Bibhutika

I am here to escape and discover

[bibhutikas]

It hurts, its a heartbreak.. the betrayal ups and downs of relationships... it hurts the most to feel helpless... when you love a person and they just don't value you. Toy with your emotions infront of you and you just know there is no point of any confrontation because people be good to you to gain something and even the feeling of small of running behind people to be seen of appreciated. God. I am done with everyone's double standard.

Maybe god give me strength and self control to just mind my own business.

[mellblogss]

Be with someone who will take care of your heart.

[bibhutikas]

Always ❤️

[quotefeeling]

“When someone truly cares about you, they make an effort not an excuse.”

— Unknown

[quotefeeling]

“You deserve to be with somebody who will drive three hours, just to see you for one.”

— Guidelines For Finding Someone Worthwhile

[quotefeeling]

“When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one that has opened for us.”

— Alexander Graham Bell

[bibhutikas]

I feel. My love is the most chaotic and overwhelming, not for everyone. To be in love with me is to jump and never look back. Through all troubles just stand. And believe me there will be many. I expect, because I give beyond measure. I know love shouldn't be a bargain of give and take but I understand that if there is only giving and no taking then there will only be emptiness prevailing.

My heart aches, my eyes wet.

My stomach drops, my mind set.

I am empty yet I can never empty my giving love. I can not stop my forgiveness. Who should I be mad at? Me for being so forgiving? Or the person who exploit this forgiveness?

There are so many turmoils inside of me and somehow people expect I would solve their. Two broken people can never fix each other. Correction. No one can fix you other than you and expecting anything more is just hurting you even more.

Expectations Hurt.

-love Gungun.

[fatimazainab]

Margaret Atwood, The Blind Assassin

[bibhutikas]

Are you scared of being left alone? With the constant people coming in and out of your life do you really think you'd remember that one day when you were sitting on the bench alone wondering, "was that all?". To be left alone, a curse or a boon?

The deafening silence with excruciating sounds of your own thought, makes up the turmoil of your heart. The cold breeze surrounding you will never comfort you. With every thought racing your mind it somehow soothes your turmoil. There is certain peace in being left alone. Done strength. I chose my pride over relations that just siphoned my energy making me feel less of myself. Giving up on trying sounds a good idea. Very good. You shouldn't try so hard on fitting into someone else's perception of you. It's tough definitely. Tough roads lead to better paths 💞

The mighty has my back, always.

[bibhutikas]

Run run Run away, But never far away

[bibhutikas]

Tears burn. Like lava on my face. The longing in my heart that makes it heavy like an anchor that holds down a ship several ton times greater than it's weight. And my mind like the chaotic waves clashing on to the ship that is at shore. There is fear and relief, presence and absence... my heart aches from the thing that my heart holds the dearest. Am I bothered by the smallest of things? It makes me doubt my ways of love. Ways that has been written in novels about. It's true, we wish for enormous things without first honing the skills that is needed to tame those enormous wishes, that makes you worthy of those wishes. It then wrecks the ship, the spoiled anchor or the shallow shore. The heaviness of the heart might just be the breath stuck that refuses to give me a breath without hearing to his voice. Love so endearing, love so passionate, love so unbearable. Love that aches but is too precious to let go. It isn't like I wouldn't find a more precious story, its just that my heart don't wanna hear another. My heart is too weak to break again and even if it does it won't leave the side of yours.

#shore

#love #passion

[bibhutikas]

It's my 4 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

[thoughtstherapy]

[bibhutikas]

You did run away.. how much? And how far?

[bibhutikas]

I held his hand. We stood in silence. There was an ocean of thoughts trembling inside of us, but somehow, we couldn't suffice any words to describe it. I was so angry that I wanted to walk away with every fiber of my living, but the love I had in me kept me standing there. In his proximity. Silently. I could see it in his eyes. He wanted to stop me or just tell me something. Stitch some words that made sense, and just tell me something. But he couldn't think, we couldn't think. I just held his warm hands in mine. He looked at me to just say, "Listen..." I looked up at those glassy eyes and replied ,"Hmm.." He had nothing to speak but so much to say. I understood. But the blood boiled in me with anger. Agony. I just wished he could've said something. He should've said something! Something to stop me! Did something! He shouldn't have let me go. He should've held my hand. He should've told me, "I am not letting go of you until you tell me that you love or until you smile. I will work with a small grin. I was just shy of my past, but I never wanted to hurt you. I love you, darling. More than I ever cared for loving someone. You are my 'The one!'. Seeing you sad, especially because of me, makes my heart bleed. I am sorry, baby. Please smile? My world would collapse without it. " Instead, he just let me drive away from me... he watched as I walked away. He says, "You should've understood how I felt, what I thought, how I wanted things to be or how I felt." I am sorry if I am unable to give back what I never received. He just stood there. Every man in my life just stood there while I walked away. Their ego was too much compared to their love. Every time, I broke their heart because I wanted to protect mine. As I always knew, nobody would protect me before they've protected themselves.

So I drove, away and faster. I was immobile and hurt as the night grew. I wanted to forget, but with the repetition of these events, it has become impossible to tell myself that it is a one-time thing. So I just sat in quiet, trying not to think, because I knew if I would think about him, my love would overpower the little self-respect that I have left in me, and I would give in. Only women are capable of such feelings, you know. Being the only person to care, love, cherish, and do to nothing but just take care of you, still feeling that they need to be blamed for something. Something as basic as respect.

We are not reading too much into it. You men are just too scared to know that you are weak and you want to pretend that by not doing anything about it and just ignoring it, you will prove to the world that you are all fixed up. Sorry to burst your bubble, everybody can see that you are miserable and they are just massaging your man ego because they think you are too fragile to take it. Pity.

Fragile men.

[bibhutikas]

If the world is coming to sting you, sting first.

[bibhutikas]

Not every truth heals. Sometimes hide your feelings to protect them. 💫

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