sincerity is scary

beau alexander + 26 + dealer

[beaualex]

carasim‌:

Cara had a few other options, but she didn’t want to get into them. And she supposed it wasn’t the most dangerous thing to do to borrow his phone, and there were plenty of people around. And wasn’t it a nice gesture to offer assistance anyway? “Okay,” she decided and yelled back in his direction. “I could probably call someone if you don’t mind lending a phone.”

Beau groaned as he pushed himself up from where he sat on the concrete, digging around in his pockets as he walked over to her. Once he got near her he pulled out two nearly identical iphones. “Take your pick. I got black and rose gold,” he said, holding one in each of his outstretched hands.

[beaualex]

violentparties‌:

“will do,” indy said, all of her energy now focused on the paper in front of her as she sketched out the beginnings of a tiger. animals were something she had always enjoyed drawing, especially when she had been just starting out as an artist, and she was always happy to get back to her roots. “you’ve got some sick tattoos, dude” she said, having noticed the boy’s arms as soon as she had seen him.

Beau hadn’t expected her to speak up again, so Beau paused for a moment before saying, “Oh, yeah, thanks,” rubbing his hand over his bicep and the large piece of a pinup girl that covered it.  “I, uh, used to have a lot of money to invest in art when I was young and didn’t understand permanence. So all this happened.”

[beaualex]

waterblossoms‌:

giulia didn’t know how or what gave her the ability to stay calm at his response but, it was clear the male had smoked more than needed. he even confirmed it with his statement, so the italian just shrugged it off. “that must be the life, huh…” she spoke softly as fidgeted with her fingers slightly. the smell reminded the girl of her younger and dumber days, where she’d smoke on purpose to piss off her dad. “i know, it’s just weed silly. wasn’t exactly worried.” offering a small smile, she turned to him to meet his eyes. “you should probably get some eye drops though, you’re bloodshot red.”

Beau rolled the bloodshot eyes in question. “Oh no, what if my mom sees me,” he said sarcastically, and much more dramatic than necessary.  “So what if my eyes are bloodshot. I’m almost thirty, nobody gives a shit.” Maybe it was an over-exaggeration, but Beau felt confident that even if this stranger did attempt to turn him into the police or something, there wasn’t much they’d do, especially since he’d finished his drop offs for the day and he no longer had any actual bud on him.

[beaualex]

waterblossoms‌:

as soon as the male opened his mouth, giulia slyly covered her nose to avoid any further inhalation of the awful scent that came from him. obviously it brought up a few memories of her own puffs and passes; it also made the italian want to light one more time, but she couldn’t. not wanting to bother the guy anymore than already feeling like she was, giulia removed her fragile hand and smile gently at him. “how much did you smoke, dude?” giulia spoke quietly to not catch anyone else’s attention. “because you look freaking out of it, in a good way.”

Beau let out a sigh as if to signal he had passed the point of knowing a long time ago. “Fuck if I know,” he explained. Perks of being the weed man, people often offer to let you use some of your own product you just sold them. He’d had a busy day, so he’d smoked with three or four clients, not to mention his dab pen was just too handy whenever he was just sitting around by himself. “It’s just weed. I’m fine,” he felt the need to clarify. 

[grceoh]

( @beaualex ) Grace didn’t know why she thought it’d be a good idea to bring Bear to the festival. Actually, she’d known it wasn’t a good idea, but he’d spent enough time alone this week, and she couldn’t say no to that old grandpa face. Bear did absolutely nothing to contain his excitement, yapping at half the passersby and bounding up to the rest. While Grace was preoccupied with a corndog, Beau trotted up to the kissing booth and grinned at the guy manning it.

[beaualex]

Beau wasn’t in the best mood, thanks to the assignment he received. He was hyper-sensitive to cheating, so there was no way he was kissing anyone but his girlfriend today. He didn’t give a shit about what he was “supposed to do”. He’d just sit there with the pissiest face, hitting his dab pen in broad daylight, hoping that maybe he’d even get arrested before he had to kiss a stranger. For the first time of the day, his grumpy face eased up, seeing the friendly non-human face that approached the booth. “Well hello cutie. You can have a kiss,” he spoke to the dog. 

