Hello! I Just finished reading Insight and I enjoyed it a lot! I really liked how you were able to portrait Jimin and Jungkook in a pretty accurate way (in my humble opinion). I am not bothered by the "sad ending" but I am interested in if you are going to continue their story forward? There was an indication of a collection and one of the stories was hidden and it said its involved in a challenge and couldn't be seen, is that story after Oversight or something else? Well I hope you do continue
Hi anon! Sorry it took so long to answer this. Yes, I did mean to work on a sequel. But I'm barely surviving work right now haha I had all these plans in my head. I even tried to date in real life so I would know how relationships work and I could write about Oversight lol. Things got busy when the pandemic started. And I also fell in love 😂 Anyway, thanks for reading my story. That means a lot. Quite a number of people hated me for the ending but, at this point, I'm pretty contented with Insight. I honestly think jikook, the way I characterized them in my fic, weren't mature enough to have a stable relationship so it's bound to break at some point. In any case, if I push through with Oversight, it would just be to indulge my fangirl self.
Title: Oversight
Summary: /On-going/ We were told that every fairy tale story has a happy ending, but why not for you and me?
Pairing: Established Jikook / Kookmin
Tags: canon compliant, non-au, established relationship, break-up, fluff and angst, slowburn
This is a sequel to a fic called “Insight”, you need to read that to understand how Jimin and Jungkook got together. But if you already know that, you can read Track 1 of Oversight here. Check out below for Track 2 👇
Track 2: House of Cards
Insecure again. Dangerous again.
“Jungkook-ah…”
In a post-award celebration where everyone was drunk high, bloodstream perfectly mixed with alcohol and mouth filled with mindless laughter, it was easy to pass off things as a simple blunder. Some of the staff went home with two of their managers and Bang-pd wasn’t around. Coordi noonas equally out of it with the marketing, heads down the table as they ranted their grievances away, hands still wrapped around their sixth half-empty bottles.
The restaurant’s crew eyed them all fondly and served them another batch of meat alongside beer.
“Jungkook-ah…”
Sober, smart Jungkook was sitting far end of the room with his legs crossed under him and munching on lettuce when Jimin shifted a little closer to him. A little too close for comfort that Jungkook could smell his breath as he mumbled his name for the second time to get his attention.
His hyung went all out today even if he knew he’d regret tomorrow when they’d be travelling for two consecutive days and three different locations.
Jimin’s face was too flushed and he’d been slurring his words an hour and a half in. He was still being stubborn about his diet so he was downing soju faster than he would chew a piece of samgyupsal. Eyes glazed, blazer discarded and two buttons of his polo shirt undone because the alcohol was making him hot. Beyond the cute sounds as he tried to appeal to everyone in the room, he seemed to have found a renewed appreciation of Jungkook’s name since he spotted him.
The truth was, he’d been trying to avoid exactly this.
Jimin gave him enough warning in the car. That he would cast all his cares away because this night would wrap 2016. In a couple of weeks, they’d have a comeback even when the height of year end, their grandest award, had yet to settle down.
Another set of schedules and promotions, the release of four new songs for their repackage and the start of their first world tour. Jimin told him he felt like things were going too fast and he thought he wasn’t given enough time to prepare and… just be enough.
Jimin wanted one last shot to freedom, then he’d go back to being hardworking.
Jungkook didn’t have any complaints. His hyung deserved the night and probably even more.
But he’d been avoiding Jimin because at least one of them had to be careful. It was usually him who’d be ready to announce their relationship any chance he’d get, but, when the older would let loose like this, Jungkook would instinctively feel the need to be responsible for both of them.
So he did pull away.
Jimin struggled to support himself without the other holding him.
“Why? You don’t want me?” Jimin asked him, voice actually sounding hurt. He was frowning and his eyes turned from glazed to dejection.
Jungkook couldn’t help but let out a dry laugh because.
How does that even make sense?
“Hyung, you’re drunk,” he said simply and slid a glass of water to where Jimin sat.
The older ignored it and scooted closer to him again.
Jungkook’s senses tingled and he had to scan the room twice to make sure nobody was looking. Saw Yoongi raised his glass to his lips while his eyes silently trailed on both of them.
It took much willpower that he had to clear his throat to push Jimin away from him.
Wasn’t as if the hyungs were against them dating. They made it clear they were supportive but they were also explicit about the limits both he and Jimin could show in public.
