Bhavya

A yapper and sometimes I write!

[beesfairlyland]

Hii! I am Bhavya and this was my non dualism blog but I decided rather than saying same thing again and again or to just let go of this account, I wanted to start sharing my drafts with you all!

I hope you are having a wonderful dream!🪻💜

Here's my non dualism masterlist!

[beesfairlyland]

What made me unfold the page again?

2018, 9th standard and a page in my hand with a blank mind, questioning if I’ll ever be able to write the poem our teacher asked us to. My hands started sweating as soon as I read the assignment, and I felt small, like I was about to disappoint everyone. What if I were the only one who couldn't do it? “How is someone able to write as beautifully as a poem? How is it humanly possible for me to even write something beautiful?” With the very first doubt that came to my mind, I folded the page and put it back in my bag.

This was just a faded memory in my head until I wrote my first-ever poem at 3 am, inspired by a reel that appeared in my feed asking me to write a poem based on the picture. “Should I? Can I even? Should I at least try?” This time, my hand didn’t fold the page; rather, it held the pen and wrote something for 10 minutes. And here it was, my first ever poem I wrote because I didn’t listen to the voices in my head this time.

That day, I revisited a time when I wasn't accustomed to being excited about my morning coffee, when I would turn on the shower just to get lost in my thoughts—waking up felt like a chore, and my once-favourite song? It made me feel like throwing up.

I remembered longing for sleep, craving the escape to a place where no one knew my name. I would toss and turn, hoping a sliver of sunlight might spark the will to rise. You’ve felt this too, haven’t you? The feeling of your words stuck in your throat, the endless stares at the wall, and hearing the clock strike the same restlessness every day. I’ve been here, existing like some background noise, but that night made me pour that noise on pages.

After finishing my poem, I recited it to my cousins, and they said I ChatGPT-ed it, and they gave me another picture and asked me to write again. To my surprise, I did, and this made me realise this wasn’t a fluke. I didn’t feel pride, but rather a sense of calm that I was able to put my thoughts into words. There was no drastic change, but a comfort that I am more than some background noise.

Some days, I still question myself. Do I deserve to call myself a poet? Some doubts still linger behind the curtains, but I refuse to look at them. Some days I am still sitting on a blank document, but isn’t this a part of becoming?

Maybe somewhere in your bag lies the folded page that you couldn’t dare to pick up again, or a draft sitting silently in your notes. Maybe you listened to the voices in your head or gave up the moment you picked up that pen. Maybe you decided to postpone because you were unsure, or you stared at the page for too long. Maybe you stop when the cursor blinks, or you press delete when your thoughts want to bleed through the ink.

So I ask again, you’ve felt this too, haven’t you? Maybe the draft has been waiting long enough.

This time, you’ll sit with a blank page, but maybe it won’t be folded again

[beesfairlyland]

darling please don't delete your posts. also i would love to hear your poetry. non-dualism has affected every part of my life so it'd be curious to see how it affected your poetry too!

YESS babygurlll I won’t delete any of my postss don’t worryyy🫶🏻🩷 and tbh my poetry is completely indifferent to non dualism (maybe it’ll sound depressing😀)

[beesfairlyland]

I wanna make this account my poetry page, should i??? Ofc I won’t delete my early postss🥹

[beesfairlyland]

Hello, what does "notice the observation" mean? How do you do it? I don't understand.

Hii!

It must be notice the observer. The one who's omnipresent.

What are you when all the labels are ripped off of you?

Sit in silence. Notice the one who's observing.

There's no how, there's only being coz that's your true nature.

Don't stress yourself out over it.

[beesfairlyland]

Nobody is answering me. Will being excited by your desires as you're going "within" stop me from realizing? Is this a subtle misidentification still? Can there still be a feeling of excitement because Im so certain I'm about to be very rich? Every time I go "within" these desires in my mind going crazy and I can't help bull feel excited. I noticed knowing very briefly too it's like buzzing all over but my mind still goes crazy.

Hi baby!

Let me try to break it down for you. Why do we feel so excited when we think about "desires"? Try to answer it yourself.

If you were always soo seemingly rich will you be excited 24/7?

This excitement comes coz you think it's something different from you when it's all you all along. When you become aware that you are rich you feel excited coz you are associating with lack, with not having it. The more you Know that there's no difference between the imagined and the seeming reality. It will become normal for you, yes you'll be happy but more you'll be floating in peace Knowing that there's nothing to achieve coz everything is YOU.

Go within and become aware of what you wanna experience. The more you do it, the more you'll realise there's no difference. That excitement will soon transition into the peace.

