things i want out of fem!karma
because no, it’s not just a female version of karma, it’s so much more. things are not the same for you when you’re a girl. life is not the same.
karma hating her teachers not just because they only care about her grades, but because they won’t believe what she says, tell her that she’s wrong because “girls are so emotional, they overreact to everything”
karma being violent af and everyone scolding her for not being ladylike and proper but when it’s a boy somehow that’s badass and hot
karma runs around everywhere when she’s a little girl and she loves to explore, climb trees and jump across roofs and play games in the woods with her friends, and her mother scolds her for tearing her dresses and getting dirt on her knees
karma is easily bored, sorry if she doesn’t want to listen to some dude in his ‘40s prattle on about lawnmowers or how shitty millennials are, she’d rather be playing video games or reading books or exploring the outdoors instead. she jiggles her knees a lot and never stays still and she can’t understand the problem with that.
whenever karma asserts herself as a leader she gets called bossy by the boys she’s working with and that’s why she so often hides her ability as a leader. it’s better to work alone, anyway, no annoying boys who try to assert their dominance or doubt her abilities when she’s clearly the smartest one here.
karma beats the shit out of boys who try to kiss her without her consent and she’s told you should be flattered that he likes you and she has to pretend to be sorry for what she did but she’s not, not ever
karma’s mom telling her not to be out alone after dark and after karma finds out why, that’s how she becomes so good at fighting, because she’s scared and she has to learn how to defend herself. (she starts using her fighting techniques in other ways later)
karma is quick to anger and quick to violence, and people always complain about how emotional she is, how she needs to learn to be politer and milder and more patient. eventually karma stops getting angry and learns to hide it beneath a mask of cool aloofness because no she’s not angry, she just finds you fucking pathetic and she thinks it’s hilarious.
karma’s mom is worried because that girl’s so sure of herself and it’s off-putting, how is she ever going to get a boyfriend with that cocky attitude? (karma doesn’t give a shit though, why the fuck should she care about boys? she has okuda and she’s really cute, and she has nagisa who definitely doesn’t care if karma’s cocky, + plenty of other options)
speaking of that: karma meeting nagisa
nagisa explains that yeah, he doesn’t like being forced to look like a girl but there’s nothing wrong with it in and of itself, and karma feeling relieved because she feels like everyone would be so much more okay with her in general if she was a boy
karma being brilliant and violent and talented and used to boys getting jealous because a girl can’t be better than me, i have to be better, but nagisa doesn’t care — admires it, even — and karma appreciates that so much
bonus: nagisa thinks it’s great that karma likes superhero movies. she’s not a fake geek girl to him.
she comes to class 3-E and her faith in the one teacher she trusted has been shattered — she’s just an overreacting teenage girl all over again, not a serious student — and her eyes are hard and her smile is playful but not alluring, not seductive, because she’s tired of being a pleasure to be consumed and she hates korosensei the moment she sees him because another authority figure who sees himself as so much more powerful than she is
but — he’s not so bad after all. he takes karma seriously, he cares about her as a student, and she decides she’s willing to trust him, just a little bit.
nagisa is friends with her again, and that means something, although she’s not sure where their friendship is at
karma places 4th on the first midterms, and everyone gapes at her. no one cares that she’s a girl; they just all care that she’s staying. that she beat the kids in the main building, and she’s staying with 3-E.
okajima dares to crack a joke about karma’s appearance, and karma punches him in the face. no one really scolds her.
rio talks about how she just wanted to be like everyone else and that’s why she tried to seem less smart than she really was. karma relates to that a little more than she should. when rio scores first in english, karma hates herself for how badly she did, but she still stops by rio’s desk to give her a high-five.
when she fucks up in the first finals, she hates korosensei for a while. she thinks, another guy who’s smug about getting to prove me wrong, about putting me in my place. but she gets over it. she takes his advice, she springs back up again, and it’s so worth it to look at a wide-eyed gakushuu asano and his cronies and give them a glittering sharp fuck-you smirk because yeah, she’s definitely in her place now: first place.
karma wants to fight grip and the assassin’s scoff turns up the corners of his lips as he surveys her, and this time, it’s not just because she’s a teenager. she makes sure to hit him extra hard, just for that.
in the civil war arc, she’s the leader and everyone actually listens to her for once and she realises how important that is to her. and that’s why, in the end, she finally listens to nagisa.
when korosensei dies, the boys cry too. everyone’s emotional.
when korosensei dies, a little bit of her shatters into pieces, but the friends she’s made are there for her. friends she can trust, not boys who try to kiss her because “i’m a boy and you’re a girl so doesn’t that mean we’re supposed to be in love?” okuda. nagisa. rio. and so many more.
when karma grows up and becomes a bureaucrat, she isn’t taken as seriously at her workplace because she’s a woman. she proves them wrong so, so fast.