What Jimin was doing was not one of them. When he said he was going to cast his cares away, Jungkook didn’t think it would involve Jimin trying to bury his face into his neck and he certainly didn’t expect the older was gone enough to crawl his way on top of him.
It was tempting. Jungkook wanted to let people know and he could just grab Jimin here, pass it off as a mistake brought about by intoxication even if he was completely sober.
“You’re thinking of kissing me, aren’t you?” Jimin regarded him with a smile.
“No, I’m not,” he denied but feeling his own lips stretch to a smile.
Jimin’s smile was contagious.
He wondered what face he would make for Jimin to always figure him out.
His hyung tilted his head to the side, right arm still struggling to prop and steady himself.
“Do it, Jungkook-ah. I don’t care anymore.”
He didn’t know if this was permission or sarcasm but, either way, he was willing to take the bait.
“Aish, this kid,” Jimin laughed and slapped his thigh. “Can’t you at least pretend you won’t do it?”
“Stop bothering me,” Jungkook whined and weakly twined his fingers to the hand that hit him. “I’m really going to do it hyung if you don’t stop. We’re both going to regret it.”
“You’re not even drunk. You don’t have an excuse.” Jimin’s beam got even wider and Jungkook felt his heart thump faster.
Jimin had never been this pliant, always teasing but never willing to go beyond kiss these days. Jungkook was afraid that he might really just plunge in stupidly and let the world know.
“Oh? You won’t do it?”
His thoughts must’ve reflected his expression.
“I thought you were brave, this brat.”
“I’m not a child. I don’t have to get the things I want here and now.”
It made Jimin halt but then the sultry look turned proud and he was ruffling his dongsaeng’s hair again. “That’s right. You learned something from me.”
Not wanting to be treated juvenile from backing off, he tried to swat the hand away and grabbed the older’s wrist when he wouldn’t stop messing his hair.
“Don’t reject me all the time. Hyung will get hurt.”
“You’re saying nonsense again.”
By then, he was already holding Jimin close so he’d stop swaying. One hand on his wrist, the other rubbing small circles on the back of Jimin’s hand, a habit he seemed to develop. He wasn’t like this before. Wasn’t one to touch just because. However, since dating Jimin, and perhaps even before they started…even before the moment he began to realize his feelings, he started to find comfort in the close proximity he could establish because he was Jeon Jungkook and he was allowed to do it. The little touches he could mask as accidents, the way he could breathe in Jimin’s scent by pretending he wanted to whisper something. And that he was allowed to look at him when he was talking. It made him feel at ease.
“What’s this? What is this kid thinking?”
“Do you really think of me that way?”
Jimin’s brows creased. “What do you mean?”
“Do you think I’m a kid?”
Jimin hummed under his breath before he replied, “Of course not.” Those eyes that teased him were back again. “Why? Does it bother you?”
He wouldn’t deign that one with an answer. It wasn’t as if this was the first time he brought it up. So he blew a breath upwards to calm himself. That and because he still wanted to hold onto Jimin.
“What do you want me to call you then? Baby?”
“If I call you ‘baby’ what would you feel?” Jungkook threw back the question, challenging, nose flaring.
He expected some sort of reaction. Something along the lines of being hit in the head for being disrespectful or yet another jest to brush his concerns off. But then Jimin looked at him so pleased it caught him off guard. “Yeah? You’ll call me that?” was what he said. Encouraging and suggestive.
“Ah hyung! Stop it.”
Being under Jimin’s influence like this was bad for him even in his most guarded state.
When Jimin acts like this really…
“Jungkook-ah, want me to be honest with you?”
Jungkook didn’t answer, just stared and licked his lips because he kind of knew what would come when Jimin would open his mouth amidst his drunkest state. For one, he’d be honest. More importantly, demanding but so… so charming at the same time. He wouldn’t be able to say no if he asked him to do something stupid out of sheer pettiness. Like burn his computer. In his head, a drunk Jimin is a Jimin Jungkook couldn’t say no to.
“I lie to you all the time.”
“Huh?”
That wasn’t exactly what he predicted he’d hear.
“This hyung says he hates it when you tell me you’d tell other people of our relationship, but I’m really happy.” Jimin’s gaze turned softer as he continued and Jungkook didn’t know how to respond. Only that his ears felt hotter each second. “Hyung likes it when you spend time with me more than anyone. I get sad when you don’t look at me.”
Jungkook wondered if these were things Jimin really wanted him to hear. He drew in a breath and tried to pull himself away, just barely successful, because Jimin was grabbing at his shirt the soonest and the real score was, Jungkook wasn’t willing to let go of Jimin either just yet.
