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[beppibepsi]

I’m gonna be honest, I’ve grown to hate this blog. I just don’t like it. I don’t know the main reason anymore. I just feel like I’ve grown past it. Like it’s from a stage in my life that I’m no longer in. I’ve changed a lot since I first started using the user “BeppiBepsi” online many years ago, and I kind of just wanna move past it. It’s not who I am anymore. My brain keeps making me think that it’s a childish identity where I made very naïve things and stupid art pieces, despite the fact that I always make silly “cringe” and whimsy things all the time in my mind and that’s not something I’ll ever really let go, but it doesn’t change the fact the feelings I have towards this online username. That, and again, I just don’t identify with the name anymore.

But I don’t want to be a “boring adult” either. I think the main issue I have is that I see everything I’ve made as something in poor execution under this online identity. Maybe I had some great ideas, but when putting them online, they just seemed… cringe. Stupid. Nonsensical. Childish. Just another autistic post that never made any sense. And I think a lot of that is because I’ve become much more frustrated and unhappy with my art in recent years. My hope is that, by making a new identity, I will start anew. But that won’t change the frustration I get when I just can’t get a shape the way I want it to look, or why I can’t seem to pick out the right colors, or why I have an image so perfect and detailed in my mind, but when I try to put it to paper, it’s like my hands refuse to act in cooperation with my true imagination. It’s why I didn’t post much art on here for over a year— because I refuse to show any artwork I’ve made until I’ve decided it’s done well enough to be shown.

But I also made a few pieces that I *am* proud of, small pieces of silver among the rubble. Things that might be worth saving after all.

I’m sorry for people that followed me for specific fandoms and fanart. I really did want to post that one small comic I had in mind a few years(?) back, and while it is… somewhat conceivable, I just cannot finish it. I want to move on. I’m tired.

I’ll post a couple of old art pieces on here I’m still proud of that I didn’t post before, but after that, I’ll start making new things under a different username. Technically, I’ve already done that, but that’s more so for a specific character and genre of mine than anything. I want to make a new user identity that’s more of a “general” creative account.

maybe i’ll repost some stuff there, but.. probably not. i don’t know. we’ll see.

thank you to the few followers that liked my art enough to follow me! i wish i could have offered more to you.

[beppibepsi]

old art

based off of one of salty’s streams from years ago— pretty sure it was based off of a game where there was a missing poster, so i tried basing the style off of it a little bit, but it’s been a really long time.

[beppibepsi]

old art

i didn’t post this one on here already, did i? i hope not. i still think it’s kind of funny though. but i never finished the game…

[beppibepsi]

old art

[beppibepsi]

unfinished art

[beppibepsi]

dumping some old art pieces on here before i migrate to a new account

[hungry-skeleton]

Newborn shroomboom

[beppibepsi]

when the minecraft server is so good but the server owner straight up bans you for making the most harmless reactions to a discord announcement

[beppibepsi]

for context i was feeling a little silly and excited today and decided to do an emoji reaction to a server post that spelled out “im gay” and i was instantly banned shortly afterwards despite the fact that:

1. i am openly gay and queer, and im almost certain i have said something fruity in-game before, and my discord profile makes it obvious how queer i am, like you can just obviously tell.

2. i had never received a warning, mute, kick, indefinite ban, perma ban, etc. from that server or the in-game server, ever. i was always on my best behavior.

i know it was almost certainly the server owner themself, because based on past interactions i’ve seen with them regarding other annoying or dense (but not rule-breaking!) users, they have had a very negative aura to them. it’s like if you took the “no-nonsense” type of person, but bad. like “i can’t handle the slightest bit of dumbassery even if it isn’t malicious, i don’t feel like dealing with you, get out of my sight” type of vibe. if you had a “stupid question” they would also be pretty rude to you.

im glad i never spent money on the server, the only thing that stopped me from doing so was because of the bad vibes i got from the owner anyways. i know i shouldn’t be this upset, but there’s still something about the situation that really irks me, unless im just going insane or something.

[beppibepsi]

update: i think like one time i gave a mod in-game a water bottle that was labelled “pee :)” and they gave me a warning for “giving moderators items with inappropriate names” and that’s it lol

[beppibepsi]

when the minecraft server is so good but the server owner straight up bans you for making the most harmless reactions to a discord announcement

[beppibepsi]

for context i was feeling a little silly and excited today and decided to do an emoji reaction to a server post that spelled out “im gay” and i was instantly banned shortly afterwards despite the fact that:

1. i am openly gay and queer, and im almost certain i have said something fruity in-game before, and my discord profile makes it obvious how queer i am, like you can just obviously tell.

2. i had never received a warning, mute, kick, indefinite ban, perma ban, etc. from that server or the in-game server, ever. i was always on my best behavior.

i know it was almost certainly the server owner themself, because based on past interactions i’ve seen with them regarding other annoying or dense (but not rule-breaking!) users, they have had a very negative aura to them. it’s like if you took the “no-nonsense” type of person, but bad. like “i can’t handle the slightest bit of dumbassery even if it isn’t malicious, i don’t feel like dealing with you, get out of my sight” type of vibe. if you had a “stupid question” they would also be pretty rude to you.

im glad i never spent money on the server, the only thing that stopped me from doing so was because of the bad vibes i got from the owner anyways. i know i shouldn’t be this upset, but there’s still something about the situation that really irks me, unless im just going insane or something.

[beppibepsi]

when the minecraft server is so good but the server owner straight up bans you for making the most harmless reactions to a discord announcement

[hungry-skeleton]

I forgot to mention I watched inside out 2

[hungry-skeleton]

Clown girl for your clown girl needs!

Reblogs > Likes

[hungry-skeleton]

STORMWORM 🌩️

Reblogs > Likes

[sm64mario]

Any'a Legoheads in the house? This'a Lego Mario super impressive!!!

Here's the guide!

[ms-gay-sex]

Damn I'm gonna need a bigger jar for that

[sm64mario]

For What

[ms-gay-sex]

for whatever bowser is doing to peach whenever she gets "kidnapped"

Face it mario, you're a cuck. You know what's going on and you enjoy it

[sm64mario]

First off, shame on'a you for'a implying Bowser'a that kind of person. Bowser'a always treat Peach with respect, even when she get kidnapped! Second off, I'a need to look up what'a "cuck" means. One moment!

[sm64mario]

[sm64mario]

I'mma not a cuck.

[beppibepsi]

i actually really enjoy the rich bomb-omb family from ttyd. even though the parents are incredibly filthy rich, with the dad caring more about their family status, both parents still care a lot about their son.

they’re both super nice and polite, as is the son, and they just wanna make him as happy as possible and give him the best of whatever he wants. even if it’s a bit much… lol (but i guess a fully gold little train set is actually fire)

[hungry-skeleton]

Who up peppering they lante

[hungry-skeleton]

Middle aged man that activates your maternal instinct