Morally Ambiguous

We live in different worlds, yet you are effected by us every single day.

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An eventful few months

You might notice I've been silent these past few months.  I had better things to do.  But it's time for some reflection and a little self-congratulations.

Firstly, my landlord tried to press me for more money as I had a special someone staying over on a regular basis.  I was already paying more than I should have, so I came down on him hard and sent him running.

He's not the sort of man to confront people head on though, so when I heard he was looking for an excuse to evict me, I was unsurprised.  I am not the sort of person to take that laying down though, so I reported him to every agency available, the council, even the parliament.

I've since moved, and upon leaving he took his stupidity to its logical conclusion, he illegally withheld my bond.  I had a good laugh at that and doubled my efforts.  He is now under investigation from the tax office, tenants authority, police, council and the health and safety board.  He has also lost the rights to advertise on his usual haunts due to a few anonymous complaints.

The part that really puts a spring in my step is that the council is taking his licence and the tenants authority have stated that his offences so far are too serious for a fine and will be forced to go to prosecution instead.  A potential jail sentence.

But that was simply a bit of fun.  My industry is marketing, though I am not actively working in that field.  I approached my current employer with a proposal that would see his sales triple in the next 3 months, for a commission.  He refused as I am not employed as a sales rep, and they don't allow anyone but sales reps to earn commission.

I laughed and have since used their own ridiculous profit margin against them, by buying the components off them, assembling them, and selling them directly to the consumer taking the assembly price as my own commission (around 100% markup from component price).  The best part?  Assembly is a 5 minute task, which he pays me for regardless of whether or not he is making that profit.

In essence, I market the product under my own newly formed company name, undercutting them on all of their advertising mediums, I place the orders with their company, deliver it on their time (which the customer happily pays for aswell) and assemble the items, taking half the cash from the sale.  I spend nothing, and earn more on each sale than the company does.

They are so happy with the influx of new sales that I have provided that they are now training me to deal with their suppliers aswell.  Another nail in their coffin when I can source the components directly.

I'll let them be our supplier for a time though, it wouldn't be very nice to drive them out of business while still working for them... They are family after all.

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Unequivocal victory on all fronts.

You might notice I've been a little quiet lately.  Well that's because I have barely had a minute these last few days to think, let alone toying with tumblr.

Yesterday was the culmination of quite a few plans, all of which succeeded magnificently.

I've been perusing a woman that has caught my eye.  Witty, pointed and a little cruel.  Just what I like.  We've been spending joyous hours insulting each other in increasingly complicated and hurtful barbs.... But more about that later.

One of her favourite insults was that I was a poor love-maker, and likely premature.  She stayed the night on Thursday and I proved her oh so wrong.

It was that time of the month, so we couldn't even have sex (due to her squeamishness, not my own).  I pleasured her without even taking an article of clothing off.

She's since been telling everyone that will listen that I am a god.  I don't disagree.

That put me in a good disposition before even getting out of bed that morning.  But I jumped on the laptop during my morning coffee, and noticed that I had quite a few messages on reddit.

A couple of days earlier I had noticed my ex post a fairly unflattering description of me in a thread about breakups.  I decided to write the full story, as objectively as possible, in response to the same comment as she did.

I woke up having been bestof'd, gilded thrice and at well over 2000 upvotes for the post.  She even noticed and tried to put in her opinion, which was either downvoted or ignored.

But then it was off to work.  That day I led my team to complete a deadline my boss had thrown out as a joke.  The victory had such a dramatic build up and climax that I may detail it later.

With enough careful planning, things simply come together.

It's put a massive dent in my free time lately, but don't worry, I'll be back in a worthwhile capacity shortly.

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I'm actually moving forward on a plan at the moment, and didn't have time to make a real post.  I'll 'whine on my blog' later.

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My own malevolent desires

This blog is turning out to be a mixture of advice and explanations, and a bit of a diary for my exploits and plans.

You might notice the most fucked up things I share are from my childhood.  And there will be more.  Lots more.

As I child, I was much less... Shall we say... Controlled, than I am now.  It's not that I don't still feel those same urges, I just don't follow through on the ones that are likely to inhibit me or cause irritations later on down the track.

Enjoy the saunter down memory lane, some of the hi-jinx I pulled off as a younger man are nothing short of diabolical genius, others are simply petty and cruel.  All of them will likely be written in a way that fires your imagination...

But don't think they are logical solutions to problems you yourself might face.  First of all, I doubt most of you could pull them off successfully... Because I didn't, many times.  Mostly though, it's simply because we live in a different world than the one I was brought up in.