“I get really really jealous,” the older admitted and leaned forward, head now finally on his shoulder again. Jungkook saw Yoongi raised a brow at them but at this point Jungkook was drunk.
Not on alcohol but Jimin.
“Can I be selfish?”
He gave out a weak laugh as he felt Jimin’s arms snake through his waist, under his blazer. “Hyung, you’re drunk,” he said and tried to regain focus for both of them. Tried to pry the fingers that gripped him which caused the other’s attention to lead back to his face. The confused and questioning look.
“Can I ask you to be patient with me?”
Jungkook gulped as Jimin’s face inched closer. This was what he’d been waiting for but somehow felt that this was going the wrong direction. He couldn’t even understand the words the older was muttering so close right in front of his face.
“When I hit you, just hug me.”
His brows met, not understanding where this conversation is heading but he still nodded for the sake of pleasing Jimin’s wanton.
“I love you, Jungkook-ah,” he confessed.
And it might’ve been the alcohol speaking but his eyes seemed like he truly meant it.
“Children, let’s call it a night. Both of you.” Hoseok appeared crouched beside them and wedged an arm in between to shove some distance. To give Jungkook a breathing space and to force Jimin to drink water.
“Look at him glare. Are you going to kill me for getting in between you two?” Hoseok clicked his tongue and hit the base of the glass of water on Jimin’s head. Jungkook instinctively reached up to keep the older hyung from punishing Jimin any further.
Hoseok glanced at him with a shake of his head, placing the glass of water in front of Jimin’s face. Jimin remained silent and obediently sipped.
“Yoonjae-ssi is already looking at you.”
“Jimin-hyung is really drunk right now.” Jungkook attempted to mollify, eyes quite pleading.
As much as he knew that Jimin was in the wrong, both of them were in the wrong, a company dinner was never the time and place to announce a relationship. More so by kissing in front of everyone just like what he’d seriously thought of doing when Jimin said to him for the first time that he loves him.
No. Jungkook knew which lines he shouldn’t cross.
However, it was almost automatic for him to be in a defensive stance when people would start berating Jimin like this.
“Yoonjae-hyung already knows,” Jimin whispered. It confirmed Jungkook’s suspicions earlier and it seemed that Hoseok wasn’t happy to hear the news either.
“Ya… Park Jimin…” he was at a loss for words as Jungkook was.
Jimin shrugged as if he’d predicted the reaction.
Hoseok’s mouth was upturned by the offhanded way Jimin was delivering the news. His expression warred between wanting to hit the back of Jimin’s head and a little bit of helplessness over a split milk he knew he didn’t have control over.
“Let’s not have this conversation right now uh? We have a shooting tomorrow and you can’t be this drunk.”
Hoseok made an attempt to hoist Jimin up by his arms and Jungkook watched dumbly, unable to pinpoint how he should contribute. Jimin twisted his arms in a stubborn but futile attempt to get away. When he found himself struggling and slipping, he looked at Jungkook pleading. For what reason Jimin didn’t want to go, he had no idea.
“I…hyung, I’ll help,” Jungkook started to get up, hands reaching out to lift Jimin himself. His hyung didn’t hesitate to fling himself to the embrace.
Hoseok turned slowly as the scene unfolded, more with alarmed eyes as each second passed.
“Ya, Jungkookie, sorry about this” Hoseok ushered. “You bring him to the car. He’s so out of it.”
Jungkook nodded and whispered, “Hyung, let’s go home. I’ll carry you.”
They had to pry Jimin’s arms away, the man not wanting to let go without a moan of protest. Carefully, Jungkook turned around so that he could haul Jimin up on his back. His grip was vice like on his thighs, afraid that he would fall in his intoxication.
The trip was short outside the restaurant to their black van, their manager hyung on standby. Yoonjae appeared to have purposefully let himself be the last of their managers to leave perhaps for this sole reason. Jimin’s mouth was loose and he couldn’t stop clinging to Jungkook even as they got inside the vehicle.
Hoseok swayed beside him but kept his arms ready just in case Jimin would wake up and flail. He didn’t. Only glared daggers each time he tried to get Jimin off Jungkook. Jungkook thought the scenario would’ve been slightly different if it were Yoongi or Seokjin who came with them. Probably the reason the eldest members decided to stay put despite the fact that Hoseok’s face was redder than them from alcohol. Typically, Hoseok would be most patient when it comes to Jimin. Even more patient than Jungkook was.
