki. She wasn’t sure what exactly was wrong, but something was.. off. She couldn’t put her finger on it, but things just seemed weird, they seemed wrong.

So when Monika shook her head, trying to convince her she was fine, she couldn’t help but pout, even if just for a short second. Natsuki had her doubts about that, especially just with how off she was acting..It just.. didn’t seem like Monika. At all. Yuri was acting off too.

Natsuki didn’t like it. She worried about her friends. “ You just..seemed off. “ She admits, looking down at her own poem. SIghing, she puts her elbow on it, placing her chin on her hand. “ Mmh.. “

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She pouts for a second, then lets out a sigh. She really needed to learn to accept help more often... Usually, it just made her feel weak and she hated feeling weak. She wasn’t weak ! She was very strong !

“ M-mhh... “ She stops her step, stomping her feet on the ground. “ U-ugh ! Fine !! Just don’t drop or snack any !! “

#tbt

Natsuki shut up for a moment when Sayori apologised. Well, nice, now she just felt bad for making Sayori feel bad. Ugh... She hated just how much she struggled with doing simple things as carrying something.

“ M-mhh.. F-fine. You can help me. “

#It's super ok!!!#tbt

@bottlesexe liked for a starter

“ I-I can carry this by myself ! I’m not weak ! “

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@glitchesexe liked for a starter

“ ..M-monika ? Is something bothering you ? “

#tbt #These are just gonna be one liners sorry

inhumansanguine

|| @beatenexe

“Oh Natsuki! Do you need any help with that? I’m sure it’s tough carrying all that by yourself!”

She offers the other girl a kind smile as she approaches her clubmate on the way to school. Kayla had noticed the poor girl struggling to balance and carry two whole containers of what she assumed to be sweets. It was only natural for her to try and help right?

beatenexe

“ I-I don’t need your help !! “ She immediately pouts, even though she was struggling, she hated that she had to seem like she needed help. She didn’t !! She was just fine !! She didn’t need anyones help !! “ I-I’m doing just fine ! See !! “ Natsuki tries to lift the containers higher, continuing her walk.

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