Now, everything is documented and permanently archived.  It is much easier to trace the source of a situation than ever before.  Empaths are also much more aware of our impact, regardless of whether they attribute it to us specifically or not.

If you must utterly annihilate an annoyance, keep in mind that you are under much closer scrutiny than the sociopaths of yesteryear, and formulate your plans accordingly.

You must find a way to completely cover your tracks, which means your machinations must not be traceable over any form of electronic communication.  No Facebook updates or messages either triggering an event or exposing your ploy, no emails, no paper trail whatsoever.

Even if it does not come back to bite you for the contrivance in question, you may find yourself under scrutiny at any point in your life, and you want nothing that will identify you as a threat.

Use aliases, untraceable phones, proxies if it's a seriously malevolent plot, and especially, other people to do the dirty work for you.

A successful sociopath identifies the obstacles he or she faces, and overcomes them.  Don't get complacent.  Always stay vigilant when planning intrigue.

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My Ultimate Goal Part 3

Preparation is absolutely necessary.  Analysing your options, discovering and preparing for risks or weaknesses, both crucial to success.  But more important is the actual plan.

All three selected avenues for success are at this stage, nothing but theories.  Considerable research and advancement will need to be made to achieve any of them.

Due to the fact I do not plan to share the advancements, especially immortality, with anyone other than those select few I feel I could put up with for eternity, I would need a private research facility dedicated to the cause.

It would need to be staggered across different departments and incredibly secretive to prevent leakages.  This would require multiple facilities.

Research facilities, especially those that are focused on anything other than commercial applications are huge money sinks, they need to be funded from external sources, and the influx of funds needed is a considerable amount.

The only way to receive enough funding for a private research endevour is either crowdsourcing, or corporate sponsorship.  Crowdsourcing is not a viable option, as that would require disclosure of the goal, or at least part of the goal.  That leaves corporate sponsorship.

This means I will need to control a corporation with a substantial profit margin to support my goals.

Control of a corporation can be achieved in a myriad of ways, working up the ladder from the bottom, starting it from scratch, or hostile takeover.

Personally, I prefer the latter two.

Luckily, with the advent of the internet, creating instant wealth is easier than ever before.  A simple idea that goes viral can create billionaires almost overnight.

This is the stage I am at now.  Though I am completely self sustaining with my own investments, it will need to snowball considerably before I can even consider throwing money at the end game for my ultimate goal.

Currently, I am working two fronts to increase the funds under my control.  I am taking over an established company in an expanding industry, and increasing the market share of one of the companies I formed.

It's not a quick process, it takes much trial and error, research and dedication.  But improvements and gains are being made faster and faster.

Luckily I got started quite young.

The plan as it stands, from this point in time is this:

1. Learn the skills necessary for starting a company, running a company, destroying a competing company and taking over an existing company (Completed)

2.  Gain control of an established company in a vulnerable industry (partially completed)

3.  Create a company with a focus on rapid expansion and profit (partially completed)

4.  Increase the profitability of the most viable company until it can support a substantial RnD program (in progress).

5.  Begin research on all available avenues for successful completion of goal (not started).

The plan is simple, the details and execution are not.  I could write for weeks about the intricate details of each step of the plan.  Instead, I will offer this piece of advice for my fellow heavily ambitious sociopaths:

Make a definite plan.  Start to finish from where you are now to the achievement of your goal.  Make sure every single serious decision you make will further your progress to that goal.  Regularly reflect on your progress and identify/eliminate weaknesses.  Discard any personal traits or associations that delay or obstruct your goal.

Keep your focus, and you can achieve what everyone else believes to be impossible.  

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My Ultimate Goal Part 2

Immortality is a state that has been theorised and pursued since the dawn of humanity.  So how is one, albeit brilliant, sociopath going to achieve it, where millions have failed?

Luckily for me, I was born into a time of rapid increases in our technological capabilities and understanding.

But even with all the advances that we have made, it may still require generations of research and testing.  So I need an immediate option, in case I die before reaching my goal.

To prevent untimely true death, I have fail-safes in place.  

Cryogenic Freezing:  Though the technology is still in its infancy, cryogenic freezing is one of the best bets to being resurrected if I meet an untimely end.  Along that though process, I have insured myself with a cryogenics program that will store me indefinitely upon my death. 

DNA Sequencing: Though my genes are simply the building blocks for my being, and without my specific experiences, anything created from it would not be 'me', I have my entire genetic code stored in a database.  If nothing else, my sequence has a chance of living again.

