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Wave nouveau.

A cold wave perm that I had installed and if you read my previous blog. It was how the first salonist installed it and I hated it. There was no difference between it and the natural hair journey. That was in Kenya.

My hair journey followed me to Newyork, Westchester where I now stay and I googled the shop that specifically does wave nouveau and I went there praying for the person to know about…

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#African natural hair #blackwoman #curly perm #hair beauty #wavenoveau #waveperm

I have never felt so black in my life.

Coming from an African country and surrounded by black community and I got to America and it doesn’t hit me. I am with my mother or sisters but then my aunty travels and asks me to babysit her grandchild. The grandchild to her white husband and that little bubble hit me so hard.

My self consciousness was ringing bells when he picked me up with the…

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Two hours later...

Two hours later…

Two hours later after my very long procedure in which i ditched the natural hair journey only to end up back to natural hair. Wave nouveau. The curly perm that had been my new obsession. My friend has it and her hair looks bad ass and i wanted it too, Only the outcome wasn’t so different. I looked everywhere in town and ending up and thinking finally a salon that has the products and a…

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#African natural hair #beauty #curly perm #hair beauty #natural hair

Death After big chop (2)

Now last year on the same day I made a post about my big move on chopping my hair. Let me tell you. The journey is so far showing me amazing things. I will not lie to you. It hasn’t been all that amazing. The first months were like I was going through withdrawals. It was hard. Omfg it was hard. I lacked self esteem and As much as I am happy about it now. It was never easy then. I didn’t have a…

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#African #African natural hair #beauty #big chop #hair cuts #natural hair

Having just watched p to Jk Japanese movie where a 16 year old girl's relationship with a 26 year old police where it would have been awesome if they had chemistry or the movie its self had plot but it did not. *sigh*

And I am not talking about girlfriend boyfriend relationship. I am talking about meeting parents and asking for her hand in marriage relationship.

16...26...

I kept laughing because this was a movie that was unrealistic and for me to say it's unrealistic. That's huge. I'll check out the manga. Perhaps their would be chemistry.

I remember this. I had felt raw. I felt lost... I knew I wanted them to fight for our nine year friendship but it ended in an hour, it had hurt so fucking much. No argument. To this day...I wonder if they put the value on this friendship the way I did. I wanted them to be angry and tell me. That way I would have known something but not this bs about if that's what I feel. Was I the only with a heart to feel? Anyway... I am feeling emotional. I wanted them to tell me everything...but I guess this is what it means by friendship been over.

#friends #relationships #heartbreak #random

So. Jamie and sassenach reunited.

He fainted...

I would have laughed but can not.

What if he has a terminal illness? (Spitting out the bad voodoo on my tongue). I hope he thought of her a lot and just could not believe it.

#outlander #jamiefraser

Selfish friends?

What is that?

The kind of friendship where one always talks about herself? Always makes it about her? Never asking a bout the other.

I understand. I really do but what if you have that friend who never shares? The one that knows all of story even to grandmothers six husbands names but never do you know if her dad lost his job or her sister came home in a temper. Small details.

You don't know anything and you end up been the one who overshares and you are the one feeling as if you did not care but honestly there is a limit to how long someone is going to fake that they do not care about how much you do not tell her. Friendship gets exhausting when it's one sided.

#friendship #random

Too rich for me, to poor for her.

I had a friend who we stopped talking mainly because to her I was probably mooching off her. Given she was from a wealthy background but girl always had to go expensive places. I asked her severally for us to go to cheaper place, but it was not her style and I felt guilty because she always wanted to hang out in malls and eat at malls and I could not keep asking for cash so that I could just hand out with her...and so most of the time she would buy and at one point she raised an eyebrow at me when she asked how much I had and I had wondered. Do we have to go eat there?

Conversation was not lacking nor was the connection or the fact that we shared a lot of similar things. I just did not have that much pocket money.

And I wish she would had just relented and understood that I distanced myself most of the time because I did not want to make her feel like an ATM bank.

#friendship #random

Dear Korean drama. It's been three months since my last Korean drama. I am doing my very best to avoid social sites. Mainly drama fever updates. I have un followed Korean drama accounts from my Instagram. Not that I want to abstain from Korean drama its just the WiFi bill is bloody expensive. I am now focusing on the American TV shows where the man isn't faithful to one girl the whole damn series. As he switches girls or she switches guys. There is no tradition. No respect where when she introduces the man to her family. It's officially written on the stones. He is the one she is going to marry. No. This American TV shows are only good when it comes to action and investigation. *sigh* It got worse. My DVD player is throwing a tantrum. I can't even watch now a TV series. I was watching Sleepy Hollow and secretly hoping Crane and his Left tenant to have some romance action pushing the annoying Katrina aside but the DVD is now spoiled. and now I am on wattpad trying to find a good book to read. Preferably a book that the point of view of the guy doesn't sound as if the man is turning into a girl. Or a book with million readers but you can't go past chapter 1 because it's like it has been written by some teen who thinks 24 is the age where the man owns a billion dollar company and is "responsible" and is hot. Yeah...or the girl is Anna Steele finding job and the author trying so fucking hard to be the next E.L James and all I get is really annoying main characters and a book that's now worth its million reads.

#rant #koreandrama #kdrama confession #wattpad #wattpadconfession #sleepyhollow

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Okay. Japanese Yaoi mangas will always take the top but them Korean webtoons...lezhin comics are on a whole other level that I am loving. The Yuri ones especially. 😍😍😍😍😍 and the BL too...

#bl #yaoi #yuri #webtoons #lezhin

Perhaps everyone thinks that for some the greatest word is love but there is a word that have us to our knees and by us I mean kdrama addicts. Asian drama addicts. No. It’s not love. It is the word ENGSUB. It is not proper English but it is special to us.

#kdrama #koreandrama #asiandrama #love #engsub #japanesedrama #chinesedrama

Today I took a shower and was preparing to go back to read a book I was reading and I was asked how I spent my day and I realized I was a spinster in training or house wife material because my day included knitting then gardening and I sat on the porch drinking tea as i admired my gardening and then I went back to finishing this diy weaving thing I saw on Pinterest... I am 24 and my introvert life is now just extreme. It is the most satisfying schedule I could ever have.

#introvert #random #life