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Page 3 Read story El Conejo y la Payasa by juan37777777 (Juan Pedro Berón) with 3 reads. zooble, tadc, kinger. -Dios...
Here is in spanish! Thank you for the support! Or here in Tumblr: Part 1
Pomni´s second attepmt
Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 - Part 5 - Part 6
“I’m sorry,” he says.
She looks at him. He doesn’t take his eyes off the sky.
“Yeah, I had fun. Hell, I had more fun than I’ve had in ages. But I couldn’t… have something good… again. I don’t deserve it. And… it was going to end badly.”
“It wasn’t going to end badly,” she replies.
“How do you know that?”
“Because I’d be there for you if you needed me. And I wasn’t going to abstract because I have Ragata, Kinger, Zooble, and Gangle. We help each other out. We support each other, Jax. And you can be a part of that.”
Jax grumbles, looking away when Pomni mentions the others’ names. He doesn’t think he deserves to be part of that group. He knows the harm he’s done, how badly he’s treated everyone.
Pomni looks at him and thinks: “How do you convince someone to love themselves the way others love them?”
She thinks in silence for a while.
“You told me…” Pomni begins, “…that I shouldn’t be here. That we shouldn’t miss you or love you. That you’re a horrible person. But…can a horrible person say ‘I’m sorry’?” she asks. Jax looks at her. She looks at him. “I accept your apology, by the way,” she says, smiling.
Jax blushes slightly and grimaces. But he doesn’t say anything, for the moment. Pomni takes her explanation a step further.
“I think…the reason I’m here,” she places her hand on her chest, “isn’t to remind you of your mistakes, Jax. It’s to remind you of your virtues. To remind you that you have good ideas. That you have kindness. I saw it. You could make others feel good and give them confidence. Do you have any idea what that’s worth?”
Jax can’t believe what he’s hearing. No one has ever acknowledged that he could do anything good for others, or that he was good at anything.
"When I'm with you," Pomni concludes, "I don't see you as you are today, but as the person you can become."
Jax opens his eyes slightly. His heart is pounding.
"That's why I'm still here. That's why I care about you. And that's why I won't rest until…" Jax hugs her. Pomni is surprised for a moment, and then she hugs him back. She squeezes him tight.
The starlight reflects off the rabbit and the clown. In the distance, a shooting star can be seen.
Jax begins to smile. To laugh. He bursts into laughter. Pomni watches him, over his shoulder. She looks closely and sees that he's crying as he laughs. Louder and louder. The rabbit puts a hand to his head. He can't control the smile, the laughter. He can't describe the feeling that has taken hold of him. His breathing quickens, becomes agitated.
The world they're in begins to tremble. The atmosphere starts to shift. A distorted hum is heard. Something is about to happen.
Pomni´s second attempt
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The stars accompany the rabbit's wails. Pomni sobs, running her hand over her face, wiping away a tear. She watches as Jax looks up at the sky again.
"Pomni..." he says softly. "Why are you here? Why am I important to you? Don't you see the harm I do to those around me? The harm I do... to those I care about?"
"You matter to me," she replies.
"Yeah... but why?"
"Because..." Pomni can't find the right answer. She tries to choose her words carefully. "Because..." She trails off, lost in thought.
"With you was the first time I stopped feeling afraid in the circus."
Jax is surprised, though he doesn't understand.
"I was trying really hard to adapt, but something was missing. The guys are nice and they keep you company, but... I still felt strange. Strange in this digital world." And now I understand it was because I didn't know how to behave in here.
But when we worked together, I felt good… again." — Pomni smiles. — "Happy, and… comfortable. I had fun. I could think like you. I could… connect with you, for a second."
Pomni looks down. She lets the silence fill the air for a few seconds. She looks at her reflection in the water.
"Do you know why I attacked you?" she asks, seriously.
The rabbit is uncomfortable with the question, so he remains silent.
"Because I knew you were lying," Pomni replies. "When you told me we weren't a team, and that we weren't friends. I knew you were lying because I know you felt the same connection I did. You enjoyed it, and don't lie to me now. Don't ever lie to me again, Jax."