Sperm Donations: Though any offspring of mine would only have half of my genetic code, and none of my specific experiences, it provides a greater chance of a person closer to my mould being produced.  I donate as often as possible, wherever I can.

Death is the enemy, and every chance to increase my chances of survival, or bring forth another like myself is taken.

But these alone are simply backup plans, and will not bring about immortality.  Due to my fundamental pessimism about the abilities of others to bring about my desires, I am not a wait and see kind of guy.  So I have a plan to bring it about myself.

A plan I will outlay in Part 3.  

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What’s do you want?

One thing that seems to set successful sociopaths from everyone else (including unsuccessful sociopaths) is a wild ambition that they are working towards.

For me personally, it’s immortality. I’ll expand on how I plan to achieve this in the...

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My personal rather ‘insane’ goal, as it were. Is to perhaps someday have my own ‘little’ empire. So really, I need to study. Study. Study. Can’t have an empire without an education.

Very astute, though the education itself might be questionable.  Remember that all formalised education is solely developed to create good underlings. 

I made this mistake just out of school.  I focused on uni courses and training programs that were touted as perfectly relevant to my dreams.  But I ended up just wasting a few years making 0 progress towards my goals, learning skills I would never need to implement.

I can offer you some advice from experience, but first of all, what kind of empire and what are you studying?

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Tips for serial killers: we’re in a recession at the moment, so instead of throwing your victim’s bones away you can make them into a tasteful chandelier and save money.

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Good advice!

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I try and avoid reblogging jokes or fluff, but I couldn't resist with this one

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My plan to reach my Ultimate Goal 

We are all reaching for our goals, As I mentioned earlier, my goal is to achieve immortality.  Crazy?  Yes.  Cliche?  Yes.  Impossible?  Not even a little.

You see, there are many ways that immortality might be achieved, here is a short list of the ways I consider to be worth looking into:

Biological Immortality:  Using either genetic manipulation or doses of chemicals to halt biological ageing and seamlessly replace damaged cells.

Mind Transplantation:  Completely transferring the mind from a damaged or worn out body into a younger, healthier specimen (whether clone or sacrificial victim).

Mind Upload:  Uploading the mind to be hosted on a completely digital format, such as a supercomputer.

All three offer a viable course for immortality, but each has its weaknesses as a solution.  

Biological immortality does not account for disease, as a virulent enough disease or virus might be able to outpace the hosts regenerative properties.  Nor does it account for excessive physical trauma, a simple car accident could kill the host, regardless of physical health milliseconds prior to the accident.  And, it could only be a temporary solution.  A brain has a storage bank just like any other computer.  Eventually, that would be filled, and information would need to be deleted to store new memories, and it's unknown how the brain would manage that.

Mind transfer has the same weakness with sudden accidents, though has more defense against disease.  It also requires a suitable victim. That means the brain of the sacrifice would need to be developed enough to encompass the mind of the host.  For clones, that means years of development, for victims, it means rigorous testing and study.  This may make it unfeasible in a crisis situation.  If the clone is too young, or a suitable victim cannot be found,  there are few options.  It also suffers the same restrictions of memory bank size.

Mind Upload also has it's own innate problems.  A completely digitalised mind would encounter a completely different environment to a biological brain.  External and internal stimulus would be dramatically altered without complex emulators.  The programming would almost certainly be buggy, especially at first, leading to unpredictable losses in either memory or function.  It would also be limited by the processing power of the hardware used, meaning time perception would either be slower or faster than the original biological mind was acclimatised to.  It may also lead to a dramatic shift from the original personality of the mind, which would mean the 'death' of the mind, to be replaced by another.

But life is risk, so eternal life must too.

Personally, my preference is mind upload.  It would allow for nigh-unlimited memory expansion and processing speeds, aswell as allowing backups and reincarnation seeds.  Besides, everything is simply information in different formats, what matter if it be digital or physical?

Regardless, talking about theoretical immortality is one thing, working towards it is another.  So how do I plan to achieve it?

You'll need to wait for part 2.

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What's do you want?

One thing that seems to set successful sociopaths from everyone else (including unsuccessful sociopaths) is a wild ambition that they are working towards.

For me personally, it's immortality.  I'll expand on how I plan to achieve this in the next post.

But for now, I want to know, what's your 'insane' life-goal?

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Sociopaths and friendship

Now, the concept of sociopaths and real friendship is an interesting one.  How can someone who feels no empathy and puts on a mask for everyone they meet actually have what you could consider a 'real' friendship?

Well it's not easy, but it can and does happen.

