My Hearts Already Breakin'

Louis Tomlinson || 24 || Father || {Just an RP account, chill dude}

[niallhoren]

Louis accepting Choice Male Artist at the TCAs - 12/08

[bigbrother-tommo]

Visiting || Demi&Louis

[awgcreature]

bigbrother-tommo:

He didn’t say anything thing this time. He just adjusted his spot next to her and pulled her in tighter. Both arms wrapped around her. “It’s okay.” Louis murmured resting his head on hers. “It’s okay to let it out.”

Demi struggled to hold back the tears at fist, but as she leaned into him, it got a little harder. As he buried her eyes in his chest, the singer couldn’t hold back the tears anymore. She had cried so much lately, her eyes were burning already, but she took a few minutes before she finally stopped again, though not yet pulling away from Louis.

[bigbrother-tommo]

He stayed silent just holding her. Being there. His hand gently rubbing her arm as she cried. All he could do is be ther for her. Comfort her in her time of need. And that’s what he was gonna do.

[bigbrother-tommo]

Visiting || Demi&Louis

[awgcreature]

bigbrother-tommo:

He let out a sigh, letting his thumb move over her skin. “Everyone has a different state of “Okay” and I think you were there for a little bit. And I think you lost that after a while. Thinking you can handle what you couldn’t.” Louis chewed his lip. “I wanna help you love..”

She shook her head at his words. She couldn’t bring herself to look at him. “I was never really okay. Staying sober for six years was… a struggle. Every single day, I don’t know how I did it for so long. And then one time I caved and I was tired of fighting…” Demi bit down on her lower lip, swallowing the lump that was forming in her throat. “Shit,” she muttered, bringing her free hand up to wipe a tear from er eye.

[bigbrother-tommo]

He didn’t say anything thing this time. He just adjusted his spot next to her and pulled her in tighter. Both arms wrapped around her. “It’s okay.” Louis murmured resting his head on hers. “It’s okay to let it out.”

[bigbrother-tommo]

Visiting || Demi&Louis

[awgcreature]

bigbrother-tommo:

“You have a say in this, ya know? Where you go….trust ya mum but if you don’t feel okay you’ll never get okay.” He said softly

“Except I don’t,” Demi said simply. “I don’t wanna go anywhere.” She had been in therapy oh so many times before, part of her was scared this time it was going to blow up in her face again, like the times it did before. “I felt okay,” the singer admitted. “I felt perfectly okay and now look where I am. I don’t think I’ll ever really be okay.”

[bigbrother-tommo]

He let out a sigh, letting his thumb move over her skin. “Everyone has a different state of “Okay” and I think you were there for a little bit. And I think you lost that after a while. Thinking you can handle what you couldn’t.” Louis chewed his lip. “I wanna help you love..”

[bigbrother-tommo]

Visiting || Demi&Louis

[awgcreature]

bigbrother-tommo:

“I think being in a safe place where your comfortable, getting the help you need, with people who care about you and your recovery is the best for you.” He said with a light squeeze to her hands. “You need the right place for you. Wherever that may be.”

Demi knew Louis had a point. And it was odd to see him being so responsible, but maybe being a dad did that. “It’s not going to be easy finding a safe place that I’ll feel comfortable in,” she admitted. “I guess I’m just going to let my momma pick a place she thinks is going to be the best..”

[bigbrother-tommo]

“You have a say in this, ya know? Where you go....trust ya mum but if you don’t feel okay you’ll never get okay.” He said softly

[bigbrother-tommo]

Visiting || Demi&Louis

[awgcreature]

bigbrother-tommo:

Louis listened to her and put his hand on top of hers. “I know….I know you don’t. Maybe you can go under house arrest or something…at least your home. Have whoever you need to get better come by. Have someone live with you till your better.” He said with a sigh. It sucks but you’ll be home.

Demi could feel her hand twitching, but when Louis placed his hand over hers, she allowed herself to take a deep breath and close her eyes momentarily. “I don’t know what’s best,” she admitted quietly.

[bigbrother-tommo]

“I think being in a safe place where your comfortable, getting the help you need, with people who care about you and your recovery is the best for you.” He said with a light squeeze to her hands. “You need the right place for you. Wherever that may be.”

[lolasong]

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[bigbrother-tommo]

Visiting || Demi&Louis

[awgcreature]

bigbrother-tommo:

“Locked away, no. But some place that’ll help you. Aren’t there places what have like…limit access or something? Or like some one who can live with you and help you? Like rehab in your own home.” He asked. “You need help.”

“Yes, locked away. This is what they do when they think you were trying to kill yourself,” Demi groaned slightly. “What nobody understands is that this just wasn’t my intention. I was up all night, I was tired so I fucked up the amount.” She folded her arms and bit her lip, letting out a long breath. “I don’t want to be locked away.”

[bigbrother-tommo]

Louis listened to her and put his hand on top of hers. “I know....I know you don’t. Maybe you can go under house arrest or something...at least your home. Have whoever you need to get better come by. Have someone live with you till your better.” He said with a sigh. It sucks but you’ll be home.

[bigbrother-tommo]

Visiting || Demi&Louis

[awgcreature]

bigbrother-tommo:

“Well I sure as fuck hope so.” He said. “You need it. Your mad if you thought anyone was just gonna let you go home like nothing happened, love.”

