i'm gonna die

jess. twenty two. “remember, remember, this is now, and now, and now. live it, feel it, cling to it. i want to become acutely aware of all i’ve taken for granted.”

[vikanderalicia-deactivated20200]

[ahurtlamb-deactivated20200202]

“If people sat outside and looked at the stars each night, I bet they’d live a lot differently. When you look into infinity, you realize there are more important things than what people do all day.”

Calvin and Hobbes (via hurtlamb)

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

7 Ingredients for a Happy Life

1. Decide to let go of worry and “what ifs”

2. Work on developing your self-confidence

3. Forgive yourself, and others, and let go of grievances

4. Be open and warm in your relationships

5. Don’t compare yourself with other people

6. Define your own success

7. Be optimistic, and keep on persevering

[canufeelthesilence]

after i had luca, i went out to, like, the breast-pump store—i was still huge—and i just had a comfortable outfit on. and the next day [in the tabloids] it was like, “hilary debuts post-baby bod!” and I was like, “that’s not a debut! that’s an errand!” it was such a happy time that honestly i didn’t care; it wasn’t until later that i realized how mean and invasive it was.

[lifeinpoetry]

           May everything about this place            remove me from myself.

And this is the sickness talking, the part of me so spoiled, rotting in the blood. But so much of what I want is to be less a person.

To be instead a word too beautiful to fit inside my own fevered, mumbling mouth.

           When I imagine myself            I am barely there.

— Clementine von Radics, from “Sweet the Sound,” Dream Girl

[themostterrible-deactivated2019]

[bethanylenz-blog]

Ari throughout the entire book: no homo

Ari's parents at the end of the book: yes homo

Ari seeing the light: wow fam u right

[thelovejournals]

Your flaws are perfect for the heart that is meant to love you.

Unknown (via thelovejournals)

[bethanylenz-blog]

Me: *successfully avoids social event* nice

Me: *is really lonely* shit

[pureblooder]

no luck or love for me, then. 

[the-homie-sexual]

plot twist: you let someone in and they don’t fuck you over

[itssamnotsammi]

Best feeling is when you just naturally click with a person. Talking all day, every day, no forceful conversation, laughs, attention. They are worth their weight in gold, don’t lose them

[odairannies]

get to know me meme; 17/20 animated movies: spirited away (2001) “Chihiro… What a nice name. Take good care of it. It’s yours.”

[luthienne]

my heart  a torn thing

Anne Carson, from Decreation: Poetry, Essays, Opera; “Blended Text” (via luthienne)

[violentwavesofemotion-deactivat]

             “You made me wear blood  but I thought I must want to.”

— Alice Notley, from “Songs and Stories of the Ghouls”

[purissimemepenem]

lol: lots of labradors

omg: oh my greyhounds

brb: beagles r best

lmao: love my awesome otterhounds

smh: so many huskies

ily: i love yorkies

[lifeinpoetry]

Dearest,

I feel certain I am going mad again.

we will go through             terrible times. And            recover. I begin to hear your voice, and can’t             concentrate. So I am doing what seems

will give me the greatest possible happiness.

I don’t think two people could           have been happier      with this disease. I know that without                    you       I    can’t properly feel.

What I want to say is You             have

saved me.

Everything has gone from me

but the certainly of your goodness.

— Hanif Willis-Abdurraqib, "The Author Writes the First Draft of His Wedding Vows,” an erasure of Virginia Woolf’s suicide letter to her husband, Leonard, The Crown Ain’t Worth Much