Bee.

All you'll find here is my sadness

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The pain and the cause is the same. I want to accept and move on but it's so hard. I'm stuck in between and I can't get out. I only continue to sabotage myself with my actions.

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"Louise, she just wasn't thinking

When she climbed into his bed

She only wanted to lie beside him

To hell with his best friend

She woke him up and she whispered

But the answer wasn't good

Whatever made you think I would ever love you

Even if I could"

Louise - TV girl

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You need a private talk? Just message me !:)

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Ooof I was probably 15 when I rebloged this and now I’m 19 still feeling like shit.

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22 now and I still feel the same. They say it takes time. How much time...

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I thought I understood myself but I don't. What the fuck do I want. What the fuck do I feel. I can't understand and the fucking cycle continues.

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Imagine being effortless beautiful. Taking people's breaths away. Being the only person who stands out in a crowded room. Looking like a dream and being the prettiest girl anyone has ever seen. People wanting to know you and be around you.

All I can do is just imagine.

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Why must my life be full of cycles.

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Oh the pain. Feels so much stronger this time.

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I am really not that special. If I were to go it would be for the best. I am not leaving much behind. I promise.

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What is my purpose. What am I good at? Where is my life supposed to go? Why am I like this? All these questions still have no answers.

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Why must I be me.

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All I can ever do is disappoint.

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Nothing's gonna change my world

Nothing's gonna change my world

Nothing's gonna change my world

Nothing's gonna change my world

Across the Universe - The Beatles

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I don't think I'm cut out for this world. I can't do anything right. Life was not meant for me.

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Crying doesn't make me feel better anymore.

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Out of all those fucking sperm cells. I was the one that got to the egg. Man couldn't of been a different one.

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I'm not pretty. I'm not funny. I'm awkward. I'm fat. I'm not smart. I'm scared of everything. I'm unmotivated. I'm lazy. I'm impulsive. I'm annoying.

There's nothing good about me.

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Life really fucking sucks. I'm not even speaking about my own but others around me. Why can't the world be fine and dandy. Everyone is living there own personal hell.