“I didn’t think I could just leave, obviously not. I’m still stuck here, so it’s not really an option to just leave. But I don’t need to be locked away somewhere,” Demi said, shaking her head slightly.

[bigbrother-tommo]

“Locked away, no. But some place that’ll help you. Aren’t there places what have like...limit access or something? Or like some one who can live with you and help you? Like rehab in your own home.” He asked. “You need help.”

[bigbrother-tommo]

Visiting || Demi&Louis

[awgcreature]

bigbrother-tommo:

“Well that’s probably what you have to hear.” He said watching Freddie start a new drawing.

Demi sighed and sat in silence for a moment. “My mom’s looking into rehab facilities,” she eventually said, her eyes lingering on her own hands as she folded her fingers together. She wasn’t sure how she felt about it.

[bigbrother-tommo]

“Well I sure as fuck hope so.” He said. “You need it. Your mad if you thought anyone was just gonna let you go home like nothing happened, love.”

[bigbrother-tommo]

Visiting || Demi&Louis

[awgcreature]

bigbrother-tommo:

He shared a smile with her. “Yes, because I can bet anything that no one came in here and flat out told you that they are disappointed in you.” He chuckled still holding her hand. “You don’t need to hear that…but at the same time you do.”

“No,” Demi said in agreement. “Basically everyone just told me how they had no idea what was going on, which, y’know, was the idea I had when I decided not to tell anyone,” she said, rolling her eyes slightly. “Disappointing everyone is literally the worst thing about this whole situation,” she sighed.

[bigbrother-tommo]

“Well that’s probably what you have to hear.” He said watching Freddie start a new drawing.

[bigbrother-tommo]

Visiting || Demi&Louis

[awgcreature]

bigbrother-tommo:

He chuckled. “No no. I’ll spare gettin’ sappy on ya for now. S’not what ya need right now.” Louis smiled at her, kissing her hand. “I just say what people are thinking. I have no filter and just horribly honest. Not like I’m trying to be a dick. I’m glad you see that.”

Demi smiled softly as Louis kissed her hand. “You say what you are thinking without filtering. You’re brutally honest, and I get that a lot of people don’t know how to deal with that, but sometimes it’s a really good thing. I think I need people like you ‘round me right now.” The singer looked over at Freddie and smiled as she saw him still coloring a piece of paper.

[bigbrother-tommo]

He shared a smile with her. “Yes, because I can bet anything that no one came in here and flat out told you that they are disappointed in you.” He chuckled still holding her hand. “You don’t need to hear that...but at the same time you do.”

[louisbravado]

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[bigbrother-tommo]

Visiting || Demi&Louis

[awgcreature]

bigbrother-tommo:

“Yeah I know.” He murmured softly. “And you don’t have to thank me for anything. I’m here because I care about you, love. You mean a lot to me….honestly.” Louis offered her a warm smile. “For one…you’re one of the few who sticks around even tho I’m a dick with my words.”

Demi raised her eyebrows at him slightly and the hint of a smirk formed on her lips. “Are you just saying that because I hooked up with you?” she teased, obviously joking though. She knew if it was just about that, Louis probably wouldn’t be here right now, and he appreciated that this one night hadn’t messed with their friendship. “Oh yes, you can be a real asshole when you talk,” she chuckled lightly. “Good thing I know you’re a good guy.” She reached for his hand and gave it a squeeze as she returned the smile.

[bigbrother-tommo]

He chuckled. “No no. I’ll spare gettin’ sappy on ya for now. S’not what ya need right now.” Louis smiled at her, kissing her hand. “I just say what people are thinking. I have no filter and just horribly honest. Not like I’m trying to be a dick. I’m glad you see that.”

[louisforlunch]

louist91:

[bigbrother-tommo]

Visiting || Demi&Louis

[awgcreature]

bigbrother-tommo:

You’re gonna be okay, Dem. Not right away not in a few weeks but soon you’re gonna be okay. And I’m not going anywhere so you 100% have someone in your corner, Okay?” Louis said looking her over. “I don’t ever wanna see you here again.”

She stayed quiet for a minute after listening to his words. Eventually, Demi nodded slightly. “Thank you,” she said softly, offering him a small smile. “You know I didn’t really want to end up here either, right?”

[bigbrother-tommo]

“Yeah I know.” He murmured softly. “And you don’t have to thank me for anything. I’m here because I care about you, love. You mean a lot to me....honestly.” Louis offered her a warm smile. “For one...you’re one of the few who sticks around even tho I’m a dick with my words.”

[bigbrother-tommo]

Visiting || Demi&Louis

[awgcreature]

bigbrother-tommo:

“Yay!” The toddler cheered and wrapped his arms around her neck, hugging her again. “Yeah! But it’s when Auntie Demi is better okay? So you have to be a good boy alright.” “Otay, Daddy.” Louis smiled and look back at the women. “Small little milestones you have to look at, love. First one, getting out of here. Don’t look at only the big picture because then you’ll feel like your not getting anywhere.”

Demi wrapped her arms around the little boy when he hugged her, and she held him close momentarily. She eventually let him go again and turned to look at Louis. She knew he was right, baby steps would make it easier finding the right track again. “That’s so easy to say so,” she sighed.

[bigbrother-tommo]

You’re gonna be okay, Dem. Not right away not in a few weeks but soon you’re gonna be okay. And I’m not going anywhere so you 100% have someone in your corner, Okay?” Louis said looking her over. “I don’t ever wanna see you here again.”