Malachi, im so hurt on so many thins right now. You basically tell me - “if you wanna be with me ; you have to deal with this, you have to deal with that” I know what you gone be doin’, you keep tellin me over & over again as if you TRYIN to hurt mee. Youre gunna be around other pretty girls, your gonna be doin tours & shows, yr gonna need a lot of studio time - but Malachi, if you still want me around & withh you thru all that, show me, tell me that you love me every single tday that passes by & I can’t see you. You don’t even give me compliments nomore. That’s why I feel SOOO ugly around you. Youre always so busy for me nowadays. you make plans with other people? & I seen yo twitter. Makin plans with that babydolldances girl- DAMN, you NEVER asked me to kiccit nomore. But you ask her -___- I barely get to talk to you -EVER. You never on myspace, you donno’ how to HMU on twitter, you always be callin’ @ frkn’ 12 @ nitee & only time you feel like callin me before that, is only when we argue. I bought you a necklace as a suprise & you never think of me -__- either that, or you supposedly buy something for me & something ALWAYS “HAPPENS” to ittt . I honestly think you put music before me or anything. You just don’t wanna tell me cuhz you damn well it will hurt me. All the memories can never be replaced, but you know what- you can always be replaced. You don’t even fight for your spot in my heart nomore. We been thru sooooo much. I just don’t see how or WHY you would just let it all slip thru yr fingers =/. TRUST & BELIEVE ; I;’m the only girl who can love you how you wanna be loved. Only reason why I push you away, is cuhz it’s so damn easy for you to hurt me cuhz you became my weakness =(.You KNOW how hard I tried to keep us strong while you tried to drift away. These past six months every since you moved out here, we started drifting. I remember thinking in the bacc of ma’ head somethin told me you was gonna change, I just knew it buh you promised me you wouldn’t & I BELIEVED YOU. I miss doing everything with you, I miss being your BESTFRIEND. I miss getting loonnnggg ass messages from you telling me how you feel about me. I miss how you would call sayin “HI MY BABY!” all loud, sweet & proud. I miss all those days you told me how beautiful I AM. NOT how beautiful I was that very second. I miss how I’d always go to you for my problems & advice. Now you just blow me off like some lil groupie , at times. IT WAS ALMOST A YEAR & only now you pulled this shit off?!?!?! Why couldn’t you have done it from tha jump ; before I started falling in love with you, before all the memories we built & shared together? Sometimes I even ask god “ what did we do to deserve this ? ”. You dont know how HARD ive tried to get over you- but every single damn thing reminds me of you. EVERY SINGLE DAMN THING. You’re all I ever had. You’re all I ever needed.. You BECAME my everything & now your nothing.. I had no choice but to break up with you becuhz’ of all the shit you done put me thru. You thought I’d stick around while you go out & have the time of yr life while I’m stuck thinking if you still love me or not. Only time you realize how important I am to you, is when I tell you Im donee with you. I don’t know what to fuccccen do nomore. I’m not gonna let you put me down forever. Whether you still wanna be my friend, or something or whatever- Just let me know & don’t just let me know, show it to me. UGH. I wish I never met you, fell in love with you- Becuhz’ I WOULDNT VE HURTIN AS MUCH AS I DO RIGHT THIS SECOND.
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