“Hyung, it’s fine. I won’t go anywhere,” Jungkook muttered against Jimin’s ear. It might’ve been the words that he needed because Jimin’s grip on his arm gradually began to loosen as he sagged against him.
“Did you fight before coming here?” Hoseok asked, his eyes closed with his head leaned back on the car’s headrest while his right hand massaged his temples.
Jungkook shook his head. “No… he was complaining about me not spending time with him but we didn’t really fight.”
“Jiminie…” Yoongjae spoke from the driver’s seat. From his periphery, Jungkook could see their manager glancing at the rearview mirror and shifting his gaze quickly back on the road.
Yoongjae had always been quiet, only responsive when Jimin would tease him about his height or being his personal manager. It should be refreshing to hear him initiate conversation but, knowing their predisposition, Jungkook felt a foreboding sense that what he’d bring up wouldn’t be any good news.
“He kind of saw a camera installed in his room,” he said hesitantly as he turned a corner right. “I thought it was Bang PD-nim’s idea, the way you were during debut. He has that side sometimes you know? Usually at this stage of your career, it’s when idols get caught up in scandals and I thought he was being careful.”
Hoseok motioned forward. Although his eyes still squinted to indicate that his headache wasn’t entirely gone, he seemed a little more alert. Jungkook was too. If Jimin’s drunkenness were any indication it was that bad, they should probably be checking this issue with the rest of the members.
“But then it was odd that it was only installed in Jimin and Hoseokie’s room,” Yoonjae continued more thoughtfully this time, looking as if he was attempting to unravel his thoughts in the process. “I tried to ask Sejin-hyung but I don’t think it was the company who installed it and, if they did, they would’ve let at least one of us know.”
His eyes glanced at them from the rearview once again. “So it’s either a fan or a reporter who entered the house. Jiminie has been thinking about it for weeks and I told him we’ll have it investigated. I thought he was stressed out because of privacy but the members were rarely home. I told him to just come clean if there is anything that could be held against him if anything gets out.”
After their manager let the story hang open, it was eerily silent in the van. They knew what Jimin had to come clean about.
Except for Jimin’s deep breath against the fabric of his chest and the silent hum of the van’s air conditioner, no one spoke. Jungkook didn’t know what to say and, when he glanced at Hoseok to look for an answer, his hyung seemed to find himself in a similar conundrum.
Jungkook figured this was perhaps the reason why Jimin had been kicking him out of his room the past couple of weeks. He’d been frustrated how his hyung would play him dirty. Like how he’d touch Jungkook and leave him wanting thereafter. As if it wasn’t enough that they had to consistently keep themselves at bay in front of the members. Jimin would pull him in and push him away just for the sake of keeping him on the edge of his seat.
“We never did anything in their room.”
Was that what it was all about?
“Ah, that…” Yoonjae drummed his hand over the steering wheel as they waited for the traffic light to turn green. “Jimin said he talks about you a lot and…well. You know he sometimes… ”
Hoseok sighed from where he sat. “I can’t believe I’m hearing this right now.”
Jungkook tilted his head, unable to grasp what it meant.
Yoonjae shook his head. “He’s really totally different when he talks about you, it has me worried sometimes. He likes you more than you think.”
Hoseok mentioned it in passing before. He wondered what Jimin would say when he wasn’t around that it would worry people. The way Jungkook sees it, Jimin barely changed when they started going out. He still had the tone of the hyung he used to know. It wasn’t like Jungkook hated it. He liked being taken cared of, but he wished Jimin would stop treating him like a kid so they’d stop arguing about it.
“What does Jimin-hyung say about me?”
“He talks about wanting you a lot so he was worried if anything was being recorded, he’d be in deep trouble.”
Wanting him.
“You may want to cover your ears Hoseokie, but this part is important.”
Hoseok let out a low laugh but motioned an encouraging hand. “Manager-nim, at this point, I think I could handle anything.”
“Well, he said he masturbated over some clips and might’ve said Jungkook’s name.”
“Aigoo… ” Hoseok muttered. “Jiminie really…”
“More than once.”
As for Jungkook, he really had no idea. What to say because. How much of this did Jimin want him to hear? Apart from the time he gave him blowjob by the practice room, Jimin never initiated anything sexual with him again.