It usually starts out because the sociopath in question wants something from the target.  Whether that be sex, financial aid, a wingman, or any other reason we prey on other people.

If the target puts up a reasonable resistance, or has long term usefulness, we might end up putting a considerable amount of time into that person.  And as we know, the longer we keep a mask on, the more entrenched in it we become.

If we enjoy the mask we put on for that person, whether it be because it motivates us to succeed, puts us in situations we wouldn't normally find ourselves in, or provides benefits outside the 'friendship', we can find ourselves developing a strong attachment to the mask, and therefore the person that inspires it.

It's not quite the same, but you'll find that sociopaths are among the most loyal friends you can possibly have... If you are worthwhile for them to have as one.  We tend to protect our possessions with every fibre of our being, and friends are included in that.

I personally have two close friends at the moment, one sociopath, and one empath.  And they have been around for a long time.

Both started out when I was a teenager, and the goal for the chase both times was to sleep with them.  The sociopath was actually an incredibly easy mark, and I cut contact after about a month of communication.  I'd done what I wanted, there was no further need for her.

But years later, after a few too many beers at the pub, I bumped into her and drunkenly decided to mend a few fences.  Very soon we were incredibly close again.  And shortly after that, I discovered that we have very similar views on many things, and she was willing to argue just as fiercely as I like for the rest.

We've been close ever since.  She probably sees the closest thing anyone ever has of my true self.  And relate to it, as she is quite cold and calculating herself.  She could stand to be a bit more malicious and put some artistic flair into her schemes, but she's got the basics.

It's a tough friendship at times, as we do sometimes butt heads in the pursuit of certain goals.  And at these times I tend to charm her into leaving her current boyfriend or sexual partner, fuck her, and then crush her as a punishment... Which does tend to put a strain on our relationship.  But a long history of betrayal and revenge against each other has led to a strong core, and a grudging respect for each others triumphs over us.

The other is about as pure as empaths can get.  Bright, bubbly and naive to a fault.  Stunningly beautiful and incredibly kind-hearted, in the pursuit of her I found myself playing a most agreeable character.  She brings out an incredibly attractive persona in me that gives me insane drive and motivation, and dampens some of my more malevolent desires...  For a time at least.

Both allow me to get into a mindset and persona that I enjoy quite a deal, and though I wouldn't die for them, under the right circumstances, with enough groundwork to cover my tracks, I'd certainly kill for them.

Sociopaths need people too.  Not just targets and prey, but also people that bring forth attractive personalities in us that help us achieve our larger goals.

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*Glamour (via Bits of Truth)

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I have a different process.

1. Think of the goal of the conversation 2. Will it bring me closer to my conversational goal 3. Is it interesting enough to capture my audience 4. Will it increase my hold over the recipient 5. Will it come back to me later (if so, lock it into the memory bank).

Takes time and effort at first, but after a while, it just comes automatically and you can keep up with a fast paced conversation just as well as anyone else… While still playing them like puppets

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I mostly reblogged it for its quaintness. I do have to say though- Your blog is great. Just a few short days and I think you’re making me a better sociopath. My mask is repaired; more masks will come as necessary. A word of thanks to you.

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There's support available for almost every subgroup of people. From midgets to narcoleptics to alcoholics and everything in between. But, due to the nature of our... condition, there isn't much out there for people like us.

Not only do people like to either overdramatise what we do and who we are, but we ourselves tend to be reticent. Its just our nature

Imagine what the average sociopath could become with a bit of guidance from someone who has seen it, done it and felt it all before.

That's one part of what I'm trying to do. Put down all the things that took me years of struggling and trial and error to understand, so that younger sociopaths can identify their urges and abilities and use them productively.

Successful sociopaths control the world. I want to see more of them.

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*Glamour (via Bits of Truth)

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I have a different process.

1. Think of the goal of the conversation 2. Will it bring me closer to my conversational goal 3. Is it interesting enough to capture my audience 4. Will it increase my hold over the recipient 5. Will it come back to me later (if so, lock it into the memory bank).

Takes time and effort at first, but after a while, it just comes automatically and you can keep up with a fast paced conversation just as well as anyone else... While still playing them like puppets

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Tattoos and Sociopathy

We live in a changing culture.  People are becoming more accepting of alternative lifestyles, and tattoos are becoming much, much more common.

As a sociopath, you should avoid permanent things like tattoos or unhealing piercings like you would the plague...

Sure, some of them can look fucking incredible, but that's not the point.  A tattoo labels you.  Even if it's simply a pretty picture, people who see it will naturally assume certain things about you.

