sean

19 | gay | he/him | i like to yap about a certain character (guess who) | into anything

[bengilyo]

thinking of using this more, so here’s an intro.

hello im phere. sean. stratos. whatever name feels more comfy for you. im 19.

im very passionate about my interests, and i tend to get a bit obsessed with them. i cant really specify which ones i have, but whatever floods my space is what im more interested at the moment, it does change a lot, but im probably just gonna focus on yamato kisaragi here lol.

thats’s all. basic DNI. i dont rly have much to add, im more active on twitter yay.

[shsl-simp]

i need these boys to kiss or i will die

[w1ll-0-w1sp]

[rainymori]

He should wear more pink i think

[valvalentinnee]

i love ismene so much ahhhh

[jazz-kitty]

cant take him anywhere

[windsandstar]

when ur between two worlds or something

[bengilyo]

so i dont think yamatsuro it’s doomed, or toxic. it COULD be if yamato didn’t died during chapter 5, but in both chapter EX and a no killing game AU this shipp could be… normal, to an extent. they’re a secret 3rd thing.

so yeah, this pairing COULD be doomed and toxic in the “what if yamato survives chapter 5” scenario. yamato loves his classmates and even if utsuro and akane were part of them too, i don’t think he could see past this. not saying he would outright be horrible about this, but the resentment will be there. it will never leave. and that’s the route you could take in order to get the most angst, since the other routes this shipp could go are just troublesome but not completely sad.

both in chapter EX and the no killing game AU i could see them working out, in chapter EX it would be a TERRIBLE slow burn, but see my vision.

we know utsuro closed himself after realizing how much his luck could affect the people around him. he first saw it happen w his parents. He lost the value of his talent after seeing how artificial life was with it, using it to help ppl in order to feel “something” but it never came.

junko’s despair was a new feeling to him, something to crave, which is the reason why he choose to aid her in her plan. that’s my super duper summary of my utsuro’s character reading. anyway. he’s very closed off, at this point he has internalized that anyone who gets to get in touch with him will use him in some sort of way, his talent grants him the control but that’s not reassuring at all, it makes people unintentionally dehumanize him and he actually believes this! woah!

i think what utsuro has failed to realize is that he wasn’t at fault for what happened in his childhood, he was a kid and he only wanted to make his parents proud. he didnt got any guidance, which made the dehumanizing feeling continue to grow.

what utsuro needed was human company. and he was getting BETTER after entering hope’s peak. i know the flashback is meant to tell us that this was some big scheme he was planning since the beginning, but honestly? if he didn’t met junko i think he would have opened his heart a bit. eventually. i think this point its implied, he was starting to care for these people. he ultimately wanted the all to live, as shown in chapter EX. with some extra pushes, i dont we would have gotten the “bad ending” of his journey.

i mean i could say “omg utsuro you’re such a fake idgafer” but like i know how hard is to get in touch with your emotions, so the hit of eventually realizing he CARES about these people was probably a big thing for him, “if i wasn’t born broken, could i have lived a normal life?”

it’s a common phrase if you deal with these type of thoughts. what this give us its insight that utsuro isn’t fully evil, which yes, kinda obvious, and that does fuel about how, if they had more time, could’ve find a way to live a relatively normal life, recovery i mean.

uhm this is supposed to be a yamatsuro text post, so let’s dive into how i see his dynamic with him. we know yamato it’s a faker, he wants to be the leader and the reliable person everyone needs to have, not due to malice or control (like utsuro w the latter) but because he thinks these people NEED a light to rely on.

ever since he was young he probably grew up w this mentality, not a people pleaser but that one friend who you feel comfortable talking about your problems, but he never tells you about theirs.

an important detail is how he knew at first glance there’s something making utsuro act distant towards his new classmates, which yes, im aware im over analyzing this, but it’s interesting once you put on the lens by knowing yamato’s that kind of guy.

he can tell when something’s wrong, so it’s no wonder he could’ve been able to see the walls the more time they all spent with each other. yamato isn’t perfect, that’s something i know, but he’s the type of guy that, no matter what you did, he will try to see the good light out of it, or more like finding the “perfect” solution to their problem by thinking in advance.