[beaualex]

violentparties‌:

“that’s true,” indy said, letting out a little laugh at the others directness. she appreciated, really, and often got along best with people who knew what they wanted, and who they were. she found that she didn’t have time for indecisiveness, despite how muddled her brain got sometimes. “a tiger it is! thanks, dude.”

“Let me know how it goes,” he said, ending his sentence with his face buried in a cup of coffee. He had actually been thinking of getting a tiger tattoo, not that he had much room left on his body for it, but he had been in a tiger-mood lately. 

[beaualex]

carasim‌:

Cara perked off her car when someone yelled at her across the lot. At mid-afternoon, the lot wasn’t too slow or busy, a pleasant in between. She hardly expected to know anyone, though, and a squint into the distance proved her assumption correct. Dire as her straits were, Cara wasn’t sure if parking lot lurkers were the safest roadside assistance option. “Oh, that’s all right, I don’t want to be of any trouble!” she called back. 

“What else are you going to do though,” Beau shouted back. The woman was clearly at her wit’s end. Beau didn’t exactly have any idea of what to do off the top of his head. He’s picked plenty of locks before, but not a car lock, was that even possible? He’d think about that later, after she accepted his help.

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[the1975hqs]

Matty photographed by Adam

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Matty via Jamie, 20/07

[chvngeofhevrt]

Matty Healy for The Guardian (2018)

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Matty via Instagram, 01/07

[beaualex]

□ INSTAGRAM: @BEAUALEX uploaded a new photoset

➡︎ she likes me because I look like macklemore in this coat @ofstvlla

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[everblooms-deactivated20200820]

Within the milky haze of the early morning, Jay is in his usual spot at the diner: the third bar stool from the left. The diner hums with small chatter and the static croon of the radio telling the day’s forecast. He has been writing in a notepad for thirty minutes, cursive script connecting in one black-gel line, before suddenly he gets stuck on a thought. Jay pulls his pen from the paper and finally turns to the one beside him.  

“Say, don’t you think it’s curious how, when we don’t have it…y’know, when we don’t have that person we’re infatuated with – nothing else is enough for us. But then, often when we actually do get that person…it still isn’t enough, and couples are still unhappy?  It’s like, humans are all just black holes, and we’d have the galaxy collapse on itself to get what we want, but then we still end up wanting more.” 

[beaualex]

Beau, hungover, sat with his head in a cup of black coffee. Beau did not approve of being awake before noon at the earliest, especially when he had been out the night before. But he promised he’d meet with a client and this was the only time they had available. Pathetic. He should’ve asked for more information before hand.  Either way, he was waiting for them to show up, trying to fuel his blurry mind with caffeine. Beau was ever the amateur philosopher, just, not at this hour, so commentary he would’ve typically welcomed, became grating. “My girlfriend’s the fuckin’ goat,” he said, nothing short of romantic, “couldn’t ask for more than her so guess I’m not going to black hole anything anytime soon.”

[waterblossoms-blog]

although she didn’t look it, giulia had felt like she was in a rush; almost under massive pressure. why? well the italian had told some fans that she would meet up with them, but much to her surprise—these fans were a little too out of hand. naturally giulia was used to a fair sized crowd but the amount of pushing and shouting they were doing, just made her knees shake from anxiety. so doing what anyone would do, she rushed into the closest building possible and sat down quickly without paying any real attention. a sigh slipped past her lips, as giulia looked beside her “oh… i’m sorry if someone was sitting here. but like, i really don’t want to go back out there—so do you mind if i stay here for a while?”

[beaualex]

Luckily for her, Beau was too stoned to be able to react to anything with any sort of haste. He blinked first, before responding, “No, yeah, you’re fine, doll.” He was hardly aware of his surroundings at the moment, in fact, he wasn’t entirely sure where he even was at the moment. But that was irrelevant to him for the time being.