He looks at her. Then he looks ahead, breathing through his nose. Pomni glances to the side, slightly annoyed. They are silent for a few seconds.
"I'm sorry," someone says.
Pomni´s second attepmt
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Pomni senses Jax's anguish. The pain, the anger, the sadness. Her hand rests on his shoulder. After his words, she tries to stroke it slowly, to bring him a sense of calm.
"Then she locked herself in her room and… never came out."
He leans forward and sees his reflection in the water. He sees himself.
"God…" he exclaims. "What… happened in there? Was she scared? Was she in pain? Um… was she lonely…?" He pauses, his face growing more worried, his eyes widening. "It was I who left her alone. I abandoned her. I was selfish, stubborn. And when I wanted to do something about it… it was too late."
He leans back against the seat. He stares straight ahead, at nothing in particular. He just watches. Tears begin to flow again.
"Poor… poor Ribbit."
He closes his eyes tightly to try and stop the tears, and now with a look of anger:
"I want to hug her! I want to be with her! I want to walk through her door and tell her how sorry I am!" Pomni's eyes well up as she looks at Jax. "It wasn't my intention!" she cries, opening her eyes wide. "I was ungrateful and didn't appreciate what I had! I want her to forgive me, and I'll never treat her like that again! I want her to give me her bow! I want her bow back! I want it and never want to take it off!"
Jax's tears fall into the vast ocean, rippling in every direction. He lowers his voice slightly.
"I want to see her... I want to see her one more time. I want to be the one to hold her hand this time. I want her to feel comforted by me. To tell her she'll never be alone again..."
For a moment, he remembers about the day they became friends.
-I would do anything... to laugh with her one more time.
Pomni´s second attepmt
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He look at Pomni.
"I... hurt her. I treated her... like garbage!" His eyes well up with tears. "I was... so hurt. I'd forgotten why I don't talk to anyone about these things, and when I remembered... I couldn't control myself. I said... horrible things..." He pauses again and says thoughtfully, "How I wish I hadn't."
Pomni remembers what she saw in Jax's memories. She remembers that girl's anguished expressions.
"The days went by and... the further I was from her, the less vulnerable I felt. I distanced myself and pretended nothing had happened. I lied to her..." He looks up to keep his tears from falling. "I was going to lie to her as much as necessary to avoid remembering that feeling." His voice rises. "I was willing to act like the lunatic, cynical, selfish person who doesn't care about the harm he causes others, as long as he doesn't appear weak."
He rests his legs on the bench. He places his hands firmly on each one, clenching them into fists and moving them slightly from the force of his grip.
Jax holds his breath, tensing his muscles, gritting his teeth. Finally, he sighs. He tries to calm himself. He looks down and closes his eyes. He breathes repeatedly. A few silent seconds pass. He takes a deep breath through his nose. He opens his eyes and exhales.
"She was surrounded by friends, but I made sure she felt alone," Jax says sadly. "She tried to talk to me, and I... I never stopped pushing her away. I made her feel miserable. Like she was a poor fool who didn't know what she was doing. The more confused she was, the stronger I felt."
Jax relaxes his hands and rests them on his legs.
"I didn't realize, or... I didn't want to realize, that I was breaking her heart in two."
He closes his eyes and takes a deep breath.
“We had an adventure in a world filled with ice, and… she came to me. Now I understand how bad she felt. Every time she tried to approach me at the circus, she expected me to… see her face, so distressed, hurt, and… sad, to the point that I magically changed my mind. She couldn't take it anymore and decided to confront me that day. That's when I treated her the worst. We yelled at each other. I said horrible things to her. I didn't budge an inch. I was a wall of rock that wasn't going to give an inch.”
He turns his head slightly towards Pomni, and says:
"The dumbest thing is… she thought it was her mistake. 'I don't want this tiny, stupid mistake to ruin everything,' she told me. How stupid. The mistake was mine, not hers." He begins to shake his head slightly from side to side.
"I didn't deserve her. I didn't deserve a friend like… Ribbit."