Hope i could help you!

[beesfairlyland]

omg hii, I feel like it has been long time since you left. How have you been, how is life treating you?? ♡♡

HII CUTIEE!!

I have been doing great, and life's been treating me gently too. I am thinking of writing a book and next year I'll be doing phd. I've thought about the overview and the title. Gonna start writing it soon!

and how have you beenn???

[beesfairlyland]

Credit: sharingthelivingmethod (insta)

[beesfairlyland]

Hi, I saw your post where you talk about the "void state" and I honestly don't know how to ignore thoughts. I don't know what I should do to let them pass without getting involved.

Heya!

You don't have to try to ignore them, just acknowledge them and let them pass. Fully focus on your being. Thoughts are like clouds, they'll come and go. You don't have to do anything to let them pass. See it for what it is. A mere babble that doesn't belong to you.

[beesfairlyland]

Hello, how are you? How do I become pure consciousness? What do I do with the thoughts and anxiety that tell me I can't?

Hiii, i am goodd. Hope you are doing great too!

And you don't become pure consciousness baby, you already are! Just accept it, Know it!

Who told you that those thoughts are yours? Stop associating with them. The more you give them attention the more power they hold over you.

Just ask yourself why do you feel this way? Don't you trust yourself enough?

[beesfairlyland]

Ego is always concerned with keeping the past alive, because without it- Who are you?

💯

And it's scared to lose it's existence.

[beesfairlyland]

Everything after I Am is a part of play, and is malleable soo choose wisely!

how?

Everything that you experience is created by you. A dream that exista because of your awareness on it.

[beesfairlyland]

its been a while since you've been on but i'm really curious, how can i erase a man out of existence? he was abusive so im scared of him but idk how to remove him

He doesn't even exist in the first place but just don't give him the attention, stop putting your awareness on him.

And i am really sorry that you have to go through this. May be seek some help from someone whom you can trust?

[beesfairlyland]

Bee where are you be active I miss you 🥰😏

Hello bbg!

I am kinda back coz i missed you guys💗

[beesfairlyland]

We don’t need anything to manifest or shift or for any of that; we are pure awareness beyond all this, etc. I’m new to these topics, and even though I read your writings, I’m having a bit of difficulty comprehending, maybe due to the ego—I don’t know. But I want to get straight to the point. Right now, I just want to shift, but not out of desperation. I’m truly aware that I am infinite consciousness. For me, wanting or desiring something doesn’t mean I don’t have it. Anyway, I need to be directly aware of my desire. So, what is awareness? How does awareness form? For example, how am I aware of the reality I’m in right now, and how can I carry this awareness to another version of myself? How can I align this with a method? Because I feel more comfortable with a method, and many people in the shifting community have shifted without knowing about this nonduality movement. They just asked, "How?" Being aware—what does it even mean to me? I don’t even know that. For example, they say awareness is something that the five senses, the body, and the ego can perceive, which is why they say the five senses are an illusion—just be aware. My friend succeeded using the five senses method before. Did she unintentionally practice awareness? Can you explain this more clearly and directly, just for shifting? I want to know just this perfectly.

Heyo!!

Okay soo lemme break this down for you. The moment you think about something, you create it. Do you really KNOW who you are? Orr is it just your mind making you believe soo? Did you drop the veil of imagination and reality?

Yess methods can be helpful, i am not at all against them. They just help your seemingly logical brain to think that it is in the control. Coz the very thought of it being an illusion scares the heck outta it.

All you need to do is just stop feeding the idea of imagination and reality being different. They are the same. They are You.

Hope I could help you a little bit!!

[beesfairlyland]

https://www.tumblr.com/beesfairlyland/761167808718684160/if-weve-seemingly-always-been-materializing?source=share

Does this mean that if I am aware that vampires are eating me brutally and that there are wars and massacres, I will have created these things instantly 😰 This is a great power since there is no good and evil, I do not judge people who will be aware of such things etc. After all, their own wishes and preferences cannot be interfered with by me or anyone else My own preference would be aware of unicors 😌☺️ because they are very cool and mystical beautiful

You know once we know who we are. All we feel is love for every being, afterall they are all you. Someone thinking to harm anyone doesn't really understand the concept of Self. Coz you tell me would you harm yourself?

[beesfairlyland]

https://www.tumblr.com/beesfairlyland/761237282927820800/what-we-become-aware-of-seemingly-appears-the-same

Oh so when you guys say when you’re aware/decide something it appears like you literally mean it but it’s not physical because there’s no physical even rn my phone and everything is not physical ?

Yess everything just appears to be physical coz we assume them to be.