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(they/them) 5’7 cw: tell u later<3 gw: 125lbs

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amazon thinks i shave😹

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nobody gives a fuck about me. ive spent my last 3 birthdays alone at my lowest point, and even now that i have friends this year, ill still be alone crying because theyd rather go hang out with other people

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im so scared my friends r bored of me cos now they hang out w some other group every friday when they used to hang out w just them & me every week ugggghhhh i j need somebody who’s on my same level & gets me & knows not to abandon me

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now ik why i went off prozac LMAOOO my mood is so unstable. better this than lexapro tho cos that made me gain sm weight no matter if i ate anything or not🙃 at least im confident nowww

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IVE EBEEN THINKING ABOUT HIM ALL DAY UGGWGWVVHBBNHHHGVHHVGG I HATE THIS i realized today that i’ve gone soft…. i fr started blushing when he came in the room.. my face got hot. my glasses fogged up. in 50 degree weather. this has literally never happened to me before what the fuckkkjhhhbghhh I DONT WANNA GO SOFTT😞 I HAVE TO GO TO COLLEGE SOON but i cant help it lmao im sad i dont get to see him tomorrow. this is so not me, just a month or two ago i was strictly “no romance for the time being, & i can only allow myself to seek out friends w benefits” plus i havent felt like dis since years ago

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this boy is so stupid lmao… so cute

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this is no longer an ed page istg its just abt rhis stupid boy… im really feeling a certain way uggghhhhh i hate having crushes because now i cant stop thinking about him, im obsessed. he doesn’t have an instagram so my brain doesnt know what to do. so im just listening to sappy music and thinking about his face and hair and stuff. when we’re both waiting for our buses he’s always so restless and so anxious. he always checks to see if his bus is there, then when it’s not he turns around and looks at me while he walks back over to the waiting area. i wanted to ask him “why are you so restless?” maybe i should next time. is it an excuse to look back at me? is he trying to will his bus into coming faster? hm

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😸i think the guy i like likes me too heheheeh…,. i took off my mask outside cos we were walking the track & i ws just talking to my friends and he took off his mask too even tho he never does and literally spent the whole period staring at me !?!?! and so obviously too😳 like iwas just walking and instead of playing frisbee w his friends he just stood and leaned against the fence and stared at me❤️❤️❤️

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guys is this messy..

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It’s weird when you get fat and people who used to say

“Omg no you don’t need to lose weight you’re perfect the way you are!”

Now say

“That’s up to you, just be safe.”

Even though the second response isn’t necessarily bad, it feels awful because it’s like, you totally would have never said this to me when I was skinny..

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STILL not losing weight😑

Im fucked up over this

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I think I want my ex back but its been a really long time, like almost 2 years bruh

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being mentally ill is so embarrasing how can you explain to a normal person that you had to psych yourself up for half an hour to like get off the floor

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Literally… I thought about it the other day and I realized, my whole issue is just that my brain gets emotionally uncomfortable and then I try to kms… I’m behind everybody else at even staying alive. Very embarrassing for me.

Quick reminder though that the general public view of mental illness is changing and people are a lot more accepting now. I promise you’re not wrong in any way for being mentally ill. :)

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My waist from last year🥲🥲🥲

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“Losing weight isn’t gonna fix your problems”

It literally did

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I feel like my girlfriend is going to try to turn all of my friends against me and that’s one of the only reasons I haven’t broke up with her……. I fr feel like I’m on the brink of losing everything