Pomni's second attempt
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"I've hurt so much... I don't know... where..." He tries to say the first thing that comes to mind. "I didn't mean to hurt my mom. I didn't mean to hurt you," he says. "I didn't mean to hurt..." His voice breaks. He closes his eyes tightly. He chokes on a gesture of anguish and anger. He clenches his hands tightly. Tears stream down his face, to his chin. He breathes heavily.
Pomni looks at him, approaches him, and places her hand on his clasped hands. She presses lightly.
Jax opens his eyes, tears streaming down his face. They fall onto his hands. He lets out a little more of what he's been holding inside. As the seconds pass, he tries to calm himself. He tries to breathe.
"I want to talk to my mom. And tell her I'm sorry." He closes his eyes tightly, unable to stop the tears from falling. "That I didn't mean to hurt her... and it hurts... that I'll never be able to." "It hurts so much." Jax feels Pomni's hand on top of his. That gesture is important to him, even if he won't admit it. "Tell me everything you're feeling" is what he hears from her when he sees the clown's red glove on his own.
"When I first joined the circus..." Jax continues. "I was so scared. It was really hard... to adjust. I felt confused and, well... like everyone does the first time. She..." He breathes heavily. "...managed to make me feel better. Made me feel... not so stupid. Eventually... she made me laugh. God! We laughed so much." Jax smiles. "Being with her was... relaxing. She made me feel good. She was funny, and she also acted like a dork." He lets out a small laugh. "She was the closest friend I had." His face slowly changes to one of annoyance.
"But I was an idiot," he states firmly. "I didn't know what I had until..." he grumbles. He takes a deep breath. He looks up at the sky. To the stars. One by one. As if one of them might grant him the words he lacks. "She trusted me, perhaps like no one ever had. She helped me… she listened to me… and I felt better. I felt… really good. But then…" He looks ahead, then down. "I repaid her… in the cruellest, most childish, and cowardly way I knew how." The anger and anguish return to his eyes.
Pomni's second attempt
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Jax doesn't take his eyes off the stars. Silent. Pomni sits down next to him. She watches him, notices how relaxed he is. He even seems to be enjoying the view. She decides to look at them too. They're silent for a couple of minutes.
"It was you who suggested the stargazing adventure," she says.
Jax doesn't move. He replies, "I still think it lacked flavor," in a dejected tone.
Pomni looks at him, inwardly happy to hear him speak. She turns back up to continue looking at the stars.
"You need piano lessons," Jax says.
"Oh… ah…" He caught her off guard. She hadn't expected that. "Yeah. Uh… I haven't been able to practice much…" she says innocently.
A few seconds of silence pass.
"I'm glad you listened." she replies. Pomni scans the room and looks around. The bench, the lamppost, the stars…
“And I’m glad it’s not all dark anymore…”
“Pomni…” Jax interrupts, still gazing at the sky. “You said… I could tell you.”
Pomni looks at him intently.
“I want to tell you,” Jax affirms.
The stars shine, reflecting their light on the endless ocean.
“It’s… so many things. So many… thoughts.” It’s hard to express himself, and Pomni notices. She doesn’t rush him, nor does she intend to speak. She wants to listen. She wants to hear him. “It’s not… easy,” the rabbit says.
“There’s no rush” or “Take your time” is what Jax expected her to say. But she says nothing. She just looks at him, into his eyes, and her face tells him that she wants to listen, when he’s ready. Jax looks at her and understands that he can open up to her.
He sits up. He puts his legs up on the bench and crosses them. Look down, staring at his hands with his fingers interlaced. Take a deep breath.
Bonus:
This is the second comic in my Open World AU, where Caine and Kinger work together to make the circus more "human-friendly", including always-open personalized worlds and more bodily autonomy. Pomni and Jax discuss their newfound ability to change their clothes as they wish.
you werent supposed to love me
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I really like how this turned out x3
Había que hacerlo oficial. Link de Wattpad https://www.wattpad.com/1639869072-sacar-el-conejo-de-la-galera
circus become human
Girlhood is a spectrum;
“I support women’s wrongs”
“We need more evil women!”
“Let women be mean!”
You can’t even handle Jax…
Strangers are just friends you haven't met
¿Y si Pomni hubiese sabido que era su última charla?