that’s the main reason why i believe their relationship in the two scenarios i planted dont really inquire any toxic elements, id rather feel like they’d need TONS of communication and it’ll take a whole while for them to get on good terms in the chapter EX scenario, cuz by that point they did killed are the ppl in the lab + the kidnapping, like c’mon yamato’s that good of a guy but even for him this would take a bit to make amends.

the resentment will be there, but not as much as the kisaragi lives AU, i guess you could make this a bit toxic but overall i just feel like it would be “complicated” you see. i dont have anything else add, but i’ll try to expand more about this cuz i love their dynamic!

[loveformikako]

[goblin-the-clown]

Silly

Version without border under cut

[bengilyo]

yamarugi hc i feel that when these two started dating tsurugi was super adamant of keep it professional in front of their classmates but like he is.. terrible at hiding it. its almost embarrassing. yamato finds if funny cuz he is actually good at keeping it professional so he likes to tease tsurugi by doing exactly what he said.

both tsurugi and yamato are characters whom i feel internalize their emotions in different ways, so for tsurugi this would be the first time he’s in a comfortable place where he can allow himself to feel but at the same time dont want to show weakness, while yamato its more trained on this aspect, he’s like a pro at masking.

got this idea cuz, most likely due to the translation, tsurugi alternates between calling yamato by his name or last name 😭 its funny in retrospective i hate both of them.

[bengilyo]

DRA being as tragic as it is it’s lowk yamato’s fault and that’s a bit funny. if he was there the game would’ve probably ended up with a more hopeful outcome i believe.

i’m NOT saying he would’ve prevented the murders, saying he would be some sort of savior contradicts what i’ve come to learn about him, and like, that’s what he wants us to think but i do not believe him.

we know the memory wiping did leave the core feelings of them stay within them (ayame & akane’s friendship, haruhiko & satsuki, etc) so since he’s a natural leader, he would’ve been a great asset knowing he cares so much about everyone here so deeply.

like wow, even after his death he managed to help them come back from despair, encouraging them to keep going and helped them escape. what would’ve happened if he was actually there from the beginning?

(its so obvious love this certain scene so much)

i don’t blame yamato for wanting to have everything under control after learning the plan, he had good intentions.

he’s the consequences of wanting to grow up quickly in a character. i assumed he grew up with a lot of expectations he had about himself, like maybe he wasn’t pressured like it commonly happens with characters like him (knowing you’ll be the successor of something) but like he’s not blind, he knows what he has to do in order to become what people expect him to be even if its not told explicitly by them.

he needs to be a leader, perfect, reliable. it’s not superficial, we know he loves the people around him! to the point he even learns stuff they told him about. he’s an incredible guy, the plan of bringing his classmates to the Kisaragi Laboratory was perfect! what ultimately ruined his plan was utsuro’s presence.

i fear that space of relief adds layers to his destiny, since he did felt like there was something about yuki and akane, but due to thinking everything was resolved, he ended up trusting them. if everything went smoothly, i think he would have been able to let himself relax and rely on others, since that’s kind of the action that lead him to the tragedy.

the conclusion of this text is that i think if yamato wouldn’t have tried to outsmart the masterminds both mikako and him would have been alive, and the ending wouldn’t have been that bleak for the survivors.

we already know the one whose destiny would’ve been more affected is tsurugi, i do not believe yamato could completely fix him like some sort of savior, but it would have been a great pillar for him to hold onto.

[bengilyo]

i may not look like one, but i’m a multishipper and i actually got some yamato + utsuro ideas on my head, but like 😭😭😭 the yamato tsurugi infected my brain and its not letting me expand on them.. but i promised myself i’ll try to make, at least, a long text post about the first two eventually, they’re really interesting

[kirigayss]

soft bbies…

[saltedcoffeee]

naw bro u gotta say no homo

[splendedtea]

Everyone everyone everyoneshutupshutup they’re queer look

[mlmkinjo]

oh yay