“Anyway,” Yoonjae said as he pulled over and tugged at the hand break when they arrived in front of their house at Gangnam. “He unexpectedly overshared but I had to know to make sure we can cover any tracks. I had the camera checked and it didn’t seem like it could record sounds, just activities. I guess Jiminie still couldn’t get it out of his head and it’s confusing him because he seems to like you so much but fans want to know even your private lives and he needs to be careful.”
Their home looks silent and empty from the outside with the lights turned off. Yoonjae opened his door from the driver’s side and jogged towards the gates to open them.
Hoseok shifted and studied them. The way his eyes focused on Jungkook’s face to study his expression and his arms that encircled around Jimin’s torso to keep him in place. “Okay,” he said, seemingly relieved.
Jungkook tilted his head, curious to inquire what was ‘okay’. The situation didn’t appear okay in Jungkook’s head. He’d have to check if there were cameras in his room too. Just to be sure.
“I mean you don’t seem…scared of Jimin. So I guess that’s one load off my chest,” Hoseok clarified. “You know, when he told me back then that he likes you… I thought it was an innocent normal crush, the kind that would make him blush. Not that blushing was out of the question but Jiminie really likes you. He told me he’ll see this through. He wants to do everything. All the way. With you.”
Jungkook nodded at what may be an implication too awkward for his hyung to clearly define.
“I mean, I’m not judging it but I can’t help but put myself in your shoes. Like how would I react if someone close to me likes me that much? I thought it might scare you away. You know, you’re still a kid in my eyes. Both of you are. But I’m glad you don’t seem scared.”
And here he thought it was Jimin who caged him in the role of a kid. He still smiled because Hoseok still went through lengths to empathize with their situation.
“You probably think it’s a burden because you don’t have feelings for him. I like him too, hyung.”
“That’s right…”
His free hand fiddled with his fringes. “Well… we have different standards. I haven’t really thought much about what Jimin-hyung really wants. But we did it once in the practice room and–”
“Okay, maknae-yah stop right there,” Hoseok raised a hand just in time when their Manager came back to open the driver’s seat. “No need to go in detail.”
Yoonjae laughed and so did Jungkook. Thinking about it, it would be weird to hear the sexual lives of other members. All the more so when it was two members from the same group.
“We’ll be more careful.”
…To be continued
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Notes: Hey, if you’ve reached this part…thank you. This chapter isn’t done yet actually…I just wanted to get something out. I’m picking up my laptop again after so many months because I got more time. And I guess an ounce (bucket loads) of courage. I hope to enjoy sharing my stories again with this fandom! Thank you for reading.
A whole new fic?! I'm excited af, can't wait to read it. 💕
No bb haha i just made insight available cause i keep missing the asks here on tumblr. But yeah, I'll try to write again cause i have some free time :)
Hi! I read chapter 1 of insight and was sad to see the rest has been hidden on AO3. I saw some others asking about it and it seems your ok with giving copies? If it’s ok could I get one as well? If so my email is Giambatistam@gmail Thanks either way!
Sorry i only answered this now.
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Hello! I just encountered your Insight Jikook fanfic on Ao3 but saw it was a mystery work? I don’t even know what that means. Is there anywhere where I can read it? I really adore the premise!
Hello, i just made it available in Ao3... sorry for only replying now just saw your message.
Hey there, I'm really dying to read Insight and I was hoping you could send me a copy? Chapter 1 was too good! I'm a relatively new Jikook shipper and I hope you can let me read it. Thank you so much! :-)
Hey thanks for the message. Please send me your email through dm. I'll just send you a copy 👍
oh noooo you should definitely post insight!!!! chapter 1 was awesome and im so intrigued as to how you continued the story!! do you know when youre gonna post the rest? or just kinda having a bit of anxiety because its hard and weird to put your heart and soul into a story and then put it out into the universe for people to read? like a mama bird letting her baby birds fly away :)
I doubt I'll ever post it again im sorry 😂 send me a message I'll just give you a copy.
am i late to the game here or something? i was reading ch1 of insight but cant find the rest? :'(
haha it's just recently that i finished that fic so i won't really say you're late! It's just that im not confident enough to keep it public for the internet to read/see. Thanks for showing interest. I really appreciate it. 🤗
hi!! vmon shipper here - i'd really REALLY like to read insight (the lack of vmon long fics is astonishing tbh) for them and also jikook :') is there any way i can access it? it's totally ok if there isn't tho! thanks!!
Hey... Thanks for sending this ask and showing interest to my fic. But yeah I've decided I'm not confident enough to keep it public on ao3. I'll continue loving vmon and jikook from the sidelines 🙃