Jax no soporta más estar lejos del grupo. Existen mil barreras entre él y los demás, pero no tantas con Pomni. Con ella sí puede hablar. Después de varias horas, toma el valor suficiente para acercarse.
Lentamente, llega hacia donde está ella. Con el sonido de sus pasos ella se percata y se da vuelta. Lo mira.
Jax se congela, expresando su incomodidad con su rostro.
Es demasiado para él. “Qué mala idea ha sido”- piensa. Planea fingir que no pasa nada y volver a su cuarto.
Pomni salta a abrazarlo. Comienza a llorar. Fuertemente. No deja que él la suelte. Jax se mueve, tratado de apartarse, pero con todo lo que había pasado, ya no tenía la misma fuerza que antes, por lo que decide quedarse quieto, sin abrazarla, haciendo lo posible por no mostrar emociones.
Ahogado. Impotente. Sus partes luchando, queriendo sacarse el peso de encima él también. La cara de Pomni queda pegada al cuerpo de Jax. Llora desconsoladamente. Las lágrimas quedan plasmadas en la ropa del conejo, y casi ninguna cae al piso. Luego de unos segundos, logra decir, en medio de su llanto:
“No te vayas… No te vayas, no te vayas, NO TE VAYAS.”- Le grita.
Gira su cabeza y lo mira ella directamente. La cara de Jax: incomoda, confundida, con sus ojos cristalizados, casi asustado. Agitado en su respiración. Pomni aprieta sus dientes y cierra con fuerza sus ojos. Lo suelta y se aparta. Pasa su mano por su rostro, quitándose las lágrimas que parecía que no iban a dejar de salir nunca. Lo mira, con una expresión de tristeza y bronca. No puede mirar bien a causa de las lágrimas, por lo que pestañea mucho. Coloca sus brazos estirados pegados a su cuerpo, con sus manos en forma de puños. Logra poder sacar algunas: -¿Cómo logro…- solloza.- que te quieras como te queremos nosotros?- Jax abre sus ojos, sorprendido. Pomni solloza de nuevo, y dice: -¿Que te puedas perdonar… como nosotros te perdonamos?- Jax se queda ahí parado, mirándola con lágrimas a punto de salir. Ella mira al suelo. -Quiero que me hables… Quiero que me hables como lo hiciste la primera vez. No quiero que te vayas… No quiero no verte nunca más.
Pasan unos segundos en silencio. Pomni solloza una tercera vez. Trata de calmarse. Respira y exhala de una manera más tranquila. Jax no sabe qué decir. No esperaba estas palabras de su parte. No se supone que debería quererlo.
En su último gramo de serenidad, dice su última cita: -Duele, mucho. Pero… no puedo obligarte a hacer algo que no quieres.- dice Pomni, triste pero calmada.- Si quieres estar sólo…- le dice a él mirándolo, con la voz quebrajada.
-Estaré aquí, esperándote.- dejando salir una pequeña sonrisa entre sus lágrimas.- No tienes que estar solo.
Jax abre aún más los ojos. El corazón le late fuerte. No sabe que decir, o si siquiera debería decir algo.
Pomni solloza una última vez antes de darse vuelta lentamente, y sentarse donde estaba. Deja salir un poco más el llanto, para poder concentrarse después en la conjuración de planos. Las formas que crea carecen de formación necesaria, y no sirven para reconstruir el suelo. Fracasa una y otra vez. Está demasiado angustiada para pensar correctamente.
Acepta lo que pase. Entiende que ella ya dio su parte. Demostró su preocupación, su valentía, y su amor. Si no puede evitar la abstracción, podrá saber que hizo todo lo que estaba a su alcance.
Alguien se sienta junto a ella. Le dicen con tono sarcástico: -Diablos. ¿Eras tan mala como contadora como eres arquitecta?
Part 1
Part 2
Part 3 (You're Here)
Part 4
After the events of the "Gun Adventure", the story takes a turn as Caine decides to postpone his "Escape the Circus" Adventure. As a last minute decision, he has the group play a small game of "Truth or Dare". Pomni continues to try to reach out to Jax, but he continues to spiral.
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