If you want to be able to succeed in ANY situation, you must be willing to sacrifice those selfish things that pigeon hole you.

Always remember, 'you' is a fluid concept.  The 'you' people need to see tomorrow might not like tattoos.

If you must, get a 1-2 year fading one in a non-visible place.  You can still show it off to those who would respond well to seeing it, and hide it from those who don't, while avoiding making a permanent decision that could cripple you in certain situations.

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Sociopaths are not victims

We create victims, we do not become them.  When a sociopath gets knocked down, it's nobodies fault but their own, regardless of the situation.

Sure, we can outwardly blame whoever we need to to appear like a victim to others, if it suits, but never believe it.

When you feel like a victim, you give the control and power to an outside force.  Like the government, school, your boss, a lover, a higher functioning sociopath etc. etc. etc.

You can't change what you have no control over.  Nor can you learn from it.

The only way to improve yourself, both as an individual and a predator is to take responsibility for everything in your life.  

Bad grades because you had a bad breakup?  You shouldn't have gotten so involved.

Got fired because your boss hated you?  You should have charmed him better.

Your stepfather raped you as a child?  You should have run faster.

Even in the situations where we have the least power, there is a way we could have gotten out of it, or avoided it before it happened.  Take responsibility, learn from it, and next time, you'll likely succeed. 

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Even if you've worked out all the angles, done everything exactly right, something outside your control can come along and lay to waste the best of your plans.

More likely though, is when you make a fuck up all on your own.

From what I've heard, one of the most intimidating factors of a self-aware sociopath is that we appear to plan for absolutely any outcome.  And fuck, don't we try.

Sometimes though, something so simple can trip us up, and make all that time and effort a wasted endevour.  In hindsight, it will make us cringe and rage and swear vengeance.  But there is a lesson to be learned.

Yesterday I discovered that the company I have been working so hard to infiltrate, still only promotes based on tenure.  Though I was assured that this was no longer the case, I was caught up in a lie, just as easily as anyone else might have been.

Recently I have been in a position with a great deal of power in the company, and I was ticking all the boxes.  I have the best team, give the fastest results, and have the least quality control issues.  And best of all, it was all being noted.

When talking to the direct superior of my supervisors about my performance, I directed the conversation to what interested me, officially moving up in the company.

I was informed that my performance was stellar, and I was definitely a shoo-in for a supervisor role...  In 3-5 years.  The job I was already doing...

When I voiced this, he agreed readily that I was already taking care of as much if not more than the actual supervisors, and they were glad to have me continue acting in that role, but that I would need at least another 3 years before I could officially move up into that position.

Apparently it has more to do with internal politics than it does with aptitude levels, he said the other supervisors would throw a fit if someone was promoted before their allotted time, and they had been working in the industry for decades after all.

This would not work out at all.  In 3 years I wanted to be well and truly done with this company.  After a discussion about what I could do in the meantime, apparently they wanted to send me to training and courses over the next few years, to ease me into the role, before making it official.

Because that training obviously produced such fantastic results in the past after all...

Perhaps this is one of the reasons why most sociopaths tend to gravitate towards cutthroat white collar positions.  There's no such thing as tenure in the backstabbing world of finance after all.

Back to the drawing board.  Disappointment seethes through my veins, but that will pass.

In the meantime, it might be time for some well deserved sabotage to thank them for the hospitality they have shown me over these past few months.

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Using your talents for profit

The world we live in runs on the most sociopathic concept of all.  Money.  If you combine your lack of empathy, your charm and your intelligence, it's easy to make.  Especially with the internet.

Though I often work in actual jobs, it's not necessary for my survival, it's simply a way to further my goals, or create new opportunities.  The internet pays my bills, and it can pay yours too.

Tumblr, for example, is a perfect platform for beginning to turn a measurable profit using the skills you have honed every single day.

Blogs like these will never be hugely popular.  Dark, macabre blogs have a small niche market, too small to make a profit easily.  So you need to create a different persona if you want to make some money.

It's really quite simple.  Find a niche with a large audience and create a blog dedicated to it.  Research the most popular blogs in that niche and design yours to suit.  

Play them like an instrument and start gathering as many followers as you can.  It's not hard if you are able to translate your innate charm to the online world.

Once you have reached a suitable number of dedicated followers, it's time to use them to inflate your wallet.  Personally, I throw in a few pay-per-click ads to the blog theme, and drip feed relevant revenue share amazon ads.

Once it's worth your while, keep it up and rinse and repeat, or move on to more complex manipulations of crowd logic.

For people like us, it's incredibly easy.  Try it and you will see.