Welcome To My Mind

29. New York girl now living in an Arizona world. Here’s my story and new journey 🖤

[difficult]

[binverloreninderwelt]

“You think you know me. I wish I did too. ‘Cause everything’s changing and I am changing too”

— Highly Suspect, Wolf

[mycrewisdope]

[besitoschris]

little one//highly suspect

[monsterexhibit]

Highly Suspect

[believinginmex3]

My Krav Maga instructor’s posted this on their Instagram page tonight and I had to share it because I relate to it on such a personal level. Just shy of 9 months ago I picked up my life and moved across the country to start fresh. A few months in, me and my sister decided to start this fitness class, Krav Maga. I never heard of it in my life and I was very adamant to do a group workout because how low my self-esteem, confidence and self worth was. I’ve been in this class now about 4 months, and also working with my Dr’s meal plan and have dropped about 30 pounds. I never thought I’d be taking a self defense/cardio/strength training class in my life.

Tonight at the end of class one of my instructors, Stephanie, came up to me and told me how much I have improved since I started the class, and how she can see how my self-esteem and confidence has improved. She also told me I am looking amazing and she can see how much weight I have dropped and how fit and toned I am beginning to become. My family tells me this all the time, but it really means something when a stranger says this to you, and especially my bad ass Krav instructor. Whenever her or Matt say anything to me about doing well or improving it literally makes me want to push myself ten times harder than I could ever imagine.

I look back at the old me and wonder how I let myself get so unhealthy and how weak I was. How easily I caved into making terrible decisions and how low I thought of myself. I am now this bad ass wolf who takes my deepest insecurities and fears head on and fights them until my last breath. I am so proud of the person I am becoming, and this class has truly changed me. Any other person may think it’s some silly workout class that they never even heard of, but this class and my instructors have truly helped me change my life around. I really hope I can take these skills one day and utilize them into a real scenario and protect myself and my loved ones.

I may not always be perfect, I may not eat perfect all the time and go to class 3 days a week like I’m supposed too, but I really can say tonight that I am happy and proud, and I can’t wait to push myself even harder tomorrow and for the rest of time. If only matt and Stephanie truly knew how much they were impacting people’s lives.

[sixpenceee]

[macabregoddess]

Mood: 🎃🍬💀👻🍫🍂👽🖤☕🍁🌧🏕📚⚰🔮🌙👿

[doktorgirlfriend]

Brain: You’re a horrible, worthless, garbage person, and your life is going nowhere but to hell.

Me: I don’t know what the fuck you expect me to do about that at 11PM, my dude.

[mi-sch-ka]

Lydia - Highly Suspect

[peachghosts]

Highly Suspect // Serotonia (x)

[mycrewisdope]

[cursed-tears]

Lydia lyrics by the absolute best band ever aka Highly Suspect

[mycrewisdope]

[kgfrocks]

Johnny Stevens

[monsterexhibit]

Highly Suspect

[svshvkorpi]

[believinginmex3]

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Posting this today for my Warrior. This song has always hit home, and meant so much to me. So sad to hear the tragic news of not only you relapsing, but ending up in the hospital. Keep on fighting and never give up. You taught me how to be a warrior and overcome some of my worst demons. I believe in you. #StayStrong #Warrior #DemiLovato #Lovatic